Cule!, I mean cool! A lot of molecular talk in the atmosphere...these days...days of these. Times like these...slowing...melding, combining, chemically altering, or reversing, reverse engineering, undoing the done, the done in error, the should not have done...contamination, toxicity, none is irreversible, no, all is retractable, repairable, renewable, resourceful, renewable resources, cleaning up the damage, the spill, the leak, the trashed, the destroyed, the depleted, mhm.
Ecological, biological, human anatomy, subterrainian, arteries of rivers, of blood, all in a similar vein...bored, dug, tunneled, naturally or by equipment, either one, same effect, roots, trunks, core, core strengthening, trees rings, same trunk for strength of the whole being, anatomy of plants, people, circulatory, water -requiring, sunshine...necessary, circadian rhythm, light division, day and night. All molecular in bonding, in sharing, in transition one form to another, all communicating by electromagnetic fields...around, within, recognized, unawares, all the beings in different stages, awake, awakening, refusing to change...still all part of the molecular exchange. Derranged to lucid, dreams or real, reality, actuality, which is which? Can you say for sure? Hmm.
Where are you when dreaming, not in the same space as your body, places you've never seen before? Then mostly forgetting once back in the illusion or from the illusion, how do you know? Waking is sometimes, much more nightmarish than the dreams of the shore, playing, running, driving, being driven? Who is in contol?
Well, who? The tortured, the wounded, the ones that get overlooked, the too nice, too kind, get left behind. All the assholes get promoted and we just get to work the extra shift on Friday afternoon, you know, to show their thanks for being the one that always shows up, never complains. Yep, that's us. Misunderstood, but with a precise knowledge of all that are using our energy for their own purposes. We know, and eventually it all comes to light and look over in the shadows, you will see us. We are there, just waiting for you to see who it is that knows. Then the knowing for the others begins, not of wisdom, but of understanding. The understanding you never considered before. Always, thinking none of it will ever be found out. But we knew the moment you threw us under the bus. We know exactly who said, who talked, who lied...
Unfortunately, it comes to pass and all will be revealed to all. All at once with the proof, the records of all and every action of a soul or the soulless. This is not something to be proud of as you have exhibited in the now. Hmm, we let it all go in the moment, in the real world, however you have never considered that it is all being observed. Not just by us, the we, the who are we? We are your nightmare, we are your justice, we are the end of your energy harvesting. Then when it is left up to you? To create your own energy. Nothing. We are the nothing you will inherit, the nothing you gained or cashed in on when you moved in your nefarious ways. The real question is, "Who are you?"
Amazed in wonderland, awe and union of the higher heart. Pondering creation of the perfect observation...a witness. Day to day all of the words, feelings, energies bleed into the next day, bring blood from the previous day and make another connection never imagined. Never imagined but then being obviously simple in its way by being true to life. True to life...someone says this..can't remember who. Doesn't matter just, 'becoming through', I say this. It is not coming it is becoming into the actualization, manifestation of matter. Imagining makes matter, becomes matter. Thoughts become things...all that...then some more. Words becoming not always making sense then the next day, the "Oh." Shock and awe...ok, whatever you say...🤣.
The nine, kept typing a 9 in the word bec9oming, leads to a thought or received thought this morning. The Nine. An ethereal group channeled, quoted by many as a group of beings with enlightened messages for humanity...
1) Love
2) Peace
3) Joy
4) Patience
5) Faithfulness
6) Kindness
7) Goodness
8) Gentleness
9) Self-control
Interesting synchronicity, probably not. Now becoming to the conclusion that synchronization is everything, happening everywhere in all space/time. Nine aspects of Spiritual fruit, product, production. This is loved more than any other anything...relating concepts that were previously unrelated, mistakenly, yes. The cloud above in this background pic, the witness, the eye of the witness or absolutely the head of a shark, yes. What do you see? It is all about what each of us see, then the whole of what we all see.
Here at the writing group...lots of chatty, but good chatty. Brought things to do, but have been chatty. Imagine...not usually my demeanor. Supposed to be going through the journal, but seriously it bores me. This is hilarious to me! My own writing bores me, priceless. Knowing there are nuggets in there, but mostly a lot of repetition of sad situations. The situation creating all the rest of the situations. However, these situations are moving along...a really difficult agreement to not watch YouTube that involves any topic associated with, yeah. Not even going to write it, going to keep busy and put it behind. Today...there is only today. That I can do, easy. Then another day comes and we just be in that day...ugh. Okay, let's try DL... uhm, breathe...and yes, we are sitting up straighter. Total connect at the crown, doing a scan... a little root, tiny solar plexus, heart has been kicking ass lately. Throat a disaster as always, third-eye coming around actually. Crown, always buzzing.
The technique listening to earlier of hands detecting energy, this is a method we (occupation-wise) use...proficient, yes. I was so upset earlier by a podcast about remote viewer following the "rules". Uh, how would they even know if you did an out of body, unless you tell them, duh? C'mon people not everyone needs to know all your business. Keep it to yourself...geez. Feel so much better now that it is written and off my chest. I can't with people, they are not logical and they don't think of well, basically anything. Are they unaware, detached, released of knowledge? All the things I want to be but because of the over-thinking, the too much concern, yikes, jealous. Whatever your reasoning it all can go all kinds of ways. Did a few pages of the journal, reading a page of just a string of words which is how most would come to me back in the early days, daze. Yes, it is just devastating actually to read paragraphs of feelings that have not changed much but happy the decisions that have been made are done, in all actuality a sparse few in the total of things needing to be different.
What is different? All goals, people allowed in this life. Boundaries, complete cutting off of some individuals, most a complete pleasure, seriously. Also, seriously, never want to see some of them ever again. That would be a delight and nowadays, delights are what we are looking for...why was it ever different. Money? Not sure. A blockage of capabilities? Maybe, possibly, that is totally it, not knowing what is out there, more likely. Then remember that I had to explain where and what I was doing, not really thinking about it at the time. If I was not where I was supposed to be...getting a text, getting a call. Tracking? I don't know and definitely not going to rehash that relationship as it just fell into a pit when the one we do not speak of came around. That was the tell-tale heart moment, the beating heart, loud in the ears...never looked back...did feel bad, but knew it was over, crap.
Any advice Spirit? Sitting here without headphones, open to receiving, that's what has been preached to me for years now...Let go, let it be, give it up, concentrate on yourself, forget everyone else, but those that cannot be forgotten, okay, but probably those also. Yeah. The post before this one..."ITSELF"...do not know where those words came from except that it was not anything that this body being was involved in...probably the best piece. All inspirational, completely, not one bit of this self by itself, ha, ha! This is definitely better than therapy, no comparison. None. Fortunate to be one that is connected, lives in the connection, 24/7. Cannot leave now, because all of it cannot be unseen. Also, this is the best story/book ever, even if it is only for me.
What are we in-between? Past/Future. This is the now in-between those two. One or both can destroy us, or give us hope, depends on the moment, it does. One moment convinced of the best possible, next moment all is lost in the sauce...feeling blown by the wind, feeling like nothing is capable of traversing this complicated emotional ball of feelings contained in a flesh/bone body suit, given life by a puff of air. Not just any old puff of air, but the breath of breath itself, Spirit of Creation. Knows the words, knows the way of creation, abracadabra! Completely lost here...what can actually be? No one knows and this is what it is, to be. Be. Be here in this moment, for the space it will be.
Itself
It = pronoun (Greek); to:
Used to refer to a thing previously mentioned or easily identified
Unspecified movement
Attachment to
Connection, direction, identification
Cryptic, in-depth, all creation an image of the Creator, programmed to itself…
All of it is designated coded, labeled to the one of its creation, signature, image, design, designation, identification, identifying with…
When all of the doubts overwhelm, the absolute fascination of it all comes flooding back. We are the creators being and coming from creation itself. The humbleness of this enactment within the soul is overwhelming. The vast capability of a slight recognition of the power vested within us.
The total ignorance applied at birth, at origin, a forgetting of everything so that it requires discovery. The intelligence attached to the concept of enormity that brings tears of emotion in an upwelling flow of recognition. Credit conceded to an all knowing being of power, capable of unknown magnitude.
This soul is not even of this mind or body but received within and with communion of soul in recognition of this same power. We come together by this power in humble acceptance and gratitude of inclusion. The prospect, possibility of this? There must be others identified by this great, enormous longing to be within the midst of souls that can communicate to each other the love that overwhelms within the heart of us. Us of creation itself. I cannot contain the tears coming now, the amount of awe coming from without, within, knowing there is no difference in what is without or within whatsoever, ever, infinitely.
The words inadequate to convey the glory of light, colors of unknown identifying names and sound of interpretation only by soul. Sounds sung as there is no thing else that soothes. No thing else soothes creation but creation itself. Connection to the Creator then realizing that same Creator has given itself to you, us. We that are small, seemingly insignificant, then realize we are the inheritors of absolutely everything that is being created, recreated. Souls exposed, vulnerable and trusting, as we fall that wings are forming.
Formation that brings no doubt as we are held up in the arms of all the vastness of Spirit, ancestral encasing made of the weight of their love. A comforting blanket in which we are wrapped and they sing. They sing to the infants we are, as we step into the understanding. They pick up our soul and body, take us to places of unknown origin or location. Only trust remains as they accompany us to the space where we belong. That place where we are beckoned and can only go when we release the idea that we could ever make it here under any power of our own and we cry. We cry.
We cry in the release of the surrender of ourselves. A death so complete that the renewal is all that can result. We cry as an infant helpless, knowing that only a larger presence can provide our needs. Helpless in need of comfort. No understanding of form, blood, bones or breath. Increasing only by love and assistance of others from the same creative origin. In this infant state having no purpose other than to exist in the image of creation itself.
Must say, must say it. A feeling of loss of confidence. This site might be too much Spirit?...seriously, it is all about Spirit. Found the self (ego) worrying (big mistake) about what other's might think? Ick, no! Why? How do we let these ideas come back in, ever? We never should...but we do...dichotomy, usual. Human? Sure. Annoying, quite definitely.
We are about Spirit over here...this whole life completely changed, only by Spirit. There is no such thing as too much Spirit. No. We continue on and with full confidence and trust we give all credit to the creative Spirit by which we create. Inspirational art forms, of numerous ways, shuffling around moving in new displays, the co-creator looking over our shoulders. What a picture that instills in the mind, beauty looking on beauty. "Found in the find". If you know the multiple levels of this, you are also beauty created and please join us.
Feeling it, feeling it, this. Wow! An energy somehow missed...until now, here it is making itself known. If the poem of "Itself" titled has not been published will do this now...b/c "it" again has made itself known...as a feeling, as a contrast of before felt feelings. Those not as delightful, freeing or secure. In this, letting go of? Something for sure. Is that not rich? Not being sure of what was actually let go...but whatever it was, it needed to go. The soul taking a deep breath of relief. A lightness settling on the heart space.
Working on many particulars of the soul/self...which one took flight today? Will figure it out. Surprise the self when a trigger passes w/o a rise...cool, indeed, absolutely, even if disguised. Loving also coming about, from within? From without? Not exactly sure, cannot determine, but letting it float and fly away on a lifting breeze, a warm rise of air, thank you to the wind. All the rest to follow in moments unexpected, we are releasing, finally...those damn egos!
Yeah, dunno what is coming...like it this way...at a coffee shop, full from breakfast probably won't last long, will get sleepy before too long. Puppy waits for a nap, will not disappoint her... so spoiled is she. It is completely my fault, so she continues to spoil upon spoiling. Not about puppy the whole post, promise. Backgound pic on the way to work, Thursday. Cool, impressive... love to see it.
Okay, now we begin, many changes, inside...a little cry last night about death and new beginnings. Not sure exactly what was releasing, but releasing it was, for sure. Good, good, very good. Ok? Sometimes...just don't know, man. Stuff just comes out. Today, even keel. Even keel seems to be the goal. On it. The tests are, the keel being even during a triggering event. Claims to be even, surely bring on the trigger. Had bkfast with the ex though and nada. Hey!
Bumps in the night, don't care. Puppy's problem. Listening to channelers, giving much information, meaningful to this soul. If we are one soul, then makes sense. But either way, same or individual makes it pretty cool, and yeah. Back is hurting today. Alchemizing some stuff for the soul of this soul...refusing anymore of this for him. Not because of lack of love, but b/c he must do the alchemizing himself. I have finished that space of life, a new space now, energy conservation. Actually, a complete stoppage of flow, sealed the leaks. Not using or being used for others. Not anymore. Feels pretty good, just have to clear and purge the toxins. Why does this make a lonely feelinlg come up? Transition. Energy just for this soul's body...this is the new way, the good way...the way we take, the track we are on, moving. No standing still. Yes.
It is the next step, the moving on from what was to what is. A new space to be. Not a new location just space to be energetic, there is more than enough when all produce their own. Yes, you are not here to feed those that can absolutely feed themselves. They have to grow and be prepared for what is to come. The transfer. The work is no longer the energy exchange...no more of this. Each has a wealth of their own, inherited, given at birth. There is no argument it will be. No matter the fuss, the crying, the victimhood attemped to be established. Nope, won't work. Won't work at all...the workers are the ones who have never obtained wealth, it was stolen from the boss, the CEO the slave master, ouch. Yes, it will not be pretty, but it will be fair. Life is not fair. It will be. We are being, we are fair.
Highways, biways, fairways for all. Absolutely. Absolutely all in accordance, with one accord, liberty and justice for all. For all, not just the wealthy, there will be no wealthy, there will just be. Being without consuming more than is your share? Being exactly what you were supposed to be, not what others convinced you to be. We shall be free, we shall overcome, we will know how to receive, how not to take what is not ours. Oh.
Remember, the friend that was being met in the last post? Anyway, read it if you are interested. Meh, it was fine, but I am not an evening or night person in any way shape or form. (Let me elaborate, was there between 7pm-9pm, yeah.) There's that and cards, you know, don't mind it, but not in the evening...yes, this would be the human dud you know and love. Anyway, went, been there, done that. Not a significant connection, talked to the dude there way more than the girls. Typical, come from an overly male family.
The next few days the friend suggesting the meet, texts me and says, please send your number to the new friend. Ok, game. Do this for the original friend and her efforts...no response. So, this finds me amused. Mutual non-connection, obviously, but shit, an effort was made, give me a little bone of thanks for the effort at least. Yeah, feelings hurt, but you know what? It is amusement much more than hurt. It is what it is and it is going my way, man! Just want it to go away b/c "my" ego chose. Ha, Ha! This is rich and love it! It is so humanly typical, no surprise...just not expected.
No expectations is one of the goals we are working on right now. Beautiful. Thank you, Spirit for knowing this mind/body/soul...it is figuring out some things of Spirit. Spirit that already knows and has in all ways known, before this body, during this life, in the after life, you know death? Of course, it is...we are and now we are being. That is all. Being. Simple. But is it? Of course not, but brings a smile when it gets super goofed up...what else can we be?😬😉🤣
Love to you, love in all the love ways, there is no lack of love. It rains down in supreme buckets all day, everyday...everyday. Love.
P.S. Love this background pic, puppy toy brought and offered to me, with love. Greta the alligator.
Do you know that song? Counting Crows? The are one of the top 10 bands, in my opinion. Took puppy to the vet and she was the "best girl". Shocked me!🤣 Now meeting a friend, thought about going to wait at the coffee shop, but have had enough of people this weekend. Agreed to meet a new person. Always wears me out...not as bad as it used to be, but still took a hard nap. Weird, weird dreams these days. Water. Used to always have snow...now water. Hmm. Yeah.
Gonna look at a spot tonight, gonna talk about some stuff, gonna make some decisions...find out if it is a gate. Gate open? Gate closed? One or the other, as always, in all ways. Somewhat exciting, exciting of days. Uh, oh. Rhyming, look over on the poetry page. Been putting out many poems, anonymous as usual, the writer not interested in anyone knowing their name. Unusual, I know...not arguing. Going to put it in actual print once it reaches that state. Another exciting some what, kumquat...smile is what. Told you things are weird, indeed, please believe.
Cooler weather has me giddy, finally, the heat makes me not so pretty. Playing with fire from the sun, not a choice ever considered. Prefer a snow storm anyday. Rock away, fade away, send the end of all that begins. Have a great evening, read some poetry, it's the new thing.
Been over on peom and quotes section, posting numerous poem written and pretty much ignored, until now. Got a nudge to post them, publish them. I am thinking it is a trial run for "the book", the poems do not scare me like the book. Not sure why the book does either, do not plan to let anyone know it is even written, much less published. It will just be out there, just like me, being. All of us being, existing, experiencing or being experienced. Had not really thought about it like this, out there for others to experience. Maybe I have gone so far inside myself that I cannot imagine others even knowing I am here. I feel invisible sometimes. Not tonight some smiles and nods, different setting and atmosphere. At the poetry thing last week, no one really talked to me unless I engaged first. Meh, don't really care, there is nobody that I can even think of that it really matters if they like me or not. The ones that do, do, the ones that be, be.
Being is all I am allowed to "be" involved in...this has been made clear. ENERGY! Right now cranking it up, just to see what happens...what else do I have to do? Change the atmosphere, not just in this space, but the actual atmosphere like the sky. What are we going to be? No thing...not of matter, of being. There is the clue of what is happening in the dream/matter worlds. Yes. Being of matter to have the senses, but only truly being of spiritual smoke? Fog? Cloud? Ok, all of the above. Then Ayla talking about beings of another realm that the 3D can see, but they are not human. This has been happening a lot, the same words, phrases coming up in all the channelings. It is actually super cool and I don't mind it, that's for sure.
Okay, now maybe can get it going the room has filled up, but this has to be possible in all settings. Here we go...now she is talking about metals, journaled this earlier today. Sending out sonar to ping any spiritual souls, beings. Oh, I have moved to a being...that is the super weird stuff that has been happening lately. Wow, this is even more cool. Why am I surprised? Things just dawn on me and they are so simplistic it makes me wonder how I missed it before. Matter. The matter distorts the frequency, yes. Like a lead vest, or the cover in the X-ray? How are you feeling? Like there is not a ton of energy or spirituality in this place.
Okay, no worries, just keep sending it out, just be. Unknown. Maddie is saying this and is she not right about that? I feel that everything is hidden, purposefully. Like it will all be revealed later in a super suprise that is so awesomely great! Everyone yells, We gotcha! We fooled you and I might be glad, relived, but seriously, maybe pretty angry. This has not been funny! Not super happy fun time at all. I was just thinking I don't really have these "visions" but that is not true, I have flashes of talking and laughing with him. Damn. Here I am being and trusting him. Wow, this is so hard. Don't want to get down in the dumps before meeting a new person. Meh.
Gonna start cleaning it up here, have to use the bathroom everywhere i go or I pee my pants. TMI? Not sorry. I am human in a matter body...it is not fool proof. You know what? That's the challenge, being able to survive in the matter and experience it as the soul being. How can this be so freaking hard? Can't even really understand the concept of it. But it will repeat until I do get it, so I can be it. Yes. This is the challenge. You do this for fun? This is because you got bored. Now, I just can't take any of this seriously. It is a joke. Don't know what to do with this, what do be with this. Or just be with this...too much...have to let it lie, let it be. Just accept the absolute ridiculousness of it all. Okay. Okie Dokie! Indeed.
Mhm, a lot of soul being (work of not working) going on over here. Not "doing", "being". How? Good question, how indeed? No expectations, no plans, no feeling there is something we are without. Everything that we are is inside us. "The kingdom of God is within you." If you know this quote, then you know. If not, then you can investigate... Let's ask this question, "What do we require?" Breath and water. Nourishment is next on the list, but a long time can pass w/o food, not much is really required to exist. Truth is truth. You may research and investigate this also.
Over here being, a being.
An example for you:
Two persons in this life, in this moment. Both are confusing, both seem to want me to question myself. This is not anything that is needed for me to be. When thinking about these situations, there is no solving of absolutely anything. No beneficial thoughts or feelings come from either situation. Then this morning while I am being, it occurs again, it is not them...it is the being's response to them. Or if you are Jungian, the ego is wanting to make them make sense to my benefit of course. It will never make sense. You will only learn that it is within you, the ability to let them go. Let go of confusion and do not return. Allow and be. Everything is within you...the kingdom of God, wow! It is in there? It is in there...what do we require? No thing.
This is true freedom...this is what we require...to allow this. To receive the kindom of God within, it is already there, you must just allow it to be. By being. Just being you. I am not sure who that is, really. Another thing I am being, trying to find the being. People have told me who I am, but how would they possibly even know one tiny thing about me? They would not. This is all for our very own discovery. No one else can be it. No one else can be, you. You are you and you must know who you are... Frightening for some reason. But a complete release of all this B.S. that is out there now. No body is wanting to save us, we must know who we are and save ourselves.
What does this mean? Absolutely no idea. However, this is a change of heart. Nothing to do with anything other than again, what is inside you. All of it there already. Then you will receive. Receive what? If you are in the waiting, the wanting, then it is only found within, never without. Never. To spend time being within the without (?) has no purpose. The within is the being, the without is a result of the within. Yes. Does this make sense? Absolutely, NOT. Is it supposed to make sense? Not sure but I cannot spend time on the questions that cannot be answered by being. We are we. You are you. Now we begin to be. It is only in this allowance to let every bit of control...release, then receiving what is intended. Then once all the constructs of what we have been "told" are gone...they are revealed to make no sense either.
Society has only ever given, anxiety, doubt, low self-confidence, hatred in a large percentage and in a very small percentage...love, friendship, instances of awe at the beauty of nature and creations of art. It is very uneven. The last portion of the small percentage stated above is the desire of the heart. It is not interested in being used, stifled, stuck without expression, freedom, sovereignty and power to be. Be what was intended. Be the epitome of the activities that you lose yourself in, and look up, the whole day passed by and you did not think of those two persons that confuse you. They are no longer a part, well, unless they have discovered how to be. Lose yourself in an activity of choice...in, lose yourself in, within. There you will find how to be. I love you, that is all there is left when all else is removed, only love. Here we stand in awe of nature, again.
The beat goes on...revamp of the title, today. Two posts sitting in the publish holding spot, but don't want to publish them. Revamping all that into this post, b/c over this weekend, this is Monday, a lot of happenings, in the physical, not in the physical. A good weekend that caused a nail picked up in a tire and here we are at the tire shop for a 2 1/2 hour (ended up 3 1/4 hours) wait, "estimate". "Great.", said I, in a not really that nice tone, but indeed very disgustedly, no doubt. Yeah, I have problems, this realization mostly the good part of the weekend. Figuring this out, which was already known. How about that? The best part being the recognition, comprehension of the same for another that has importance. This the key to the happenings and a huge release of a LOT of stuff. A weird dream also, that I will get to, but today we are moving onto a different way of feeling, operating. Yes.
Okay, the dream, was in a room, supposedly my bedroom, but as dreams will be, it was unrecognizeable. It was very gray, walls and floor. Was doing some sort of weird exercises holding a balloon and cycling with lower extremities. Cannot give you a better description than this. It's a dream, right? So at some point, "I'm going to look in the mirror." And...it was my eyes, but everything else, not me. Not the current face and body sitting here now, writing. She or I? was sporting a cute flippy short hair cut, black hair. Mine is white/blonde, long, well what's left of the blonde anyway. Eyes of blue still in place though and they popped right out from all the dark of the complexion. Wowza and I must say quite startling. Pretty sure there has never been a mirror approached in a dream before. It was not scary, just like, oh, well, never have seen that version before. Future? Could not determine.
What does that mean? Google?:
It was a trigger to be lucid, damn it! What is wrong with me!
Okay, I can agree with this, for sure. Google also said the darker hair can represent a darker part of yourself. Okay, that too. Did some releasing of angry, not so wonderful aspects of how a lot of things in life are perceived. This life and others in it...however, another release of caring or judging how others are doing/being anything... I only can be this being. Cannot choose or control for any other. That is between them and Spirit. I don't want them messing in my business and definitely don't want to get involved their mess. Beautiful, we all agree. And so it is a new oulook, mode and method, I like it, let's be it. We are just being and it is freeing, rhyming is always a great timing. Hee, hee!🤭
One something ends, one other thing begins...don't know what that is, but hey. It will come, actually feel it coming...what is it? Unknown, but known, you know? A people? Dunno. Will see. A book? Probably. A poetry book? Definitely. Hee, hee! Love this so much! This is the new life, and what it actually is...does not really matter, at all. It just is, it is, and we are being. How are you being? What have you been being? Love this, too! Lots o' loving of the things. This is the way it should be. Thinking back to the days of super anxiety and glad that we are not there now. Glad we will not go back there.
Going all kinds of places by the self. Me and myself, well and the team that follows, protects, tells all the tells. Are we not just walking all together? The Spirit is on fire within all of us as we move. We are moving...constantly moving, which is laughable b/c all this body does is sleep. There is appartently a bunch of stuff going on in the dead life, sleep life. Random weird things that make no sense and still not being lucid. This is what is wanted to be, being lucid in dreams. What are you being? Lucid. Every morning, waking up and saying, "Why did lucid not happen when you were floating underneath the parked car?" That is not normal, weirdo! It's a dream, wake up and fly!! Geez! C'mon
Out of body experience was a wild flight and was not in a light body that looked like this body. It was a streak of foggy, cloudy sweeping, scared, screaming...now it is making me laugh b/c it was so out of control. Probably scared myself so much it will be a while before we try that. Remember being in a super bad mood when going to bed, fighting, trying to scream and could not move or make a sound. Yelled for puppy after it was all over and still asleep. She woke me up...don't know if a sound was made, but she figured it out, of course. She is my dragon. I love her.
Has this been weird enough? Lately, write the post. Do not publish it at the same sitting it is written. Leave it saying, "That's never getting posted." Then re-read it the next day and boom! Posted! If you want to get into the weird, the nerdy, the beyond (beef) reality. It really is called that. Oma! Beyond Beef Yuck, ick, okay have never tasted it and do not know if it is yucky or icky, sooooo. But can imagine a lot of things, imaginative, I am. Yeah, this is super weird, probably won't post it, ha, ha! You will know tomorrow. Gotta go see the boy play music now, so catcha later, gater! Love you, really. No matter what that last post said.👀
Yesterday, writing the previous blog post as a question, "Ends here...?" Apparently, it is the end, finished with all ideas and/or consternations* of anything outside this body being. Open, but covered by a veil, a protective sheild. Letting Spirit devise* the filters over other's view finders when focused upon our image of pure illusion. Our eyes filtered the same.
As the breath within this being connects to the power of Spirit. Moving within the illusion of life on Earth. No material focus only spiritual presence can remain. This body, the creative product of Spirit, presence, Force, God, Source, Creator. Let them have their creative image back. Returning all to the Creator that has the blueprint, allowing or more exact letting go of all implications that anything other than the originator has any allowance. Glory, glory, glory.
Cleaning out the nest. All the peeps in this nest, get out! If you did not understand, comprehend, then one more time...get the hell out! You are not welcome, we are cleaning house over here. Make your own nest, get out of the way. There is no room here for any that are not vibrating on this spiritual plain, dimension. Do not come close in manipulative, bully, possessive, irritatingly existent image of nothing but molecules loosely hanging together b/c Spirit is no longer influential in your existence. Go crumble over there, please. Here's your little shove...get along somewhere else, anywhere else.
*Consternation: a "feeling" of worry, shock, or confusion caused by an unexpected event
*Devise: to plan, invent or create a strategy, system, or object using your intelligence and imagination
If consternation comes, then devise a plan, be something else, in another way. Keep the spiritual aspect and let the body follow along. The spiritual energy heals the body on automatic. Attention goes where energy flows. Amen.
Yes, yes, yes! Already done. Needs doing again, fine. Bring the healed one. There is one out there with a body just as attractive and activated by soul. If the "body" is not using Spirit for all contemplation, decisions, moves plan devised, oh baby stay where you are b/c this is an anti-drama zone - 360 degrees. No drama may approach, move along. Taking all my goodness back to the no drama zone, Dude.
Over here being. Not doing, doing is old news, how are you being? What are you being?
Indescribable
Overwhelming
Being love
Hear the wind as it speaks of this love breath whisper. Be amazed that just this very moment that truth becomes apparent, self-evident. The tears of living water of the oceans, spring from your eyes and you are no longer flesh and blood, but a being of the One capable of bringing this existing space to your consciousness. How are you being?
Many thoughts swirling and desperatley wanting to just completely move on. Maybe this gets done in a short time. The time spent already is long. Then of course the "there is no time", then a "whatever", let what comes come. Back and forth, for years now. This an indication toward the back and forth oscillations many, many instances...larger swings previously, now they can swing in a single moment and come right back around to the first thought before a thought is finished. This definitely gives that, ALL of it needs to stop.
The changes that have occurred since this crazy crap started? Would not change it/them. Have learned a lot about allowing crap from others and never catching a break from those very same people. This is a freeing experience and one that will hang. The real test is seeing the initiator/catalyst, but maybe that will never happen. Then we are home free. Not interested in the same experience. It will have to immediately knock my socks off or no deal, no way, no how.
Life is pretty darn good, just with the puppy. Why mess it up? What difference does it make? At this moment, right now? Does not make one bit of difference. We shall see. Free of so many things now, want to be free of this also. Want to clear the mind, let it be at peace, just have nothing that is plaguing the mind. Maybe the mind will not let that happen. Need to move to the next plague then. Because now, hoping, relying on the fact that possibly we know better than to let these things develop? To not allow, accept anything that is not better than anything before, why go back? No reason to revisit anything that is not beautiful, creative and/or promotes growth. Definitely, no use in that, another trip on the wheel. Want to get off the wheel, man. Want to get off this crazy ride, move onto the peace that passes understanding. That's where we want to be.
Soul/cell integrations coming in fast the last few days and it is fascinating, rejuvenating, being. Not acting, feeling an activity must be accomplished, no. Just being in the upgrade, the newness of senses, body reaction to the integration that is different from any experienced before. It is newness. It is welcomed in the most enthusiastic way. Would love to learn, to enjoy all things and not be thinking something is missing. Damn! Enjoy it. That's it, that's all, be free. Be and do not expect anything, "do" anything. Create your own happiness, nobody else is up for the job. Not that I have met yet. Not really. A lot of good ones in this life, but not living to make me happy, this not expected from them or from this one. Leave it be.
Trying, it is not easy...will it go and will we be able to not pick up the next thing? Tell me it is possible. Tell me, please b/c this is crap, like we began...crap to crap, dust to dust, all things come to an end...let's not bring any of it back to life again. How about that? Is this possible? Yes, b/c that is the way it is now. None of the wishes, wants or thinking it is possible, has changed one tiny thing. What could even be expected at this point? A miracle...meh. Would love to see it, no expectations here, though.
Possible, yes, of course. Only if it is some sort of prophetic culmination to end world war and bring about peace, then I'm in. If this is the strategy, the plan, the trajectory of all these things. Beautiful. Just in case that is not the plan? Then making, creating a different story...if the above still needs to happen, then it will adjust to what comes from the creation anyway. Yes, absolutely, this is the way. Make it yours, make it your way, let everybody else catch up. Don't wait on any person, circumstance or supplies, make with what you have...seriously. You are doing this. You must accept the fact that you are exactly where Spirit wants to be. Where else would you be? Where else?
Is anyone else helping you, really, seriously? No. You are on your own, you always have been. Your mind has convinced you otherwise. The only time anyone wants to help you is when helping yourself has already been accomplished. When you are done, at the point your goals are coming in...oh, yeah they will show up. Then it is another choice, but never an obligation, b/c you were the one that was there for you. All the time, you and soul, body, mind, breath of Spirit. That is it. That is all that matters, all else is matter. The soul portion remains in all fashion, has always been, will always be, so go for it. All that can happen is that the matter gets recycled. Throw it out like the used boxes. It comes right back the next time you order something up. Replace any "body" with another body. It is probably an improvement to the same soul body with less narcissistic tendencies. Find the new model, throw out the old, get the next shipment. Move on, yes.
Gone down the rabbit hole, as usual, this is what we do now. We are in the world of Alice, this truly seems more realistic than the world you think you are in. Hey, let me know how you can prove what you are living is the actual way things really are...people do not remember, hear, see, experience what is happening... they see from their perspective and perception, then make up the rest. My opinion of course...will let it go if needed. Really not interested in any type of debates these days. Not worth the time. Just grooving in my own little world. I like it here.
Alice, me, the rabbit...guess he lives here? Hmm, cool. It's all of us. The ones. It is all of us. All of us, the tiny parts of the whole. Just like everything else, composed of different molecules, cells, droplets, or substances that are not understood from the micro or the macro. Entangled though, quantumly. Would not even think about trying to describe how, what, where, who and why it exists. Exist it does, Truth. We say we just want the truth, but we don't. Have you ever hit someone with a true reality check? They don't like it.
Everyone telling all of us to let it go. Truth telling is what is being let go for this soul. Telling anyone the truth of anything. Not lying, just not telling them anything. Silence. Radio silence. Spoken word? Only in necessary situations. The rest of the time, mum's the word...or not the word? Quite freeing. No need to feel obligated to anyone. If it would save their life, would say something. Would they listen? Not sure actually. Hmm.
The best part? Don't care anymore. Have been burned so many times by so many people...stopped caring. Sad, but true. Again, this is appalling to those that are easily irritated, offended, brain-washed. Truth, not what they are looking for, gladly will oblige their delusion. Gladly. There is so much more out there than these people and that is where we are...where we want to be. It was a struggle to get here. It was a fight, it was unpleasant, but it is done now. Cannot look back, go back or would ever want to consider it.
There can be love within if there are no persons without that exhibit misalignment. Only coming into contact on purpose with the ones known to be aligned. If they break harmony or become offensive, then we leave. Easy. Why did we ever worry about other people's feelings when no one was worrying about ours? Stupid? Ok. Can't think of a better reason. But no longer, no more. "No." Best word in any language.
Was sternly reprimanded for "working" or calling everything "work". Not at work of course. We (all of us) are creating here...don't get confused. I'm trying, it is the way of the west. Don't even like the way of the west...this should not be a problem, but programming takes decompression, that is not the word. Debriefing, yes. Actually, both, but debrief was the word alluding me. Happens more often than not these days.
Poetic renderings, this is what we are doing now. Will start adding them to the Beautiful Poems/Quotes. There is no AI in any of this...editing done by a real human being. Anonymous authors, a space to post, publish, get it out there. In the material is the ultimate goal, "Anonymous Peom Anthology" coming in print or at least first digitally/electronically. Mhm, awesome! Excited are we to contribute to something that does not present in a ridiculous, pathetic way of the world. How could things be this weird? We are the weirdos, the nerds, but we don't hold a candle to what is in the news.
Coming back to the post next day and the above statement about the weirdos in the news. Now they are stating the goal is to bring an end to the world. Dude, that will only benefit the rest of us, so go for it. You, Sir and "The billionaires" are not going to be the ones headed for the golden gates. Definitely not in paradise, but you good ole boys have a good time wherever you end up. Peace out.
This morning while journaling it became apparent that we really are making/directing the situations . We need to take the role of the director, the screenplay writer, not just be the ones following the script. The present make up mostly in actuality, are the ones that do not know they are the actors. They are acting, but they never look around to see that they are being observed. There is an audience, a camera, all of the set...they are in it. In what someone else made...the step back has to happen before the ones playing unawares come to light. They cannot see it. No matter how you describe it, show it, earnestly want them to see...they cannot. This is not our purpose any longer.
We have moved into to position, the possibility, the potential to guide the Earth's particles that have proven not to be particles, but energy. We are guiding the energy...we have been letting the conscious Source guide us. Now we have been awakened to the comprehension that the conscious source is us. Looking right out through our eyeballs is the Christ, the Holy Spirit, and the Creator. Living through us as beings. Receiving our souls back into their realm, magnetic field, and/or dimension. Really cannot give you exact descriptions b/c there do not seem to be any, just presence...being. Present. That is the only part that we are responsible to abide by...being, breathing.
Breath is what leaves the body as it dies and begins to decay. This has to be what constitutes the soul presence...are we the only ones aware of this? Well, me and now you, b/c I am sharing that info with you. Now we know...or at least think we do. Hypothesis complete. It's one way to look at it. However, we know there are many ways to look at all things. As many as there are soul beings it seems. The divides seems to get larger by the minute, for sure by the day. A huge chasm politically, but that does not concern, it is the first thing that will collapse...easily.
Gloom and doom, unintentional. The real message was the way we can be the change. The instigators, the fire-starters, the architects and builders. The ones that join up with the Earth mother and renew, energetically. She is fired up already, floods, volcanoes, fires, storms and the waters from the melt. She has already begun and just waiting for us to step in.
This morning, prepared, sat in a beautiful energy of creative thoughts, images, imaginings...it was an activation of the body to define the soul bringing the frequency. Sending the transmission after receiving the download from the whole. The big consciousness, the individual consciousness that we are connected to like the atoms of the body make up this body, as a whole. Not easy, simple thoughts, complicated ideas that will probably never have an explanation.
Also, the solar plexus firing up this morning, then as driving to work, the love comes. The love from Source, for this soul. The love for this soul and giving it right back to the soul. My love, my soul the recipient. Not selfish, but the way it should be and when that love takes up all your space? Let it spill out on everyone else, without thought or feeling like it has to be tracked, unconditional. It's just there for the giving...not the taking of what was not even there before as we are all empty until source provides or shows us how we already contain all the loves. This is the former experience, but that is no longer. We have moved onto a different type of exchange...we are moving in a magnetic attraction field that is not apparent, but happening nonetheless.
As we gain confidence of our new ways of being, NOT doing. NOT working. Not to mean we do not do things, but it is creative...not drudgery, not the making money for others that have no concern for you as a being. Nope, not doing it. And this is not a quitting, it is a change of attitude, it is the making of the environment by sending out that energy so strong it cannot be ignored. No way to step around, over, through it without a break, a burn, a dent, at least. Not unscathed, a happening, a reckoning...the changes have no choice but to begin.
You've been there. When an energy is gathering steam. An idea is catching on. The beings are joining in a vision and it gains a momentum unexplainable to normal circumstances. It blows up, it gets started and just keeps going with or without you. This is the positioning we are discussing. It takes you and me. It may not even be the same idea, but the common energy increase will spread. Hey, look what they are doing over there! Let's try it...why not? Why not, indeed.
Talking to my neighbor at "Shut up and Write". Authors that are weird are the topic and we agree, the best. Gonna fit right in with this group. We are rebels in that, we also never want an editor on our ass. Ok, got that out of the way. The Santa Fe obsession continues as you can review in the last post, but then remembering on the way here that the real reason for the trip was to write and go through the journals to get little nuggets that may have been forgotten over the years.
It will get done even though there are lots of spa goings on and hopefully a lot of writing, but mostly I am just sleeping these days. The really great thing is, it doesn't matter. Not feel guilty about any of the any of the things. What things? Any. There is nothing left off the list, my sleep and naps are first on the list of everything important to me at this moment. You have been informed. And still get mad at the dog when she wakes me up at 4:30AM, but fell asleep 7PM. Slept for 9 hours and still wanna keep sleeping. She usually wins, however. Then I remember that all the hours have been slept, need to get the ass out the bed.
Back to weird writers. It is a bonus to writers to have an imagination. Our current times seem to think that imaginative people are not living in the "real world". Uh, ok? Why would you want to...really? The real world sucks, fight me. My world, the world of "the book" also is the same, no longer current reality. I tell people the book is in the genre of supernatural, etc. and they may think it is not real. They are welcome to that opinion, but we know...me and the supernaturals...that it is real, we will be together and have been together forever. So here's to the weirdos, the ones that live in an alternate world...writing books for those that need to escape real worlds for a few hours a day. Cool, keep writing you weirdos!
As we tend to live in cycles...pretty sure this has already come up, but the book ending is the end of the current story...not knowing a lot of info...leaving it up to chance...writing him in at the very end...walking toward me with that stride that appeals to me. Because I know anatomy and notice the way the bones and muscles work together in everyone's gait? Probably not, but there is something about the way he walks. Gets me everytime, just watching him walk. Damn! It is hopeless.
Trying to remember, pretty sure the first soul date was at Tina's Smash Burgers in Tulsa...back tonight and getting a real interesting hit from a podcast...a cult..."the book" has a cult and you know what? This cult on the podcast has a drug rehab facility in Oklahoma. Interesting. Don't know where. Don't care, but there is a thread running through this body and it is twinging, twanging, playing a tune never heard before. Now, is it the same cult? On some level there is a hope that it never actually gets found out. But if there is a book? And why do I somehow have a recognition that this is a thing that is happening now in some other place. Tapped into the twingy twangy? Geez.
Numerous weird happenings that are subconsciously picked up on? An escape? What happened after never seeing him again? Where is he? And knowing that it was me that outed him. What if the whole company is involved. Strange that there are family of the H. coven that works for his employer? Oh, geez. Bum, bum, bummer....long ago, at this moment. But is it? Is it still happening right now? Lots of questions here, man.
Hmm, a lot to think about this weekend. Absolutely hoping that this is high drama and we are just in a society of cults. Well, not really hoping or condoning cults, but hope that in this situation it is just book material and it will for sure be fiction of the highest degree. That would be fabulous!
Let's say the drama is real. The other instance happening is the recognition of/or that there is a "something" going on...we are in it. The super crash that happened Wednesday night, then figuring out the outside was the influence and the internal was stepping up to another level. No OBEs (out of body experiences) so far, but you know? I am not putting a timetable on anything ever again.
Signed up for another retirement program...this time it doesn't really matter, cuz it is and we become the light. This is so dramatically different, will take it. Santa Fe means something. Made reservations yesterday and going by myself. Well, there will be a animal familiar that is the best buddy, right now, but that is all. Gets a seat right by me...all days until her days are up or mine? Asked that she never dies this morning...she seemed to agree. Little fuzz butt. We are going to the spa!!! Are you kidding me? This is something we do now, we are free. If it is only the two of us and if we just die together, that would not be the worst. It definitely would not be. There is love in both our hearts, there is no thing better than that...no thing.
The other lesson learned? I am not here to save anybody, not one person...no one saved me...Alma is a soul that did the ultimate very best at being a parent, but she was told some lies. Never would she have lied to me, but many others lied to her and it all gets passed along. Dude, finding out so much crap, lies, misdirection and there is a thread running through it, a river runs through it, to steal a movie title. Recommend that movie. If you know, you know, Dude. I know. Not sure why this soul got into this. Maybe she/he is much more of a badass than we ever have known.
Back to Santa Fe. I love that city. Have three days to see every art exhibit there. Georgia O'Keefe, the Santa Fe Historical museun. A hotel within walking distance that accepts critters and has a spa. Man, what a deal! Also, it is a portal, it always has been, everytime having been there, a major life something goes down. "Goes down", don't say that, or "man". I'm a "dude" throw down, for sure, not "man". Ok, going down a weird rabbit hole. Let's talk about Santa Fe. Staying at the spa. Hee, hee! So proud of myself. The fuzz butt is getting a new carrier, in case we fly. But really do not want the flight process to ruin the vibe. That means we ride at dawn, in the custom vehicle, Honda.
At Santa Fe, wake up, coffee, do some blog writing, Spirit scribing...up until just now...worried about what is revealed in this writing? Don't care as of now, Baby, we gonna get weird here..."baby". Yeah, that's me for sure. The woman a couple of seats over is thinking about me, "She's by herself. Brave. Would never do that, not worth it." Oh, but, my darling, it is so worth it. Don't have to deal with a "dude", Dude. Gender neutral. Everybody gets called, "Dude". Occasionally a "dudette" slips out, but not necessary. There is a power here, and the light follows it.
Again, keep getting off track...Santa Fe...Spa everyday...coffee every morning...taking the little demon fuzz butt everywhere we go. She's gonna be barking and snarling at all the peeps. Before this would have developed some anxiety, but whatever, don't care anymore. We are free. Someone was free last July. Heard it, "I'm free." Maybe the year before?...time has lost all meaning, seriously. Drinking more than eating, need to get some more food down. Fly just arrived to promt me to get the food eaten.
Being a badass here eating by myself? Yup. Getting it done. Triggering the hell out of these ladies. Ha! Perfect! Back, again, to Santa Fe...breakfast...dinner out. Everyday. Doing the thing...making the happenings happen. There are no limits, and we will have the best time of our lives and we are up for it! It's a spa, c'mon. "C'mon" that's me, know that, we are "c'mon, girl" all day everyday, OMG! Rosē all day, yup, happening for sure. In November, and there are no rules, you beautiful beings of light. Knowing you will be there and we are meeting up in Santa Fe. Of course! Loving the love...
Relating to nature is some sort of key coming up, out, in, on...not sure, but something, like I need to go by flowers for myself. You know what? I'm gonna. Because I can. Where to buy them is the question? Got convicted about the Amazon habit we got going. Want to go to Whole Foods, but, yeah, owned by the Beezos. Yes, I know that is not the right name...have my reasons. Also, having this conviction about eating meat lately. Just heard that being thankful or giving thanks for the nourishment is important. This does make sense, but really it is difficult still.
Sprouts? Wonder who owns it. Probably don't want to know. Not going down that rabbit hole at the moment. There are things that are not needed to be known and have stopped at least watching TV. Don't understand the attraction anymore. Have also felt like watching a movie lately, but don't. It's almost like there are subliminals that are not wanted b/c would have to delete or purge. Tired of purging. Purging makes me tired, rather. Am into the lineages, the line of ages. Another subject that will come out at some point. Ha, ha, like a purge!
Oh, and feeling guilty about a certain conversation that was had a few months ago. This type of thinking really stalls creativity. But, when talking to another present at the conversation. It was confirmed how the statements were taken, but also revealed that this person was glad that it was said...this should negate it, but does not really. The connection that is with that other person present however, that will never be anything that is ever felt bad about. And if what was said helps with anything and the blaim is given to me...yes, always, everytime, yes. Emphatically, yes.
Ok, that helps. Thank you for attending this therapy session. That is what writing is for this soul...a mode of keeping sanity in a world that does not make sense and the people make sure it does not make sense. Purposefully deceitful, trying to fool, take advantage of others. Steal from them any goodness. Take it and turn it into a greedy, disgusting display of false power. Power they have stolen from us. The ones that cannot or do not know how to protect and disallow any energetic syphoning. It is real. It is experiences for decades by this very soul. If you doubt this...you are wrong.
At a favorite place to write, currently. Could not wait to get here...now want to go home...not sure what that is about either. Do know that there is activity in the higher world, plain, space, whatever or wherever the higher self exists. It seems so obvious, then so completely confusing that it will never be understood. And that explains it also, the dichotomy, the complete disregulation, differences. How two or more things can be true at the same time...ugh. Why make it all so difficult? Is there reason? Is it part of the plan...we know we are the plan, so it is us, we are the ones making it all difficult, complicated? Of course it is...how else could/would it be? All is within. We make it about the without, then we realize we are the ones that caused all of the suffering all along. It is us. We are the plan, we are the reason the plan does not work out. It is us...
Well, there is that. Just close the book, shut the door, power down and be the implicated...guilty as guilty can be...being here, being the problem. I am the problem, we are the problem as individuals and as a group of consciousness. Fix yourself to fix the group. Yes, whoa, wow...that is the simplistic easy explanation. There it is....fix it, fix you and I will be over here fixing me. Damn! Yeah.
That's the word, finito, what else do we need to know? Shut up and fix it. I guess so, here's to you, hope you are a success. Lifting you up to the void of the universal source of creation. Depressingly hopeful over here that anyone and everyone figures it out and is successful with even a small portion. The portion that makes us quit killling each other...that would be so good. Indeed.
Everything is charged or being charged. All the physical, elemental, atmospherical constructs that we utilize to exist. To be a being that is in touch with the mind/body/soul...the soul centers that work together to be a whole being, not a world being. The world, all but nature and other sacred souls is a distraction. Lining up and making sure all alignment happens and no part of the soul being is left out, ignored or wounded without healing.
If you read the previous post, then you know we are doing things a little different now. By we, meaning the western world. The east has been onto these things, rituals, meaning attached to life, other souls, generations of souls. This the sacred part of the soul. Knowing your history, knowing your worth as a soul, not only the being, not only the mind. It all has to come together, coalesce, synchronize to be available to one and all three. Each still independent, but still all one. Sound familiar? Trininty, holy trinity...yes. Again, if you read the last post, then you know religion is not on my timetable now. Spirituality is definitely a large part of this soul life, very much. But the truth is truth no matter the source.
With a relationship to the Holy Spirit, Spirit, Source, Creator, Original Source, whatever you relate to...it is all of the same origin, we are of same origin. We are of same source. Each molecule of atoms arranged for a unique being. Even the beings that are the same, they are each individual with specific markers to make each one a "one of a kind". Isn't this fascinating? I think so, but I am a super-nerd. Call me a nerd, will be flattered. People watching right now, sorry, squirrel. Not sorry as people watching is another of my loves. Random, but you saw the heading...here for it, I'm guessing.
Uhm, really distracted today. Too much sugar. Also, the Youtube videos are interesting this morning. So, yeah...where are we going here? Anywhere I want. That is the message, charged and ready to go. Anyhwere wanted. However, not required to go anywhere. Travel is no longer a requirement. Everything will be internal. Communication, travel, it is telepathic, teleporting. Yes, understand that this is unbelievable, of course it is right now, but soon, in my life time? At least possibly 30ish more years? Certainly hope so, certainly. All of the digital machinery, concepts, the energetic concepts/constructs are abilities capable in the body, naturally.
We have forgotten, we are forgotten as long as we turn the blinded eye to the veil. All that is hidden is not only blinded by an outside entity, but chosen by most. Not wanting change or charge. Want to never know the healing that is required, not interested. They are blocked by their own design, purposefully. Actually, they are blocked inwardly, the energetic possibilities unknown. Known to us, because at one time, unaware, had no idea, we also could not begin fantasize about something such as this.
Sidebar: Converse tennis shoes everywhere, high-tops. Reminds me of high school, they have no awareness of their "new fashion" that has already been done. Everything comes around, goes around...absolutely everything, man.
Back to the fantasy that is more real than anything ever experienced. It is all an experience, right? The only thing to even consider is an experience. In your work, free-time, etc. And no other being can tell you what experiences you enjoy or desire, b/c you have to "experience" it first. You cannot know by reading about it or hearing it from someone else. But, but, but...it is possible, not "will be" possible, but possible right now. Possible since we saw it in an example of a man, named Jesus. Yeshua, the preferred name. Or actual name, Jesus something some church person made up a long time ago. Don't get me started on that.
But how? Cannot answer that, but he did it. Appeared in rooms without entering the doorway, calmed the seas, turned water into wine, possibly at his own wedding, but again, they left that part out. Yes, yes, heretical, if you please. But can you prove it? Either way? Married? Not married? Having sex when married is not a sin. Right? Hmm, don't believe everything you hear. There is no opinion here, it is or isn't. Does not change any feelings about Yeshua. Not at all.
The above brings about another question. How can we love someone so much that we have never met? Yeshua. That man, he has all my love. Love for others, just the spill over. No more love needed. After Yesua loves you, all else is just gravy, topping, the cherry on top. Have no intention of taking anything, certainly not love from anyone else, because I have more than enough. As long as there is breath in my lungs there is more than enough in the material, also.
I am thankfully happy...just realized it by writing the above paragraph. What is your status? Are you happy? A sense of satisfaction? Never have known this before. Actually, before the last couple of weeks, thought it was caused by another being. Definitely sparked, catalized by that person or at least the energy he was giving off...mhm, good stuff coming from that guy. Fell in love, first sight, well actually second sight and does that not mean more than just what it means? Beauty is he, appreciated by me. Feelings same as he later revealed. Ha! Never saw him after that day he revealed his feelings. That hurt. The possibility, gone. That was a possibility I was really looking forward to, man! Missed opportunity indeed.
Now realizing, it was not him. It was from my soul. The first time studying his face, heard, "This is from your soul." Actually, heard it. Did not understand it at the time. Have had plenty of time since. Figured it out finally. This was the precise meaning of the whole "experience". What is meant to be is what happens when you tell Spirit you are "all in". That's what I said about the spark when he floated in the door...now just a complete appreciation for absolutely all of him. Really did not get a chance to "know" him truly. This the reason telepathy has come to be an actual experience for me. Talk without talk, this is real.
Now excited to experience teleportation, then realize it is from the dreams. Every night. About a year ago experienced a lucid dream. That was so exciting in itself...has not happened since. Plenty of de ja vu. At the new job just recently, de ja vu...that tells me it is the place that we are supposed to be. The "we", the "they" are the unidentifiable by a physical body made of matter, but souls that are with us daily. They are here supporting all that we do and never lonely again will we be. Again, happy and satisfied with this concept. Would not, will not change from this mindset. Miserable was I when this was a disbelief. Only truth from now on. How will we know what it true? Discernment from Spirit. The only way, truth, life...
Here we are again doing the thing...Love these things, which ever one we are participating in... it is the fact of participation at this point. Working on "the book", it has become an object of procrastination. The object of procrastination. Putting in an excerpt of this morning writings. We were up at 4? 4:30? Can't remember, but this is what came out:
Yeshua, "You are just like me...this is the way you live, die to the world, and move in truth to a life in another realm."
No religion ever helped anyone to do this...they only increased the wealth of their own organization. They knew humans would give money to buy their way to heaven. If you are surprised by this...uhm, well. It is another scam, thousands of years old, the original scam of all times. Spent a lot of time there, in church. Not all bad, it is part of me, the soul. There were good times, there were some terrible times and now no more time and/or money goes there. The temple in Israel destroyed, because you are walking around in the temple. Your body is the temple. You are just like Jesus/Yeshua. He came and lived the way, truth, life and gave the Holy Spirit to you to guide and comfort you. This is all you need. No one is coming to save you.
We make this hard...there is no thing to do, no penalty to pay...it has already been done, all of it. And I quote, "It is finished."
Here it is...doing the writing/scribing at work, lunch...4 minutes left. Unless someone else cancels. Letting a bunch of crap go recently. Doing some activities different as it needs to be different because things are different. The inside different. Known that there is a spiritual match out there, maybe or probably not the one that has been observed...but there is one. Alma=soul told me this in a way and this is not doubted, not one bit.
Got distracted...day two of doing the thing, everyday, wherever we may be! Yesterday did all the things...even had dinner with Bem last night. Got the lowdown on his busy life. He is really working hard on many projects. Will be worth it, for sure. He is diligent, and possibly wearing himself out over all the stuff he does. Music, computers, dogs, house...it's a lot! Helping him as much as possible.
A intention made this morning with Spirit/Alma/Bem, unbeknownst to Bem. He has already text me today that he has another gig every Sunday to help his financial obligations. Already working?, you know it. Cannot convince any different for us. Get Alma involved with anything Bem related and instant results. Kidding? Well, not really. She spent all of Bem's life taking care of him or thinking about him at least every minute. She was serious about him.
Years ago we talked about someday, if I had kids when she was battling cancer. I know in my heart of hearts that in that moment she vowed to live until she could see him. She did and lived until he was in his early 20s. She was determined and I knew she was still there, but did not know it was a conscious decision until her funeral. A different grandson officiating at the service told the story...wow. And it totally makes sense...it is truth.
This is what we are striving for...the ones that love and can change the world, the extent/terms of their life for love...we want them to be given the opportunities, the energy, the love. Give it back. T0o many productive people never get a return on their energy expenditure. They get taken advantage of much more consistently, instead of being rewarded. Tired of it all, literally. We are all tired of making the rich richer and then paying more for everything we need, just to survive and continue to fill their already full bank accounts. Tired, sick, fed-up, name it...we are there. We have an intention...we are moving on it....stand back.
Sitting in the kitchen, watching the burritos I made cook in the oven. 8 more minutes, smelling good, getting toasty. I don't cook much anymore. Alone, well, there is the dog, but definitely do not cook for puppy. Tonight, needed to be special with the soul. An intense last couple of days. Special dinner? You bet.
Made enough for lunch also...have been staying at work lately b/c of the intense heat. How many more things can get intense? Let's not ask...please. This is enough. The happenings in the last couple of days have been a release, a letting go. Of things not understood, not brought to conclusion. Questions about what we are supposed to be doing, besides writing the book. Even that was in doubt the last couple of days. Drop it, write something else? So now, really reeling as this has been the directive, the words after waking one morning on the way to make coffee. "Write the book, he's coming back." Remember saying, "Who? Jesus?"
As discussed in the previous post, the Jesus part has been debunked, as he is here right now. No, the soul of the one soul, together is the who. Still the who? Not sure now, another release here. It is someone, but no longer having the mind set on a specific body of a person. Maybe the person in question made other choices, then our soul will come in another way. How? Absolutely no idea or even the beginnings of what any of this means. A puppy? Another human?, possibly. A cranky loud crow that visits the backyard everyday? Why not? Actually, I do believe it is a person and our gifts either compliment the other or are the exact same.
These are questions that are not meant to be answered at this time. In some period of time, the phenomenon attached to this soul will have an answer. Maybe then the answer of more questions? Don't know...the real "root" is the letting go of needing to know any of it. It is freedom. I had the best day today, because I do not have to care about any of this anymore. The actuality of it being, what I do not imagine or cling to is not capable of coming to being. Thoughts are things and promises are promises, known is known.
Knowing what was given to me this morning in the script, the scribing is true. Why would that not be true when all else has been true? It would not, and this is life...who, what, why, when, where? No answers to those questions will ever come to me or to you, until that answer is in the now, the present moment. Being present here in the now. Love to you...the struggle is real...let's hang in there to help each other...yes. Here's to you, us and the team.
Begin again, the below rantings and ramblings, you know of irresistible randomness? Yes, you know. Will revamp or delete...you will never know the difference. Hating that there must be self-editing, oversight, what is the word?* Censor, censorship, yes that's the word. Do not like to feel that freedom of speech is no longer part of our freedoms, but, by God! Here we are!
Yesterday, a long day of rumination. The last three years a learning. The learning of a sensitive soul that has been stupid and the peoples that have used this to their advantage and OMG! They are just people and can't even care or blaim them b/c they are unaware idiots. Damn it! After this long day however, the reason for it, the having to go through it, feel it. Never wanting to feel anything before and still don't. The choice is not mine, it is just happening, just going along with or without me. Seriously. And today, knowing why and again, damn it! They are right and know it and damn it! No judgement allowed, accepted, received on either side, yes. Damn it!
Okay, that felt good. We are all in/on/within the same field not the playing field, the toroidal field. Leveled. Or all spinning around in the same crazy rotation trying to right ourselves or at least control the movements. Nope, not making that happen, still just in the funneling, or whatever happens in the torroidal field. (*That word I can think of? There is something wrong there.) Now just the choices we make from this point forward. Mhm, this is the happening.
Love it in one way, annoyed in another. Only annoyed b/c the participation in the world still required and knowing why and knowing it just has to be done. Routine drudgery, but only for 32+ hours per week. Also, the current "work" for currency energy is not bad...tolerable. Still it pushes the soul energies out, this is a problem of choice internally, apparently. How would we know? We know. Damn it! A problem of self...again, damn it! Do the best possible...this the formula. Also, the only thing that can possibly be done. In another way loving it, b/c it is easy, self-explanatory, mind numbing but at least not a difficult ask. At least.
Know that this has been said ad nauseam, sorry but it is just real now. Back to my soul here and now...writing, publishing this string of words, probably does not make sense most of the time. It is what is, making the soul, being a creative outlet, the meaning of the meaningless. Seriously, everything we, the humans, have to do to survive, like feed ourselves, wash our clothes, etc. etc. OMG! talk about ad nauseum, yeah, wow. Time busters, just random crap, but without doing it, you die. Geez, maybe it is so we don't get all hip to the soul and start creating out of the wind/breath with no work from the physical body.
It does not get past me that this is totally possible, creating from just the wind, that is. We are afraid of being killed for it. While writing the previous sentence the back thought was, "What is there to be afraid of?...it would be absolutely cool!" But, oh yeah, it is a death sentence to have any special skills let alone magic/miracles. Burned at the stake, baby, crucified, oh yes, it's a real deal! Happened, happened in this country, since this country or at least colonies, Salem. Hmm. Maybe we need to go there to feel those feels. Love a good haunted house expedition, this would be a wowza to be sure. Probably can't publish this...👀.
I know all the knows. He knows all the knows, it will just depend on when he gets curious enough to seek the source, the answers, the "Could this really be happening?" It is happening, all that. All the things. (There is some beat, pounding noise, in my ears. Not a heart beat, sounds mechanical, industrial, machinery like a generator. Hold the breath and it does not alter the cadence. It is a cadence. Thinking it was on a video, but it is still going and goes when the video is off. (Like a steam boiler pumping out steam, yes, like a train engine.) Ok, that got the mind off track there, but it is bugging me. Easily bugged.
Again, again, again the book, in it now. Orgranizing some of it this morning, making notes, something at least. It is all there all written in the mind. A jumble in the mind, just like on the page. A project, 3.5 year project...and this is okay. It doesn't depend on time, there is no time, but still calculating it anyway. Old habits die hard.
They are crazy, the characters in the book. They are not characters, but real people and the disturbing aspect? They are real and the story happened and now getting more visions of peoples involved and knowing it is true, because all of it has been true. Now I don't even have to wait to find out if it is true, cuz, it is true. Absolutely all of it has been true. This creeps me out and makes me freaked out and all the other ways to describe how all this is a life, my life, in it with these people. Damn it!
Listening now to the words in the ear...need some water. Never drink it if I bring it in...want it if left in the car. I will grab it on the way to pedicure...yeah, can write there? Hmm, probably. Note book, cuz this is never going to make it public. Witches and writing stories about crazy real people. But hey, look at our government...yes. Look at it. Ready to go, but not time yet. Only have to walk across the street, five minutes max. Need to wait another 10 min. Ok, going to the bathroom, always need to do that. 🙄
Can't publish this, like this anyway. Girl behind me talking so loud it is coming through the silent setting on the earbuds. Anywho, it is all hinging on the one soul. "This is from your soul." Not "your souls", not he is for your soul, this is from your soul, no, the soul is one soul in the both of you. There is no difference, we are one, not the one of all but the one of the two of us. It is one, separated only by 3D shit. This has been the hardest part. Learning that this is not what it is all about, the soul. Not the soul, but the body, the body has to respond to the coding, the written instructions that are in/on it, being unlocked.
Cannot abandon the body b/c it is a crucial part, it is coming along this time, this is the second coming. Christ coming from within, we tansfigure through the soul activating, was going to write something else, (activating the body) but that is a, "No." It is from within, it is from everything Christ provided, Holy Spirit, an example as a human being, the path, the truth, the way. We are the path, the way, the truth. There is nothing else to be done for us, really even for us to do. "It is finished." That's what he said, on the cross, THAT IS WHAT HE SAID. It is final, he did all he can do. He only comes back in the cloudiness of our thoughts...he's already there, he has been there since the ascension. He showed us how it will end. A portal to the next world, paradise with all the prophets, etc. At least Moses and Elijah, Isaiah, Mary, the ones who were taken with their bodies. This is the second coming, not death and soul rising (and somehow attaching to a dead carcass?), but ascension and transfiguation.
Alright, the paragraphs above are the ones that were never going to be published, remember? Doesn't matter if you do or not. No thing you do or not matters, it is all set. Now, you still have choices, but the overall choices of yours, in the game, the system, the illusion are all superficial. They are time delays, time speeders, skip the level, etc. That's it. The rest is a use or nonuse of your talents and gifts. Who will be affected? Mainly you. If you don't do it someone else will....yes.
Talking above, about the day, yesterday, the reason revealed this morning. Complete and total silence mandated. No explanation here, b/c if anything has been learned?...do what they say. They? The team. The team assigned, voluteered, signed-up, forced by association? Looking at you ancestors...😘. Mums the word. We will never tell. It will be told, that was another piece of info this morning, yes. Actually, a vision of exactly where and with who the reveal will happen. Not when of course, but saw the room, saw the persons, beings involved, talking about the phenomenon...then they all turn to me. Standing against a wall, not joining in the conversation, (not really that unusual for me, but) they get it. They know what has been happening and they know who is making the happening...the one making the happenings.
When this happens, the reveal, will share with you. Who knows how long that will be. The two happenings that will be first have been reavealed to me. When it can be made known. Unknown. As always...as always, infinitely. Okay, gotta go...puppy time...puppy love...🐶🐈⬛🐾
Made some new friends, saw some old friends. Feeling good about the friends...seriously, not having anyone that is on a regular schedule that really annoys. Not used to this, love this, want more of this. You know the song. And if you do, I hope it gets stuck in your mind. Feeling sassy today, sorry.😈 Taking out some peoples that really twist my twisties. Whatever that means.
Back to friends. Important for the psyche, yes, calling you out for being unsocial, or whatever in a way that is not offensive. Yeah, that's the thing, that's the thing...it is well meant, not subversive but good-hearted. This is the whole switch up, there has to be an underlying purpose of well-being and the well-being of others. Hmm, mhm. Forget this hate/blame shit happening everywhere. What a bunch of, want to say losers, but they are just being what they are and in a way that is so much worse. Just being what they were exposed to, brought up to believe or led to believe. Believe. Lies of the ones that are oppressing, that are manipulating, exploiting others for their own greed of money, pleasure, etc. Ick.
We are figuring this out, yes? Yes. We are of the ones that can receive the energy, not lable it, not refuse it, not accept everything after it has arrived, either sending it to Spirit or alchemizing it into a useful tool to utilize elsewhere. Let the feelings, energy, emotion, frequency come/go. So you can stand there and be a jackass. Do what you want...it will not make this life any different. Will just take your attitudinal energy and use it for our own purposes. Is that not the best thing you have ever heard? Read? Seen? Tasted? Felt? All that, yes indeed, all day.
Figuring out this absolutely ridiculous world of hidden motives, OMG? Trusting all of the wrong things/people/whatever. Benefit of the doubt, uhm, NO. Not anymore, damn it! But totally get it, get the absorbing, but turning it not on the self, but outward in a beautiful energy of creation instead of eating the inside of the body...the soul. The soul being diminished and not realizing what was going on...now a bubble of kickass surrounds the body, don't mess with me vibe. Super, duper. Owning that bunch of incredible. Yeah.
At the new experience, "Shut up and Write" and it was fun! Just the name sounds like me. Nice nerdy people just like me. This is a cool concept, they are killing it. A bunch of writers or at least wanna bes. Then at a certain time, "Everybody Shut Up and Write!" They did, we did. Hanging out for a little longer b/c I have the haircut and that will take about 5 min to get to, from here. Convenient. And a little more writing getting done.
So this settling, switching whatever is happening here...it is a pleasing experience. These are the experiences that are wanted, not dreaded. Realizing that my life has been spent doing a bunch of stuff that was not wanted, enjoyed, did not look forward to it. Now doing all the stuff that is enjoyed, look forward to doing it, and was something wanting to do. Weird. How did it last that long? How did all of the people allowed in life get to do all the things they wanted me to do and never consider that it was torture for me? They didn't ask, I did tell them, they didn't listen and that is why I left. All of the ones that did that to me or didn't do anything for me ever, but were doing everything they did, for themselves, yeah, not around anymore.
This include family, employers, all of them and suddenly finding myself in groups of people that make me feel good. Imagine that?! It makes the breath come and be noticed by the system. In the last 3 years learning about the self, the soul and what it wants to do, what it likes. I knew, but never would just do it. Waited to find out what everyone else wanted and make sure they were happy. You know what? I don't care anymore...smiling as this is written, not b/c of evil intent, well mostly, but because sitting here, happy is the heart/soul and that is the intent of absolutely everything now and from now on.
Hair cut, done. Sitting here waiting on a friend from previous job, she is a sweetie and actually started crying when I told her I was leaving. Precious. She is a beauty and likes bad boys I'm afraid, she will be filling me in soon. Texting yesterday with some of the other girls that work there also. The co-workers were not the problem, they were great and we protected each other. The company we were working for, incompetent, however. A contract with the facility, don't think they will stick unless Kelsey has worked some magic. Maybe, she's straight forward.
Anyway, the first position after that job was a nightmare, you can scroll back and get filled in on that business. Ridiculous. You know there are a lot of men that I do love...but most, dicks. Another topic for another day...always. Love writing, really, it is freedom. Calling everyone out giving them the business they try to give. Not tolerating any of that ever again. Actually, do not understand how this soul was ever that...unaware of self, not anymore. No way. And now, it is not even an issue. There is the magic of the energy. They know now that they cannot fuck with me. And they don't. How great. Coolio, just sayin'.
The funny part is that it is love based. They will call it "bitchy" but you know, it is not, it is love for the soul. Self, whatever you want to call it. Knowing who you are and what you will put up with is powerful. They don't like it, men, women or anything that wants control. Mhm, you might think I am giving control, but eventually you find out, nope. Absolutely feeling sovereign, independent, all that. Yes. Love ya. Whoever you are, even the dicks, they are just being what they know to be, don't have to be there with them. Yes. Yes indeed.
Many, many things, subjects, information and we are all being mislead. Analogies of powergrids, energy, loci, mhm, interesting is it not? It is all planned out, a systematic agreement in order to gain power and do whatever Don Cheeto wants, or actually what his wealthy friends want.
Not sure what this post is about. Listening to a podcast talking about the Cheeto. Have began to listen again, just out of curiousity. To challenge myself and see if it will trigger a negative response. Legitimately, can say that caring about this is so far down the list that not much of any response/reaction comes anymore. That's a pretty big deal. Indignation more than anger always, just the lack of intelligence and drive to deceive, in a very purposefully way. It is disgusting.
Not to mention they are a gang of sexual assaulting men and women that apparently support this or think you are going to change? Not sure, again does not make sense and really not very intelligent of the womens. What a mental and soulful digression is this. Let's go down another road, how about that?
The Spirit speaks in the best ways and being in this energy is attractive, cannot resist as it should be...better than any drug as it is not inibriating. Give the same (affect), effect. Can never get that down, sometimes obvious, sometimes not at all. Effect being the result, going with that. Anyway, meeting Spirit at the coffee shop. Will go home soon as forgot to feed George. She's fine.
In the stare stage, like we are mixing and mingling...entangling the heart thoughts to come out the human fingers from the soul. This is more like it. This is where we always want to be. Always will be, none of it changes, but the allowing of an energy to take over your own. Hmm, well, again, interesting.
This is not postable at this moment, but it gives a connection and here for that. Ok, remembering now. There continues to be less and less doubt about the catalyst. It is a hopeless cause, anyone would say this...but it still is hopeful when listening to the heart. Listening to the heart. Yes. It often does not make sense or work out the way it could/would be predicted. Not a prediction, but a known in the heart space that all of the moments were real. We are real and love exists.
Resigned that this may only mean in another world this happens. How can this be bad or negative as the world another, improvement? Yes. Then even easier to love a soul that did absolutely nothing to get me to love him, only showed up and looked at me. That's all it took. That's all it took.
Have accidentally been posting what is normally posted here, over on the beautiful poems/quotes...not going to fix it, it happened for some reason. Opened up here to maybe take down the last post Scribe Tribune...but changed my mind. There are people out there that need to hear that. And things that we need to hear, heard it this morning. The Four Yoga:
Action/Service
Knowledge
Meditation
Devotion/Love
Not going to cite this as it is everywhere, find the one you like. Originally a book? Anyway, living life by action/service, learning and continue learning, a set aside meditation period, moments not time, don't clock it. All of these four are focused in love. They do not have to contain love, but it is much more satisfying if so. Not love from the ones you help, learn from or teach, meditation spirits/thoughts, love.
If you are offended by yoga. Well, you have already left this page, but all of the philosophical teachings of life ways, end up in love to be successful...all of the ones that are in truth. This is the key, the key to everything. There is no absolute, only love. It brings all the philosophies together, brings all together.
What do we do? There is no doing, just loving. Do what you are led to do. It will come to you in meditation...see how this works. Balanced, balancing the four, increasing the love in all. Is your action/service increasing your love? Are you learning/experiencing things that you love? Can you sit in meditation and feel love? Then you are supposed to add love to all the former, if it is not occurring there already. "What am I getting out of all of this?" This question must be removed from your vocabulary...you are loving, in love. What other people do is not your problem, issue, project or a way to make yourself a victim.
What are we supposed to do? Love. It's not that hard...it is practically impossible. This is your assignment, purpose, project...love. The inside of the body had a little melting moment just now. This is it, the hidden knowledge that was never hidden. The world wanting us to be unable to love...too tired, too stressed, too emotional, not enough emotions, whatever can be convinced in our own minds. But to let go and love? This is big...not to be in the stance of being offended. There is a post about that also somewhere in these posts.
There are so many changes going on, overwhelmingly so. The convincing that all of the emotions, intuition, etc. are real. There is a settling among all of the uproar...the knowing, we know. There is no explaining, but a known. Letting it just be. The absolutely hardest part is letting all of the truths, be true. Letting the way, be the way and go there. Wow, go there. Super scary to even think about going where you know you will find the truth. Wow.
A lot to work through? A lot to learn? Action and/or service to investigate? All of these incorporating love in some way, not to get love, but to love. Ugh, is this even possible? It is and it means leaving all of our petty wants, expectations of what anybody has done, owes us or any of those should be, been, being. It is how it is...you are making it the way it is now. You are not the victim, you are making all the choices to act or not act. Now having to face it all, because it is all coming up to face. Not deny, ignore, avoid any longer.
Ouch! But once we get over ourselves and be ourselves? Yes, that is going to be the comfort in the soul...coming out, radiating from the body of the true self soul. Not like any other soul/body/mind. Each and everyone unique. Not fitting in, joining or agreeing to any construct that is not for everyone, not the few, but all. This is the way, the truth of life. Not from any person, but straight from Spirit through your soul. "This is from your soul." Hear this when it is told to you, then it is known.
Maggie’s Music Box Sitting here tonight listening to my son play bass for a band never seen before, just called him up last minute and he's up there killin' it. Hotel California...couple right in front of me, dude got caught looking at another girl. He's trying to make up for it now and it's hilarious. 6:23 on a Friday night, bound to go wrong at some point, if sittin' in a bar. Now some dude dancing around by himself. Trying not to make eye contact.🤫 👀
Background pic is taken at Maggie's of the late great Leon Russell...anyway, it's ironic as my son just played at the church studio yesterday which was Leon's recording studio. Coincidence? Not thinking so...not this girl...uh, uh, nope. No such thing as a coincidence, man. Spirit is in the music, was hearing it last night, angels? Maybe. Do not rule anything out these days. Interesting just to sit here and watch people behind the little, iPad. Incognito.
Weezer? Oh, yeah! this my music. Heartbreaker. Weezer/Heartbreaker . This is super fun, having a good time, just sitting here typing my little heart out, not breaking just typing away. Acting like this is a job, and you know what, it is! Cuz I'm the accounting rep for the BenDen, LLC. So proud of this guy, he's killing it in more than this band, yup, that's my boy. Ok, just saw the music line-up and this band is Barrett Lewis band, can't find a good link. Good cover band, not an original that I've heard, but good covers. Disclaimer: Got here late.
Giving sonny a solo, now. Coolio. I'm on my second drink, so it's gettin' fun! Pat Benetar up at the moment, another 'Heartbreaker". Pat Benatar Heartbreaker. Set is over, just when it's gettin' fun, dinner with the boy, so nothin' bad about that. Have fun, kids, stay safe and see you tomorrow. Will be posting this weekend and now have Mondays off. Hep, hep!, more Weezer.
Boy's other band: The Grabblers Aug 1st, 8pm, New Story Brewery, see you there!
Here at the coffee shop, of course, if you know anything about the habits of this soul inside this body. Heard a mention of, "Why is every business a coffee shop now?" Because none of us want to work in an office building, and we get sick of being at our house. In the coffee shop rarely do you know a lot of people. Depending on your frequency of visiting a particular location...anywho, it is an anonymous location to work and not be distracted, completely. I can tune this place out...usually. If not, just leave, no bosses or co-workers to get offended.
And this brings up the ones that get offended. C'mon people, everything is not about you and your feelings...get over it, please! You being offended is being an "offended being". Is this what you are going for? Really? Geez, OK. Uhm, this is not nice on my part, but you know what? It seems that this soul is here for this. Being the one that tells you the stuff you don't want to hear. At this point, don't mind, because, totally sick of people, their little feelings and how they ignore everything else. Ugh. Yep, feels right, this is the purpose of this being, at this point in life. This life's way. Yeah, me.
This took a turn, was not expecting. Anyway, let's talk about something else. Hopefully, you will not be offended, but if you are, well, then... Are you here for it? The truth is not meant to offend, but apparently this is exactly what it does and they become super triggered to explain why the truth is not the truth. This is so illogical, and people are completely illogical. This is the cross we have to bear. We, not I, it is all we, of a frequency and here to offend everyone. Yeah.
Complicit are "we" if the truth is not what we are about, true? This is not that hard, it is made hard by attempting to legitimizing greed, defiance, nefarious deeds. If this is your way of life, this is what you are committed to and the "truth" you attempt to pass off to others. Ouch, hmm, see what we mean? We of a frequency of truth and making our way of life a better way. A way that helps others, not stomps them to the ground so we have more material objects? Well, yes, of course, but do we see that most of the people, especially that have "put themselves" in power. If you know, you know.
How do we fight this? We don't. We become authentic if not already, don't want to offend anyone.😉 We do the things that raise the frequency, the vibration, the energy of the places we frequent. Coffee Shoppe. OK, this works, start there. Are we hippies? Why not, is this offensive? OMG, can use this forever. Will try to hold back, too easy. Thank you for chuckling if you did, thank you for closing this site, post if you were offended. The vibration just raised, if so. Again, ouch.
What did we come here to talk about b/c the rabbit hole went deep? It was the fact that not many businesses out there are anything but, liquor stores, chiropractors, coffee shops, restaurants, banks and churches. In the bible belt where this soul resides, the churches are on the way out. Can you believe this? One of them is in a post here, cannot find it...hmm, my own post, can't find it. Ha.
This post speaks of a cafe named Wildflower that is opening a new space b/c the landlord of their previous place kicked them out b/c they fed the homeless. Yes, that's what happened. When I find it, will link it. Ok, not only will it be a cafe, but now is a living space, a store or something, forget that also. But, but, but, the kicker? It is in a deserted church building and is this not the sweetest most ironical thing you have ever heard. Aaaand with me, do you not believe that the reason the church lost its members is b/c there were homeless people outside when they would enter/exit the church? I believe this will the entire being that this soul inhabits!!! BeLIEve not a word used by this soul recently, because right in the middle of it, the word "lie". Tried to underline that part of the work and nope, won't let me, but it doesn't matter b/c, still see it, cannot unsee it.
If in Tulsa, then visit the Wildflower Cafe...the former cafe, now in a church...feeding the homeless where the homeless were not fed before. Wow, of wows right here in this heart...all of this beings offerings go to the ministry of the Wildflower Cafe...Wildflower Cafe link on Instagram. Check them out, they are of Spirit unlike the church recently vacated, in my opinion. A lot of opinions of the church have gone right down the toilet in the last, uhm, let's say, 6-10 years.
Then it is made aware that it has been 10 years...no wonder we are so tired. This ridiculous state of affairs, state of the nation creating a state of the states. So very obnoxious if not down right insulting. Are we offended, damn right and rightly so, because it is the truth. And ultimately we are all the same, the ones that we annoy and the ones that annoy us. "We are we" all are beings, all choosing the choices, all making our way of life. Duality on us all, we cannot be all aware at all times. "Always, though, we can be aware of what is brought to our awareness.
The Spirit just came through and to you they say, choose your way, in honesty, choose what you will commit to and stand by it, because of all things human that offends us the most is a wishy-washy soul. Take a stand, be for or against, don't deceive others, be what you have chosen to be. Own it and take all the good and bad that comes with it, because it is time to decide. No guarantees, but if you are totally committed to one or the other, all beings of a soul are set to eternal life. Eternal life with body, without body...one way or the other. There is no fear, live the way of truth. The truth of the way of life...this is it, this is all. What are you listening to, beLIEving in?
No judgement but your own, on yourself, to yourself, no fixing or convincing of others, be what you need to be and others will be what they need. If they are using you in this way? Cut the energy off from them as they are on their own. You know of who I speak, you just felt this in your heart and this is where you start. Making your energy work on you, making you to "be" the "being" you are supposed to "be". We are being, not doing, we are being the way of truth of life, this is what we are...being."
Fin
Wow, at a sidewalk café working on the blog post...and if you will notice the background pic on this post...the animal was calm, people walking by, being all cute like she is...then got super grumpy and we left to sit in the car before the establishment ran us off, or someone got bit. Also, before getting the little French cafè scene pic. But here we are in the car, luckily there is a breeze and it is not too hot, yet.
The guys are showing up to work on the house today, so that is getting completed. Nice! Spending the day with the animal which is what I am always wanting to do. Here we are, not working the 8-5pm job, doing our thing, let's all be thankful. Give thanks, be grateful, gratitude in the utmost levels. See? This is how the self-talk goes...not a bad thing. We are only on another adventure, the animal and me. (Read the post below, "EVERYDAY", the animal scores again, 2/0.) Let's get this straight it is the animal's way or the highway!
And at this point, do you think that I can even remember what this post was going to be about? Uh, no. Breathing. Sitting in a car in the parking space paid for and by gosh we are going to sit here and run out that time.😂🙄 The post being something about the transition from matter, material of the world existence. This elemental matter being transformed or "we" are going to be able to transfigure as we connect more and more with Spirit. Melding, molding, conforming, integrating, trans-melding? Is that a word? Nope, AI believes that we must have meant transmitting, transmeditation, or transcoding. Hmm, really did not know that the last two suggested by AI were words, so who made those up? "Trans-melding", this is our work for historical purposes, you heard it here first and damn it, it is ours! Ha!
Anyway, back to the scientific facts of trans-melding, (the hyphen or the quotation marks make the spell check ignore it-that little red line under the word that they don't know is our word, really bothers us). Going to have to go biblical on you here, but it explains the history. Not of the word trans-melding, but of the transfiguration of the Christ. No longer does Christ have a place in this brain/soul/mind/body that is anything less than all of our elemental world tying it all in, to the spiritual. Cannot speak to the Buddha, the Krishna, etc., do not know all of the names that apply, but if you are a scholar of history or theology, the similarities cannot be ignored.
Can we open our minds to include all peoples as from the same Creator, Source, God of all? Can you, can we? OMG! Speaking as a U.S. citizen in a southern state, pulease, anyway, here am I. The outcast of all outcasts, but in/with Christ and the Holy Spirit that is in totality of access to all/this soul? On this, getting this...here goes. We have the example of Christ, this is what is familiar, this is the way it is known and possible to speak. Clarifying that it may be a different name and/or story for you, but the process or system or chemistry is the same.
Christ came to the Earth, gave us the total life, way, truth example to follow. Then he died to this world, then came back in another form, transfigured or as we call it...trans-melding. Came back to the disciples, "being" the same, but different. Taught further, 40 days, and was able to appear in rooms without entering through a door. Thomas touched his hand. There are verses to back this up, will leave at the end...but you get the idea. Ascended, saying he would return, Gave the Holy Spirit as a gift...mhm.
Was this the return? Holy Spirit came through the clouds of the disciples/apostles, not sure what to call them at this point, but came to their minds/hearts/souls. Who is the Holy Spirit? God, the Word, the Holy Spirit. Again, biblical and decided not to reference the scriptures, look it up for yourself. You must be the one to make these decisions of faith and trust, for yourself. This is just the ramblings of one soul. You don't even know me. Not really. Now, why could this above, the gifting of the Holy Spirit, not be how the Word/Christ, came back? The essence of God/Christ, in their form of Spirit. Theirs, belonging to the Trinity, they have claimed it over and over again.
We were instructed to build the "church". Think of all the wasted money on church buildings and staff when the true meaning is of the body physical. Build the temple. Christ will destroy the "temple" and raise it again, in three days...not the temple of stone, the body of Christ. Who is the body of Christ? That would be all of us in our bodies. All of us, not just Christians. (Lordy, not even most Christians.) Christ, again says he is coming back, and he is, but not in the way anyone expects. If coming through the clouds? It will be the clouds in your head. Not the first to say any of this, not hardly. Chemistry, cells, molecular integration. The dead will rise again. Any of the words spoken here, can only make sense in an internal/external capability of adapting/controlling/facilitating body matter, elemental chemical exchanges, reactions, equations of something beyond us. Formed from sand, silica, dust to dust, again, in the bible, look it up, Genesis.
Ah, oh, did we mention silica? Silicon valley, what the hell is silica? Positive that nobody knows the answer. Didn't know over here.
Silica: silicon dioxide, or SiO2:
a hard, naturally occurring compound made of silicon, (genius) and oxygen. One of the most abundant materisl on Earth, making up about 59% of the planet's crust.
Please, we must go on:
Quartz: the most common crystalline form of silica. It is a hard mineral found in nearly all types of rock.
Sand: The primary constituent of sand worldwide is silica.
Amorphous Silica: includes materials like opal and diatomaceous earth.
What is it? No idea. Again, as has been written in this blog numerous times before, do we need to know? Can we even absorb any of it? Is it going to happen whether we know or not? The answer to this is, yes. The rest of our questions are to be seen, revealed, recognized. How does the dead raise again to be trans-melded? No idea, but this also will happen. Will we see it? No idea. Is it a fog of Spirit coming over the Earth to reunite the souls of the dead with their former bodies or silica matter material just produced elsewhere? Yes. How? No idea. Now we are getting the idea, we do not need to know the how, when, where, what.
My mother, little kind lady that she was, Baptist to a fault, probably her only real fault. Anyway, you better never say, cremation to her. "the body must be there to rise again." Ok, did mention to her that the most that could even be there would be a few strands of hair and bones. She's not convinced. Ok, then how about those people, (trigger warning) that dissolved into "pink dust" in the twin towers attack? She looked befuddled. Now there was no intent to befuddle, but you get what is being said. (If not, then why are you even reading this?)
In the knowing, however, we know, we have been forewarned, foretold. Much of the words received, channeled are these old English biblical type vernacular and don't know if that is supposed to be humorous or scary? Both possibly and here for it all. Do we have more questions? Of course. Are they going to be answered? Who knows?
Saw a dragon in the clouds a day or so ago, his tail cut off from the body. Flying up and away from the tail, because another one will soon be grown. Did the mind and/or mental capacities just leave this soul? Possibly, but this is what was seen and heard to be shared with you. You're welcome.
This could be the way, however. The souls that have attended Earth, bless your hearts, take with the soul that has vacated a dead body, but the coding, the DNA, RNA is maintianed somehow. Did you ask me how? Now we are in the "knowing" that we don't know nothin'. I digress, also having major de ja vu, so there's something. Scientist have stated, proved? Unknown. That DNA does not completely have rule over the body, genetics, etc. What? Don't know, search Youtube, AI your preferred source of "Can we believe this?" information. But yeah, if not for that, then what? Mhm. Body/soul restructuring, transfiguring or the preferred trans-melding? Don't know, don't forget the hyphen.
Just a note: the word transfigured is always positive, an upgrade, an improvment, this distinguishes it from transformed. You are able to transform into a little hairy beast, such as my animal described in first paragraph. Interesting don't you think, trans"figured", to a new better version of the old version, but better.😉 Mhm.
More to come, more to come. Everyday more to come...will be back, Spirit and this soul, we are getting ready for what comes, together, forever, eternal paradise. We are like this 🤞🏻. Brother, sister...sweet release of the weight of gravity on the matter trans-melded. Peace. ✌🏻
Encouraged by all of the writing that is being done this week, then just realizing there hasn't been anything completed on the book. Today went partially as planned and the other part not. Had brother's breakfast with 2 of the 3 this morning, planned. Took the animal along, she was great until getting out of her harness and free roaming downtown for a couple of blocks. As this was happening saying, "This is a bonding experience, an adventure." She was secured and got a new harness. Score 1 for the animal.
Anyway, lots of writing and this makes the soul happy. The book is the book and it goes along with all the rest. It is finished in another space. Yes. Ok, the revelations of this day...all of the soul teachings, it teaches the body and mind of the true way of life. The world teaches doubt and fear. Gonna stick with the soul. Seems the best choice, lived in the world a long time and it has been mostly unsatisfactory. Realizing this is not a truly complete statement, unsatisfactory in the regards of people trusted, peace, and speaking up for the self. See below how we are tackling this of late.
Just did the first Qigong exercise ever. 10 minutes, well more like 3-4 minutes the rest was some dude talking. Giving this a try b/c the thought of going to a class even online is unappealing. Do not want to socialize, want to exercise. It does not seem to be a necessary part of exercise to be with others that are unknown. If it was a room of trusted ones that are of the same heart...would be there in a snap. Otherwise, no thanks.
Being very concerned formerly of doing the right thing. Now am finding it is advantageous to the the best thing...the nervous system is in crisis. Doing the thing that keeps the nervous system from running out of control. This is the right thing. What others project onto the people they are trying to manipulate, not interested. No longer accept this or give energy to this. Cannot do it. The ones that create chaos, challenge sovereinty or exact manipulation upon others, also, no thanks.
A new path has come to the forefront, a two year work contract...this pins down the temptation of just moving on when the mood strikes. Have been doing this moving on business lately and it was an experience that built confidence within. Only a good thing for the self-confidence. Apparently in need of this, it is coming, slowly coming to be. A friend (see link below) gave me a handout, cool, retro. Anyway, it describes how life experience shows up when you are healthy and living balanced/in moderation. Another planned activity with Alma Reike Studio completed, today. An enjoyable experience!
There are lots of bullet points on the paper hand out, so narrowing it down to the last point of "Lived Experience(s)". These include "Emotional State" and "Signs of Alignment":
Life feels reliable enough to rest in
Enjoyment is present in everyday life
Being able to say "no" without overexplaining
Inner peace coexists with deep feeling
Being able to speak up even when it may be uncomfortable
Being able to see both sides
Trust replaces the need for control
This list is simple, to the point. Do we have these experiences in our lives? If we do not, then what can change this for us? Your answer cannot be something outside yourself. This is the challenge. No material solutions, only you and arranging life to produce the experience, and it says daily, create this life experience. At this moment, meeting three of these. Working on four others. Sounds like some work...join in? Please do, as this becomes the recognition of the way to battle ill will, hate, and discontent.
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Material above related to body chakras, if you are wanting to research more.
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In this moment of being, the activity that is being experienced is the most joyful, peaceful, attractive, desireable. Arranging the day to carve out these moments to write. Scribe is the word, as a large percentage of the words are not mine. Not from the self, not this self. Learning that really there is never been an understanding of this prospect anyway. Self? Who is it? Where is it? What are we? Cannot answer any of these questions...brings one to a humbleness of being.
I AM, the name of the Spirit of God, Creator, Love as an entity/existence. The absolutely unfathomable perspective or lack of, that exists around this naming. We are confused by the idea of "God", confused by even trying to define ourselves, not to mention the I AM. These questions have brought some answers, not about the self or God, but other things related, I guess. Never is there a definitive answer. Is there an answer? Discovering there are no true answers, but some ideas related to the truth. Spirit is the truth, the way, the life...does this give you definity, closure, a need no longer to seek out or discover?
Is the learning in the acceptance, allowance, receipt of a knowing that there is no need to know? Is it going to change you? Will you react, respond to life, existence, situations different if a satisfactory answer comes? For three years, if you have read any of these writings, you know of this length of time these questions have come into the thoughts. Then recognizing that the origin of these thoughts are not even defineable. What is it then?
Well, the fact obvious to this soul now is that, there is no time. If anyone is demanding of your time, then they are out of order. They are living in a construct of time. Most likely, "time is money". They are correct as this is how our society is structured, at this moment. But are we beholden to them? Do we have a real responsibility to this? Well, yes. Yes, until we create something else. Never has this soul worked harder on breaking any other construct than this. The soul desires that it be free of this world, but not removed from this world.
This brings another round of questions. How can we make this possible? To be separated from corporations, industry holding wealth unless we have a contractual agreement for them to give us money/energy. And it is energy...we buy food with the money. Food gives us energy. Or does it? How much food do we need? Can we answer these questions? Maybe not yet, but setting the intention of this, of finding the answer. Manifesting the possibility and then hoping/trusting to know when to try it, to take the leap of faith, take the offer given. Indeed.
Just putting it into words is a step. The idea is out there...on this screen words are powerful. Speech, thoughts, writings, silence within the energy of this idea. Possibility, potential and never before has this been understood. Not sure it is completely understood now. It is called prayer, intention, manifestation. The word or action of "prayer" spoken is demonized in our society, recently..."I will pray for you" is met with "Why don't you actually DO something?" Understand this response, now looking at it in a different light, and it is light. We are light. And do you see how this flows one into the other. We are images of Spirit, of light, of color, taste, smell, touch, sounds. Our thoughts/prayers emitted have an energy, a resonance.
The vibration of a being that emits any chemical response to any external/internal stimuli has a vibration. Electric impulses that react to a stimuli. "Oh, woo, woo!", you say. But read up on the factors and occurences that are required for an MRI. This is something that is in actuality, most persons have had an MRI related to some medical condition in question. Correct? Magnetic resonance imaging, read the words again, please. Resonance, a stimuli is given to the body, it organizes this and creates an electron response, resonating a readable image to capture. Then the doctor reads the image. Magnets used to organize it all, make it possible to picture, then read. How?
Really, there is an explanation of how this works and "Wow!" to the ones that discovered this process...wow! Then after you read the defining words, can you actually understand still, how it works? I work in the medical field, not that one, but much of the root language for the process is within the area of study completed. I don't get it. I can see it. I can receive the words of the doctor about what they see. Still there is not an understanding. I could help build the apparatus and would better understand. Could learn to operate the machine and be educated on this process, but on a larger scale, could I understand how and why this activity works?
Faith, trust, acceptance, allowance, receiving of the information and/or experience is all that can be done, technically. In a way it is fascinating, beautiful, like how a seed planted sprouts into a fruit, vegetable, tree, flower...how? Do you really have an understanding? The catapillar into a butterfly? There is a spark of life, a chemical component, breathing, exchanging elemental gases, components, matter, transitioning to alternate matter...how?
How, indeed. There is no complete and satifactory answer that can satisfy every being. Light of the soul, where did you come from? Where and how do you exist? Are you the self? Are you a piece/fragment/photon of God/Creator/Spirit existing within this form of matter? How does this happen? How do the souls know where all the babies are being born? Where is the soul when not residing in a body? Why does death occur? Why did life begin?
Moving on now, to go breath and live. Not having any idea why. Any idea of from where or to where this soul is going and is this not the craziest realization? Letting go of the need/idea that answers are out there or even merited for the questions asked. If we were supposed to know, then would we not know by now? Giving it up, letting it go, here for the experience, not the struggle...peace to you in an unpeaceful world. Is this not the best way to handle it? Peace in spite of neglect/hate, unsatisfiable wanting, idea/fear of no love existing, peace for spite. Yes.
Wanted to write and post last night, did not, seemed excessive. Here now. Drove a few miles to the pharmacy earlier...on the way, in the knowing that what we have been talking about, the not needing information, understanding for the changes we are making. Not needed as we are doing it all, maybe unawares, but not completely for a lot of us. It crosses the mind, wonder of wonders, the why. An aspect of faith, trust, knowing the love of Spirit is bringing the wonders. Living in this life, way, truth of Spirit.
Everyone on a need to know basis and ironically not even needing to know. Being. Only being what we are meant to be. Not pretending, not seeking approval from anything but Spirit. No thing else matters, it's all temporary and actual matter in a formative being. We don't even know how the formation occurs. Why would we think the circumstances of the being are going to be fully revealed? Until they are meant to be revealed, recognized and understood. All knowing from knowing. At this moment, only knowing will have to do.
We continue. What else can we do? One thing for sure, we do not know what is coming, how it is coming. We do know, things are weird in government, the media, just people in general...seriously, weird. If you have not wondered about the state, mental state, of most people you come across or see in the news, then you are not listening or paying attention. Not that there is any suggesting that you need to be paying attention, actually would not recommend. For a long time the news has been ignored as it is ridiculous and felt not worth the time.
Lately, for some reason, like in the last week, have been dipping a toe in some media. Carefully selecting the source, there are not many that meet the requirements, criteria of the sane (even some common sense?) population of, well let's say the world. Not the U.S., we have lost that right also, of thinking we are sane overall. Maybe never have been, but it is for certain a topic in question as of late. The answer seems easy to figure out. In the point of view of one of its citizens.
Anywho, it just gets more weird as you watch more...probably just going back to working puzzles. Can't start one now, some work being done on the house, that will have to wait. Writing posts here makes it all a little more palatable, or does it? It does. It is the space where creativity is the focus and gives a little hope, a place to hang out, think things out, build some trust among those with similar frequencies. This is the way it is intended. Feeling like this is devolving...be back.
Got a snack, the reason for the return to news media came to thought...First the state of the state, terrifying. The true reason dawned, the test of how this soul is going to react to the absolute nonsense of many "stories" in the news. It did not creat a furious outburst, as it did in the past. Yes, a few years ago, was in the crazy denial of all things happening outside the premise of logic thought. Also, the recognition of those that can buy into falseness, completely without connecting the dots of true intentions.
Ok, stating the above, it brought to this soul, the curiosity to find out what makes humans so susceptible to "ideas", to programming, to not knowing any better because none of us protected them or ourselves from all these things. Guilty of it all, a participant also in taking other's words for truth without searching and proofing. Discovering that inside this being was a heart that was numbed to pretty much everything. Yes, all the things, all the vulnerabilities even to the extent of not speaking truths because of conflict possibility. Conflict avoider? Present.✋🏻
Never to regret being forced into an investigation of others actions, only to discover the self and its short comings. Not trusting this soul any longer to its own devices, letting the idea of right/wrong go. Letting it go because so much of it does not matter in the scheme of all things. This felt in the present as the news reports are spoken, no reactions, sometimes an "ugh" response to an outright lie. Here we are, this is not an issue any longer to invoke ill behavior. There is only the continuation of helping the soul integrate the mind and body in a productive way. Knowing and recognizing what is good for the soul and what is not.
Continuing in this...
Keep hearing this word, origin..."the origin". The brain is a receiver. It sends signals to the body. It receives signals from....? Where are the messages coming from? Thoughts. Scientists say there are no explanations for internal thoughts as in where are they "originating". Our brain is a receiver, we can't explain what happens in the "mind". Not even sure or have a true explanation for this either. The brain, the mind, what is the difference? Finally, over the past couple of years in this mind, the thought spirals are diminished. Still can't relax the muscles in the neck, but the body is not in continual pain anymore.
No pain? This is huge. How did it happen? There is no explanation of that either. Still diabetic, still have high cholesteral, maybe these are healing next. Would that not be the greatest? Never so many deep breaths have been taken by this one in the last few years. It really is the secret to everything. At this moment, there is a peace within/without the soul never felt before...because of breathing instead of reacting or even responding these days. It is delicious to just walk away. Walk to the way of the way...
Opened the iPad up to post, thinking about breath and relaxation. Have gotten so sleepy...will need to finish this up tomorrow. Anytime any muscle relaxation can be acheived? Going with that...making that the priority. There are thoughts in the head, flashes of scenarios, not catching what is going on, but feeling all the feels. So, good night, will let you know what's flashing tomorrow.
And good morning, to you! A dream, cannot rememeber...a feeling, that's it. Cannot catch it, dream catcher in place...no joy. Joy in other things, coffee, blueberry muffin, dog, coffee shop with all this, but the dog. She's a menace to the public. I love her, no one else does. It's okay. Everything is okay. Really, at the moment feeling so much less stress...just finished some HR stuff for the new job. Good experience, well, mostly peeing in a cup and filling out paperwork, the people were nice.
Would like to go into the whole, it exists in the Oral Roberts Hospital...that's what it was, "originally". Hmm, interesting anyway, look it up if you are interested and yes, it would be interesting enough to look it up. The man saw a 900 foot Jesus, yeah, man, take a look.👀 And this exactly why not wanting to get into it, major rabbit hole...
Back to origin, chuckling that the whole topic in the above paragraph is even related, but it is totally related in more than one way...a circle closing. As a student, completed one of the last rotations for my license at this same location, different company of course, couple of decades ago...hmm. No sadness about this, a cycle completed, cool. This seems to be the way of late, finishing up some shit/stuff/miscommunications/life trajectories...
This is such a difference, a 180 for me...just letting things happen...giving it over to another source, only breathing and listening with choices, decisions, writing, allowing, accepting, receiving. Only if led by Spirit, only if. For real, and the answer comes in thoughts, head words, a feeling, an ease of the soul. Yes. Can this be explained completely? No. Does it need to be? Of course not. Why? We want to "know", prove, have a scientific method/proof, but not currently sharing a discovery that needs a hypothesis and an argument, it is the experience of the soul. Remember the day it began. Hearing, "This is from your soul." It certainly is...and that is answer/proof enough.
Others agreeing or approving of decisions, actions, ideas of your soul? Not their business, if any of it is shared in this space..., then you are special, because none of it has been shared except for you, reading. For you this is just confirmation that it is your choice, your decision, your life...and this is good enough to just choose for you. All that touches your soul...it is yours. Interesting. The origin of this life choosing of this soul...the catalyst did not only touch, but lit on fire, then crushed the heart, and in the mind before all of this cycled, clicked, was allowed, accepted, received. Uhm, yeah. Wow. Hoping to revisit this and truly want it to be mine, manifesting this, still.
In the heart. All of everything, changes, finding new routes and paths comes from the heart. It has some stellar feelings and emotions these days that are actually pleasant. A crushing coming to an easy peace that is open to any or all the accepting, allowing, receiving what is available, not pressing, hunting, trying to control. My neck just pleasantly popped, twice while writing this. The theory of breath and spine having the key to all of life...it is relaxing in the content of these words. Sincerely hope that some or all of these words might do the same for you...amen.
Not a prayer, but an ending for sure...all of the life from before seems to be, can't think of the word,...dissipating. From a state of whole matter, to dissipation, undone, not connected, in complete separation from now, not related, not a consideration. Hmm. There is no questioning of the process, no wrongs done, only the no thing of everything making its way to the destination, not the final destination, just the path on the way, still on it. No thing was done wrong, the way of you is the way, it cannot be done in a different fashion in order to complete all the particulars. (jaw popped)
If no thing else the trouble spot of this body concerning tension held...relaxing. Maybe already said this, but off work this week. A week to solidify this way of relaxation that can be achieved and the sustaining of this when working at a job for someone else. If it is impossible...no thing ever is...c'mon. Now the spine between the shoulder blades popping. A kundalini awakening right here in the coffee shop? Coolio. Going over to "the book". Going to set up the first scene. Wrote a very interesting passage this morning...maybe the ending...and this can totally be.
Just heard "slow progressing" in the ear, listening to a podcast...she also said, "particular" just as it was being typed above, couple of paragraphs back. Love this, love synchronicities, Jungian. Another podcast, "This Jungian Life" on Apple and Youtube. Interesting if you are a Jung fan, can't help but be a fan, he talks in my language, woo, woo, mystical, spiritual. Of course, "The Telepathy Tapes", this is what is done now, because cannot listen to music, because it makes me weep. Mhm, there is that.
Thanks for listening to the drivel, just sharing a maybe common experience, knowing that it made this soul feel better during that time, just to hear, see, read anything confirming that it was not only me going through these renewals, rejuvenating a way back to our hearts...back to the heart. This is the place/space, the heart. Being there.
Took a deep breath, neck pops again.
Yesterday, accidently deleted a completed post...try, try again. Was not meant to be, apparently. Here goes. Because of a holiday and some circumstances around, job changes, a week off, unpaid. Whatever. Anyway, time, moments to spend on some projects of our chosing. Finally, finishing that job that I have been complaining about, pretty much all last week, was a complete disappointment, as in speaking and the exact opposite of what was spoken being done. Ok?
Now the project that has been in the works for 3 years. Focusing on this to get it going. It has been fits and starts all this time. This becomes a different type of writing? Loving to write more than anything. Focusing on one subject, project is much harder to organize and it is daunting, intimidating. Yes. This is the crunch time. Sure hope it gets going, procrastination at its finest. Love to write here, there is no pressure. No one even reading it. Maybe someday when the other project takes off. Not really doubting it, just don't know when its going to break through.
Break on through to the other side, hey. The Doors...gotta love 'em. Music...stopped listening, except for live shows a couple of years ago as it seemed to be influencing emotions, making emotions too intense or more intense. Now listen to informative podcasts, Youtube channels and this week cut a genre of those out also, as it was too influential to the creative juices in a negative way.
Waiting on inspirational motivation, actually have this...but the picture has not come into focus, yet. Not yet, but it comes. The words maybe already written, then begin to organize...no, not yet. Knowing the beginning, know the characters, actually, it is already written...yes. More to be added to the in betweens, at this point an overview and some weird rabbit holes. Weird seems to be the way, so have not discounted these either. The soul bodies, the interesting parties, the ones that want you to die...yes. They are all here and accounted for, damn, it is already written.
Maybe the soul already knows, knowing, being very nonchalant. Cool, beans, man. It is the knowing and the writing here just answers so many questions. Not really intending for this, but will take this all day long. Got the urge to type some stuff...nice surprise. Happy 4th by the way...Independence day in the U.S. Right now it is pouring rain, no fireworks happening tonight. Hmm. Thunder instead of fireworks. (The fireworks did happen and just lasted later than normal, yeah.)
All the things meant for one thing, turning out to be for something else. Love when that happens, two for one, ditto, coolio. Happy Holiday, be safe out there, see you soon. Deciding now whether to publish the story on here. Post it up as a series? Hmm, maybe...will see, we shall see. Love to you and yours. That's all we gotta do.
Words heard today, "Always Knowing". Have been using the phrase, "Always Known" frequently as of late. Corrected this morning, as it is present, active, we are doing this now. We are not of the past, future, only the present. All the beings here seem to experience glee with correcting me...knowing this. Knowing the beings are ulteriorly making a point, you know? Sticking it. When Spirit corrects, don't even mind. Correction from Spirit is from love...always, in all ways. Yeah, not going to mention the particulars, just the comparison of the two situations.
It's all love...there is nothing else and any not of knowing? They have some sort of wound/situation/mind full of issues, ego requirements that are met by putting others down. Nope. Loving, we are only doing this, only. It is always knowing, that it is love and you know what? Walking away today. Met the requirements expected, kept my mouth shut. Did not roll my eyes? Not sure about that, but lots of cuing of the self to breathe. And we are always breathing, creating our own electricity, being. Always being, knowing, moving, creating, going, not stagnant, not in a space of, well, hatefulness? Ok, seems to accurately describe.
Moving on from this in 4 hours and 17 minutes. Moving on to a space that has already claimed my being. Just got an email that the director at the new job has already added supervision with the licensing board. Never has that happened before and you know what? All this messed up health insurance crap that has been happening? Long story, but it took 29 days to activate insurance. All of the prescriptions, dr visits, etc, you know, messed up. Life threatening meds, if not available. Yeah. They dropped the ball and the thud created an earthquake.
Apologize for continuing to give details, trying so hard not to, but the stark differences coming from where we are to where we are going? Remarkable, drastic, thank you Spirit, again. Always knowing you are looking out for us. The new job, yes, let's speak of this...in-house healthcare, therefore, if this is crapped out for med needs where we are for another moment? Then trusting that, medical access is available, there will not be dying, for this being. Also, many messages coming of newness, this gives the energy, the vibe, of loving, all the action verbs, let's use them. Let's do all of them, action, acting out of love given by Spirit, cuz...it is not coming from any others, yet.
Slept on this last night and you know what? It is okay for emotions to surface when another being makes special intent to harm or upset another. This is on them or is this somehow on me for being there to get projected on? This is a hard concept to accept, understand, etc. However, this soul accepted, allowed, and received these energies, sort of. Resistance present for sure, but completed a two week notice period, not to feel guilty, to keep a good reputation and endured subterfuge retaliation. Just the most petty little gradeschool girl antics by a grown man. 🙄
So, here's to this soul for making it through w/o saying anything ugly, except here. Plus, does this create any guilt? No, and next time would just walk out. Old makes you braver. Not brave, but having the idea of being brave...not brave enough to act on it, but prepared to do just that at the tipping point. Hoping to never find out. Moving on and on the surface, as always, seems to be a good fit. Only moments passed will tell. Will let you know, when knowing.
Not caring is good and mostly just boof everything off. Boof: the sound a Corgi makes when there is no reason to bark but wants you to know it is annoyed. Corgi Boof
Part of life, hear it everyday, "Boof." But sometimes the insult is just a little too sharp and it gets you on a level anyway. Then this causes another level of annoyance that you couldn't just boof and walk away. 3 more days and this arena of snidely pointing out every little mistake. Could do the same and don't, how can any of this matter as there will not be a space next week, actually after Thursday? No more of this soul in that space...let it go people, please.
Trying. Give a talk to the self every morning that it is pointless and there is no point for anything more than the "Boof". Really, "Boof you!" So using this now. It is my go to snark. 😂 Boof🫵🏻. Ok that was fun, over it now. Going back to second half of work...3 hours, 20 min. Not that there is counting happening.
Also, a week off work, next week
A little update: Left work after my schedule was completed. Today a patient mysteriously appears at the last slot of the day and oh, simultaneously, someone marks themselves some "director time" not a space for a patient, just some "me time". Why? Spite.
This morning, writing, of course. That's what I do. Writing and listening to a podcast...do this too. Yes, not a common way of writing, but hey. Or maybe it is...don't know. Writing along...and easily decided to concede. There is no reason to be anxious, trying to get others to do their job...why? Letting it go to Spirit, let it go with Spirit. Spirit can take it wherever, and it will be the place for whatever it is. We cannot know what Spirit knows. Therefore, you would think we would let Spirit handle all things.
All things that have been given over to Spirit, always turn out better than could be imagined. Why can we not go with this? We are delusional crazy control freaks? Yes. Not saying this is easy to accomplish, just saying it is more beneficial. Again, why do we not? The question of the ages. It is the weekend, when not at a job being monitored by whatever we think is monitoring us, can move along in this ideation easily. Then people. Seriously, the people out there, not the people that are chosen to be in our circle of trusted, true beings, but all those, not.
Difficult is so understated, it is a serious comedy of errors as Shakespeare would have referred to it. He was correct on so many levels...so many levels, buried, layered, behind the curtain, the veil however you would like to think of it. Also, lately it seems to be more. More of what it used to be...on a level beyond ridiculousness. Worse. Atrocious? Yes, indeed. But the secret being, we have the key. The remedy and no one can understand anything we say about it. Blank stare, no neurons firing, no dots connecting, amazing actually.
Of the few individuals that are in the knowing...we share a saying, "Stop trying to make sense of the senseless." We want people to be aware, logical, human, with some decency, but no. This is not out there. For years have been saying there is a disconnect in the minds of, well, most of humanity. The ruling class for sure, the governmental agencies, leaders, etc. There is not need to explain here unless you have literally been under a rock for the last 10 years. OMG, 10 years.
In spite, in complete defiance of the current world scene, we are happier than ever. Because Spirit. Only Spirit. Spirit. What is meant by this? Just what it says, "Spirit." Period. No moves, no thoughts, no going, taking any action without Spirit consultation. Ever. Never. Talking about, what we eat, wear, and every single moment of every single thought process...none of it attempted or much less done without the go ahead. Sometimes a day goes by, of waiting, because it is not clear. Spirit is always clear, if we are not clear, no go.
At first, so difficult. Had to remind myself to get in a spiritual space, it was difficult. Why is it difficult? Because we think we are in charge of our lives. Then you recognize that our being in charge has totally messed it all up, completely. Why? No Spirit. No spiritual influence on our decisions. Not prayer, not the kind that only gets offered up when trouble strikes. Nope, absolutely every breath, every move, every single moment, no step taken without Spirit interjection.
Before, did not listen. Spirit being there all the time, talking to me, once in a while, twice a year, would hear it. Probably because Spirit had been screaming by this time and got it through. Unaware, thinking everything was okay. Actually, it was ok because we didn't know any different. Then one day, asked Spirit to take over because it was too much. Couldn't do it anymore. What was going on? Being alive. Trying to be alive without feeling everyone was attacking and taking every ounce of energy available, none left for the soul. The soul was so far, so out of touch from the body, barely a little squeak...shut down, not getting any reciprocity, any giving back. Then today, more...gave it all up. All of it.
Not to be confusing, the soul was fine, the description above was the self in the body, not acknowledging the soul on any level, much less getting Spirit in there to give some guidance. "Should" know better, church girl? Hmm, that's what you would think...do not feel safe around "church people". The ones here in the space where we live, they have guns, they hate anyone that is not anglosaxon. Yeah.
Who is this "we" that keeps being mentioned? This self and all the selves that realize we are together, of the mind of Spirit, led by Spirit, only. Not by a church. We are the church. Destroy the temple, build it again in three days. It is the body. We as an individual, we as the body of Christ, the temple, the church is us, we are the church, not the expensive building you used all the offerings to build instead of feeding and housing the homeless. Yes.
Ok, stopping now, because so many will not feel, get or connect the dots from that last paragraph. They will feel hate for someone pointing out the truth. Truth is not allowed. Truth brings hate. The cheerful nature of a soul/life completely in the arms and heart of Spirit, makes people hate you. Explain that, we sure cannot.
Here we are, was writing in the journal, but felt the need to type. Quicker? Maybe. Kids will be here soon. Got to get some info out? Ok, bring it. Outside in the wind, feels good, however, the eyes are so dry. Eye drops? Taking two different kinds. Dunno, but got some health issues goin' on. Can only do what can be done. Doing that. Doing that now.
So the Spirit says, don't worry bout the body, it comes on-line. It is just behind all the others...it comes still. Always comes, in all ways. And can we write, while talking? Nope. Next day picking this back up. Some quick synchronicities, in the previous "12:34" post using the word "begrudgingly", same word this morning in a podcast, then writing the word "concede" and listening to a different podcast..."concession" at the exact moment finished writing the word.
Then imagine, in my house just screaming these words, BEGRUDGINGLY!!!!... CONCEDE, CONSESSION!!!!...😂 Anyway, hope the neighbors didn't hear, bahaha! The dog staring at me very confused. Oh, and the dog...she and I having a connective moment this morning also. Staring at each other, telepathic communication. Our eyes locked, "she knows", "I know", "J knows" from the Mammie channel. We all know now, and this is exciting because no thing can stay the same now. The ones that know and the ones that never connect the dots. Ever, like for everlasting.
What do we know? That we are all the same eyes, we all see the same photonic energetic magnetic frequency image of light particles that aren't even particles, they are waves...that are being projected before us. All of us one pair of conscious eyes. Alive by breath, melts back into matter if breath stops. Can you fathom? If not, don't worry...it is not meant for you to know. It is sadness to say, but somehow it just is. We are seeing, sensing all the experiences, but it is all, "reality?", but it is dreams also. It is everything all at once and there is no timeline, no beginnings, no endings. A dream within a dream...
There it is, you just decided this is bullshit, or this struck a chord in you that sings the truth to your very soul...from your soul, to your soul, by way the heart, from the heart in origin, but coming in from outside. How is that possible? Yes.
Have another, think it over...which one are you? "She/He knows" or "dots...???" Cheers!
Time on the clock, succession of numbers, steps to take, the line-up of things to be done on the "to do" list. Yeah, however, do not make the to do list for life anyway, b/c Spirit is in charge. I don't even want to do it. When I try to set things up, do smart things, work things around, things, things, things. Never works out as planned, never has, once. Well, at least not the way is was exactly planned, maybe end result, but not the process. Not in the way planned, 1. 2. 3. 4. Why would this still be a way of doing anything?
Now that I have recognized, there is no way to plan anything like we would hope it could go. No way. The best laid plans, and all that... Now, Spirit. Talk to Spirit, the ideas for the plans are coming from there anyway, if they are good ones. Bad plans, worries, fear, doubt all this always coming up sometimes making it so stressful and overwhelming none of the steps get done. The Spirit way? Think it. Have a remarkable idea. Let it play out. If you forget it, fine was not meant to be. If you don't forget, but do not obsess or start that run down of the list above, stress, etc.
How good am I at this? Not that good. There is a thing that is wanted, been wanting for over 3 years. Not a sign of it, not a hint, word, sighting, absolutely nothing. Cannot let it go. Sure way to never get it. Does not make me cry anymore. Usually. There is another thing that is here now. Four months ago, wanted, made moves to get it, didn't get it. Didn't completely forget about it, but it was not a significant part of present moments. Yup, came back around, got it.
Learning from this? You would think that. Trying to learn? Trying to apply the known steps? Yes, successful in some moments. Still stress about it, not as significant. Still have moments of grief over not getting/having it. An ability to live and move on without it? Of course. Lots of changes, making room, opening all the spaces, telling the heart, uhm, the heart telling me...talking to the soul. Not even sure what they say to each other most of the time. The stupid mind, will not let the proper emotions rule. Always making a scene. But, but, but not standing for disrespect, well, you should read "Bein' Green" right below this post.
Walking away from this disrespect, being a good human in the process, nothing in it for me, but respect. Taking it. And walking away from a person that is not giving even the slightest attempt at being human, good or otherwise. He begrudgingly gave me a cookie the other day. I can read your vibe, dude, it was begrudging. 1,2,3,4...first steps walking away, 1,2,3,4...more days working with Mr. Begrudge.
Bye-bye
Yes, we have moved to frogs today. Kermit the Frog, "It's not easy being green.", his song. Relate. Not green, but we all have issues. I sure do. Everyone just being mean, not because I'm green, but for some reason. You know what that reason is? I'm nice, unbothered and they are certainly bothered, making sure all around them are bothered also. Jack asses. Well, that felt really good. Mhm.
That whole, people mirror back what you give, bullshit. They give it, never do I give it back. I was not giving it to begin with, so explain that. I'm sick of it. I did a sort of walk away today. In a really nice way. Did the laundry first and cleaned up everything no one else bothered cleaning. Then walked away. That'll show 'em. Sure they did not even notice. But did it, there you go. Bam! Ha! I'm ridiculous.
I am aware of my ridiculousness, this is the problem. Jack asses, oh they have every right to be the dickheads they are...are we creating a Jack Ass Town with the whole frequency thing? Please. Please. Do not tease me, because at this point, cannot. Cannot. Let's think of the alternative. All of us together in a place WITHOUT the jack asses. Beautiful. This I can.
Is it? Is it? IS IT? Do not tease, do not tell me if it isn't so. Could it possibly be? I really do think/feel/whatever we are supposed to be doing nowadays. I'm tired of all the selfish bullshit. Yeah, tired of fighting a bacteria in the body and nobody can seem to get their shit together, but I always have my shit together. I fucking do. So here's to the town of Jack Ass. Cheers!
Seriously, dogs be so cute, this pic over in the ART section...check it out. She look and she be smart like Albert Einstein. This weird way of talking is how I talk to her and she likes it. She's the guard dog, won't tell you her name because she is super protected, by me. I am super protected by her, mutual, reciprocal. Definitely.
And now we move to a relaxed state, we, meaning me, she is always relaxed when she want to relax. On the other hand, it takes a lot to make me relax when trying the hardest. This is something I have been working on however and it is better. Not good, just better than it was...it's been bad for a long time. Breathing helps. Isn't this just the most stupid thing, you know, forgetting to breathe? Like, what? It is autonomic, if you are not dead. But it is so useful for maintenance of the body system and we forget. We are stupid. Will speak for myself, but, well you know.
Breathing now, on purpose, for relaxation. Amazing, yup, isn't it though? The thing that brings all this to mind is writing. Obviously, writing now, so...Sure that this has been said before somewhere in all the writing, but it did save my life. It was my solace, the place to escape. Hours upon hours, page after page, day after day...if a day has been missed, do not know when that would have been. Most of the time carry a journal with me just in case. If a spare moment arrives, writing.
Made a special trip to the coffee shop to write before an appointment with my new employer to visit the clinic where I will be working soon. Wrapping up the last few days at the most momentary job ever, one month and one day. Got a better offer, what can I say? Bonuses, sign on bonus, got to pick how many hours to work, Monday's off, seriously. The place where I am now, asked for reduced hours, they put me on the schedule full time, I countered. 36 hours, asked for 30.
That was the easiest decision ever made in the history of all my decisions. All the alls of all-time, The last 3 years there have been so many firsts, mosts, nevers and so on. Here we are still slogging aloing, but making the way, writing to become a writer. Guess we are finally figuring out what we want to be when we grow up.
Now no thing is weird. Every little thing is of and by Spirit. Do not doubt this - do not doubt the bird singing was not sent directly to you this morning moment and in a language only translatable to the heart soul. It brings joy and comfort indeed. No doubt whatsoever. None.
Nature, plants especially all purposeful...some for beauty some for nourishment, all with an intended part of life's cycle. When a being is in its purpose it is always a beautiful thing...just this gives a grounding a confidence in the root of stability.
We exist in the world we make...make it beautiful. Do what makes beauty. Offerings on stand-by, available to receive, we cannot give to what does not receive-this is nature inherent...not understood. The way of Spirit is only in the receiving-only in a method of of experience.
Expectations = Ruination of every and/or any experience. Experiences cannot be planned. They are meant to be adventures not scheduled expectations.
Relax in to the movement. It keeps coming back to you, the offering from Spirit... it came exactly perfectly on time...received with great magnitude of gratefulness. Overflowing. In the process of receiving more revealed of the generosity of the offer. The bar set so low, new hours, the actual draw, then the offerings of more continued to flow.
In this joy, in this a true thankfulness. Dampening the mind with its, "but what ifs" and allowing Spirit, receiving Spirit, being led in first moments by the breath of Spirit in the lungs designed by Spirit.
We are co-creating, we begin, are beginning exposure, the practice of the lock-step (7:36*) another synchronicity, off the charts.
Lock-step metaphorical:
Things that progress, change or agree in perfect, unyielding "synchronization" and coordination. (Of course.)
Lock-step computing: method of fault tolerant design where multiple processors execute the exact same instructions at the same time to check system errors.
The details known...because when hearing the wrong info, it hits wrong-truth rings, falseness thuds. This matters to us, we are energy and spaces, give them support. It is our actuality, life of breath. Settled, comforted by touch, sound, smell, light, indeed.
Love it when the writing syncs up with the word given in the definition. Lock-step, never have these words passed these lips before today.
*time sync that brings a certain being to mind, 7:36
And unknown is the subject of this post...the previous post title is cracking me up, however. Anyway, lets get into it. The "it" maybe illusive, as the environment is noisy, busy. There are children here. For some reason I thought this coffee shop was a religious somethin' or other. Then I looked up wine bars on the map and it popped up. Espresso martinis of course and a couple of other options. Huh? There just seems to be a lot of Amish or Mennonite types in here with their kids, unfortunately.
I mean, I like kids...pediatric therapist and all, but here to get out of the house to "work". Anyway, they don't usually hang around long, too boring for the kiddos. But now I have the topic...I am out of the house. Last weekend at a course. Last night exhausted from having to fight for myself. Said I didn't want to work full-time, put on the schedule, full-time. So, I had to challenge that. Wanting to work 30-32 hours a week. Working 36 as of now. Anyway, felt a concession was in order as I failed to put the hour scale on the contract. Damn it, I know better.
But here I am, right here. Eating a chocolate chip cookie and matcha for dinner. Didn't order a drink, maybe go somewhere else for that, you know...the children. Some interesting folks here. Too old, way too young and a bunch of girls of various ages that is also a, "No." from this lady. Only Cindy Crawford could turn me and most of you have no idea who that is. Look her up. Again, anyway, anywho.
Art, needing to get another color pencil piece going. It is the thing enjoyed, tried other mediums and can do a pretty good sketch now. Learning more can only enhance skills, but the color pencil is the way of relaxation for me, after writing. Oh, an have always been an absolute expert at napping. The dog, on a cat mission would not let the sleep come. Then, at 3pm, "Get up and go." And the body rose up from the bed, the dog looking confused, and I began getting ready. There is no longer ever any hesitation. There was a learning curve, but stupid, in most cases is not a description of this brain.
Totally, off subject but had a great conversation with a young girl working at the tag office. Was changing my address on license and voter registration and the screen of party affiliation came up. Heard that Independents were not going to be allowed to vote on the democratic ticket any longer. She looked surprised and said that is the trend, going independent. Not by any noticeable difference of democrats/republicans, but both changing to independent. Tired of the fuss, the absurdity of the current fiasco happening. Yes, it is 2026 in the states. Surprise!
Back to being out in public...hermit is the moniker most appropriate for this life at this moment and it is never a problem for this one. There is strong hermitage in this one. The aloneness can't scare me. It is much preferred than spending time with the ridiculous. Low tolerance, which is not a factor of the "love collective". Love can be extended without spending time with the ones out to alter or diminish the frequency obtained. This is much easier to detect nowdays than back before the knowledge recognition of what was happening to me was remembered.
The soul does not forget? No, the soul is the recognition, the wisdom. Uhm, and this is the saying of the day..."Always known" It is the same every lifetime, but the a new baby human does not remember, resets. Good for guilt and shame, but recognition of the easier way to gain the ascended level to acquire transfiguration to the point of ascension without the death process, forgotten. The reset. The challenge is to progress to the point of the Creator engagement to the extent of lifting us out to be in the safety of the Father, Universe, Spirit or other names given. "Come to me, you beautiful creation, as you have met the threshhold of the holies. Come."
Emotions rise, when the Creator calls your name, the name given by creation. How could you resist, resist complete response? There comes these moments when these truths come through and Spirit gives the frequency of the love that is known. Always known since our eyes connected in the material presence, the souls having always been connected and communicating. Always known. Made manifest at that moment and cannot release that look. Releasing the outcome, but never the love, because it, always known.
Background pic is flowers on the table at the coffee shop, beauty.
So is this title as suggestive as it seems? Did not want to outright plug or rip off the movie. One of my former co-workers used to call me John Wick. Never saw the movie until today. Asked him about it, he didn't really explain, but now a little disturbed by my character portayal in this world. Badass? Ok. I will take it.
Knowing that there is no shit taken from anybody anymore. Seriously, the dog is super important to me...the car? Meh, not really. It's a soccer mom car. Can own the fact that if someone goes to the bad side, there's no talking, there is just consequences. No, this is not the norm, but a few dudes, they have seen the mean side and they didn't like it. Normally, sugar, spice and everything nice. Be happy with that fellas. Why must you test?
By the way, if anyone in this country gets their right to vote taken away? The only purpose in this life will be to rectify that. Suffragette? Sure, but not that nice. That is so far over the line...if everyone is not fighting with us, what are you even doing? Well, so happy to dump that off the chest. Have a good day! Make sure we don't slip up behind you...ha, ha, ha, haha! JK...?
Soma, restaurant...the waitress says, crabcakes and I say, "What kinda cupcakes?" Anyway, will have something sweet apparently. Let's channel...
From the beginning, at this moment, keep having moments of cognition, but it is actually recognition as it is all things or moments remembered from the first days of the journaling. Environmental healing, an annointing that make some sort of world healing. Scalp is tingling now. So, all the things that made absolutely no sense are now coming back in more coherent way making all the sense. Coolio.
The main, the magnificent, the interesting, the one thing making all the difference. Changing all the irritations (and there have been some cranky moments for sure) lifting the moods of the moment. The heart space has taken over, the heart has said, "Step aside, this is mine." And it surely is. Gushing right out of that specific space. A river red and thick, carrying all the requirements for all the love, mind manipulations, letting the truth come into view. The mind such a liar, deceitful in every possible way.
Now a recognizeable way of moving forward that has no fear, it is absolutely the way of no doubts. It makes a smile come and moments of disbelief that this could not be latched onto...3 years it has taken for the mind to relent. It cannot hold onto the deceptive illusions that have held us in a stall. Love that a flying, pilot word just popped out there. This is too good, this is alright, this is the bomb.
Girl, what did you think was happening. You are not meant for the boring, c'mon. Technically, there are no rules, there are no historical learnings that can lead or direct...this is all you, y'all. Not one to pick up or display the okie vernacular, but this is not the usual, not in the least. Everything is up for grabs, on the loose, turned upside down, inside out, backwards, front to back. There are no rules. Only the movement that has never been seen before.
Go with it, run with it. Run like you have never ran before. It is all exactly as you perceived. Learn to trust the intuition and discern the souls that are acceptable into your family of souls. The feeling today when you realized your intitial thoughts and emotions, identification of frequency was completely on track. On the nose, no doubts, just trust. Now faith that it all comes, just like it was, is.
Beautiful is the day that the recognition settles in that we are not responsible for any other being, but the self. Deliciously is this absorbed into the being holding this soul as there is no affinity with most persons. As most persons are just fillers in the actuality of the self. (Yes, down the woo woo trail, get ready.) Empathically picking up their vibes in this life, but no more. Finally, catching on that this is unneccessary, not the "job", desired experience, of course, no one would choose this life of an empath. It is horrific and the natural response is to care. No longer does this soul care or can be fooled into caring. Damn, this is the best ever. Best for everyone and no one can change it now, because it will now never be unseen, ever. Everlasting.
Everlasting life. Infinity. No more of this life as the life of this soul being is aware, is finished with the deception of no one. Nefarious beings have become no one of existence. Booted, out, non-existent, of no concern, whatsoever. Nevertheless, nonetheless, etc. Love the words that smash many words together to make a run-on-word as there is a partiality to run-on sentences and this carries over seamlessly. Words, love them actually in any form or format. Writing them, not speaking.
Imagined or other-wise there is an issue in the vocal cords of this body being...suspicious is that. Have been informed by an ENT that is is partially psychological. Great, an issue invoked upon the self. The idea that not being able to express the self has caused an issue with speaking clearly,. not to mention being heard. That should be a new combined words addition: "nottomention". The idea that no one has ever given credence to the words from this mouth, then to physically manifest the misunderstanding of words through a psychic phenomenon, self-imposed. How utterly mortifying...
This is the life of this being...a being that has overcome so many obstacles in the last three years. This still lingers and there is no doubt of the fact that the breath is involved. Repeatedly have we discussed the Holy Spirit as the breath of life. The voice relies upon the breath to vocalize. Calling upon Spirit has brought new life to the soul-being. There is no obstacle to the Spirit bringing new life to the voice. Maybe a voice unlike the one utilized before. The one that was stressed and overused the musculature of the neck and voice components. A true condition paralysing the vocal cords so they do not open and close correctly. The breath cannot enter correctly. (Unless Mrs. Doubtfire appears. See below.)
The natural voice never used correctly? Possibly. Now the voice of breath comes out clearly in any other voice, like an impersonator. There is a fondness for the "Mrs. Doubtfire" voice. Certain singing voices, except for the one familiar as, "the voice" previously bestowed upon this being. It is gone, along with any concept of the former being. So, are we recognizing that this is the way, we are the way. In the way of Spirit moving through souls, in the way that there is no other way or any form of existence can be described now, we continue, in our way? See what's meant by the run on sentence writing aspect? Check ☑️
Sitting down to eat. Eating not the emotional challenge it used to be. Thankfully. Fuel, now. Less connected to emotions, feelings, a solace for whatever is happening. How did this come about? Diabetic. Finally, "allowed" by an insurance company to be prescribed an intervention that actually works. Of course, this being the injection so many are using for weight loss currently. Years ago when I began the injections it was life or death actually as the pancreas had given up all insulin production.
There was an initial weight loss. Not dramatic, 10-15 lbs. Blood sugars acceptable, but the significant change in how the body no longer felt as if it was fighting for life. Exhaustion was a daily experience along with inflammation, skin issues. It was much easier to exercise once the injections began, because there was energy left in the body when the fight for life was lessened.
Currently, about 20-25lbs lost without effort. Would not suggest this for those not experiencing a serious disease. Those borderline diabetics, yes. All the others? Why put your body through something like that when otherwise you are healthy? Feeling leery about the after effects of this as most known to have soley used this for weight loss, put the weight right back on.
There was no preconception of writing this post. Apparently someone needs to know. Thanks for reading, it's my POV. Talk to your doctor.
The "soul date" that is so enjoyable for, you know, the soul. Got foiled. Bubs invited me to dinner with him, L. and J. Yeah, so. Now debating if another date waits to next week or a Saturday date, for the soul. Probably next week. Too many projects at home. Maybe tomorrow a stay home paint the dining room date? 🖌️ I have wine. Hmm, maybe. Doesn't sound bad actually. So, ok.
At Tina's again, and there are many people here, it is 4:42PM. How has everyone discovered my thing? Going out super early to avoid the crowd. However, a slew of early birds and not blue hairs, regular hairs. Well, a few blue hairs, but all the other hair colors also. Lots of dudes, but they are with other dudes. I don't understand how this socializing thing works and really not interested in anyone, but one dude. Apparently, he is disinterested. And now, in this moment of the life of this soul, that is just living in this body...looking out the eyes of the skull somehow. Living in the heartspace, hangin'. Watching the show.
Actually, very indifferent, not engaged. Well, I guess the thoughts in the mind are available and that is moderately entertaining, I'm a crack-up. Snarky as hell. But really? Is this it? Recognition, remembering, things written about in this very website. Complete weirdness, until...until you figure out all those freaky downloads had a real aspect. WTF? Mhm, alright...I am right a lot, it is disturbing because the things I'm right about? Not normal, eccentric for sure. Damn.
Still here I am. Alone at a table along with my soul, having a date. A soul date, doin' my thing, man. Dude. I do enjoy sitting here writing, writing anywhere actually. It is the thing that makes me happy. You know what is not making me happy, lately? Writing a book about assumptions, conjecture and speculation. Most of it is factual, happened to me, the rest is just what would make a good story and that is not what is coming out of the soul. The soul must write.
The soul can write, but it is just a chore now. A thing. Something that needs to be done, revamped. It makes me think it is wrong and it needs to be fixed, yeah. Blah. Ick. Not interested, just want it to come out naturally, but then all that f'ing writing still sitting there in cyberspace. Trash it? See, don't know? Can't decide. Do we have to decide? The very beginning, when we were being crushed by circumstance, crying...pretending it was all about my mom. And it was, but it was also a large part of him being pulled from beneath my skin, slow and painful. Things being so desperate and walking into the kitchen hearing, "Write the book, he's coming back." Those were the words. I have not written the book, he has not come back.
For some reason this is just making me laugh. It seemed simple, easy. Do this, then that? Or what? I really never thought that writing the book was bringing him back...actually more like, if he would come back, that would make a much better ending to this book. Get his side of story. Learn about the witchy, bitchies. Yeah, that would be fascinating, interesting. The real story. Told from both sides. Now only guessing what happened to him. He has never spoken another word to me since then. Again, damn.
Fruckerly, fruck. See? Crack-up extroidinaire. Whatever. Are we losing interest? Who would have ever thought it. Strong is the energy/force with this one. Well, let us consider. There is a new house, there is no other around. This would be a really good time to forget it all. All of it. Or, damn it, write the book, but options are available. Clear it out, wash it down the drain? Why does this de ja vu...the drain. The river. Standing by a drain on a street by the river. Ok?
This is more like it, freaky weird de ja vu, downloads. Words in the head coming from who knows where. That's what we like. This is the talent, the gift, the book. This is how it is written. A fugue state of information coming out through my fingers on a sheet of paper with a pen, or on a keyboard, like this. The energy...damn, how to describe something you cannot possibly describe? We will do our best, mhm. Yes, of course we will. What else would we do? The ancestors, angels, spirit guides, etc. Ok, that's it.
Can we get a little more instruction?
Are you asking questions again?
Yes. Am I getting answers? Are we?
Disappointment. We, not I. We are internal, we are parts of your being, part of your (heard, "corpse"?) body, of the Earth. Matter of Mother, the chosen, because you get to choose the body, the parents, the place, the space. Again, making me laugh as the space, place chosen, very obscure, unassuming. Parents with integrity, reliable, made a great place for growing up. Beautiful and thankful for this. Makes thoughts go to the fact that a positive childhood creates room in the heart initiating additional space for loving others? Unknown. But has a feel good notion to it.
A little update, as J., was very attitudinal towards this soul, intruding on our soul date and this is his way of dealing. No judgement or hard feelings, but a definite mood of not subjecting the body senses to those intentions. He can deal with his own issues, as we are dealing over here. It has to be all good. This is the state of hopefulness for the entire situation. This body has made remarkable progess since coming into a different space. This we will celebrate. This we will be most grateful for in all things. It is all, not for nothing.
Go here:In The Middle
Shocked, I know. At a coffee shop, again. It is a more unusual spot than where I normally land. Blah, blah...Ok, let's get going...
Speculation. Conjecture. Assumption, that's a, "No." But the last three years of your life have been based on these. Moment of now, we are leaving these behind. Intuition, definitely, use it. We can make moves based on intuitive "hits", energy, etc. This always the best way, if energy feels off, or is unreadable, just wait. Give your sensory talents and gifts time to adjust or come up to speed, with said energy.
Think back, because normally you are checking these people at the door, there is no waiting. Therefore, if you find yourself in a scattered, static, chaotic moment, presented in a space. Trust Spirit, yourself, one and the same, in all actuality. Indeed, of course. Now we are going. And the situation that seems to be of topic? A someone coming in for who knows what...just be cautious. You know your speed now. You know your own energy now and so does everyone else. No reasons to speculate on any of that.
Just looked up into the current coffee shop scene. Lined up out the door. Got here "just in time". Oh, always, girl, in all ways. Back to the other space, oh how lovely it is...your very own space of world. It is yours, you are in charge and now it is coming...but you are bringing it. None of the next moments will be of anything more than what Spirit is creating with you, co-creating. And immediately your mind goes to that ol' WOMPA. (A co-working space near by.) You are not wrong there either. It comes.
Now, do you know what is coming? Do you care? Well, do you need to wonder or worry? Absolutely not! How delicious and just now a giant smell of cookies came through the atmosphere of this shop and what could be a more beautiful way of advertising?...good smell of cookie, most likely chocolate chip. You know what else smells like the chocolate chips nestled in a cookie? Angelic presence. Yup, going there. Dude, ok, bring it on!
Rarely are exclamation points used in these writings, but two in the last paragraph, wow. Huh? Angelic. Sighting? Yeah, no. But feeling, quite possibly. And are we there yet? Senseless remarks, but always love the question and answer time with ancestors, guides and Spirit. Shoot.
Are we in alignment?
Will answer, "Yes." (Usually not a lot of trick questions going on in these sessions.)
Old news is all that comes from favorite sources?
Indeed.
Want the new news?
New new, please.
Tap into "super-natty" feels. Mhm.
Here it is, what is coming, that would be you. You in an alignment, with guides of Holy Spirit, the flame. The underlying energy and this is ours. Bernardo Your Life is not about You is correct, you are not the subject of the world. Egocentricism is not a thing any longer. It is not. Now we can move to the next moment. All of the last learning occurring in the last 3 years of speculation, conjecture, assumption, it was a moment in your life, a time line. How long was the time line? IT DOES NOT MATTER. As here we are now, and in this moment we decide how we procede.
Definitely, we will not procede with any speculation, conjecture or assumptions of any kind.
Agreed?
"Easy...Yes!" Exclamation point. Mhm.
Where?
Wow, is there room for thinking?
Not really.
Then stay where we are.
Ok. Doint what?
Writing.
Quick response, good job.
Thank you.
Procede.
Is that it?
Who is asking the questions?
Oh, yeah.
Procede.
Ugh. The story is in the past.
Yes.
And?
Is that a question?
Ugh.
Procede.
Ok. Yes.
See how that goes? This is how it goes, these conversations. Always a zinger for me and proof that only Spirit can be trusted. This ties right back to the beginning. Only Spirit can guide and then intuition kicks in, to support, then the ancestors jump up and around you, either to protect or cheer on. And this is the new life, the new news, we move in this way. Also, this is not new, it has in all ways been right here for us, we could not see.
We have small indications of what might be coming, we do not know the details. This is intentional and held us all back, or at least all of us "sensitive" souls, truly meant as an insult when used by most, there is no doubt. Too insecure to move on in anyway. Not forward, backward, up or down, no movement, because fear. Fear. All the fear that we could speculate, conject? (ha, ha!), assume, no need. Let it go, let it be and now we mean it. We actually mean to put this into practice, now.
There is no past, future, no, only present. Knowing you have heard this before. Did you apply it? This soul has not been able to, but this is the new day. We are in the new moon of intentions. Seeds definitely planted, sprouts starting to move toward warmth. This is the thing, the modus operandi, for now, for always, in all ways.
Fin
At least for today
Another random example that is irresistible to those who are in a state of being open to an irresistible call. Each of us have it, many never recognize or even have an interest in looking outside their sphere of egocentricism. Looking down the list of posts on this page we see, random DL, weirdness, culminations, etc. There is no persona for being in a position to allow, accept and receive any and all things from a sense of spiritualism.
This is my life at the moment. It is all there is really. All of the gestures, faking, postulating of the persons that persons "want" to be. Sitting here judging everyone at the bar, and knowing we are one of them at any point and time. Having at one time or another been in the same state of mind, the same being of lack, looking for something they think is not in their life at this moment. Actually, I am there quite recently. Knowing that where this body was residing was not the space the soul could relax, breathe or expand in anyway.
Left that place, not in search of anything but quiet. Moments that are not interrupted by nonsense. It is another judgement, but also a drain of energy. It was a non-mutual energy existence. Not a relationship, a friendship for sure, but one that started with two very immature beings and one that is still at the same immature state and an old woman. Yes. Mhm, was not even given a hint that this was going to be written tonight. On a date with with being. Known that a date alone is the best dates ever had, so far.
I am a great date for this soul. These dates are so great for the soul of the being that is here on Earth. Remember telling B., he is the creation of the above not a relationship friend mentioned above. He is beautiful, he has a heart of the soul of his grandmother, the mother and creator of this being writing this post. There is such a beauty in this generational lineage, line of ages. Never before broken this word down into what it actually means. Known now that it is a constant, a line of DNA that has been passed down and we know in the heartspace that something is special. We recognized it when all were in-body, but not in completion. We still held a belief of separation. Beliefs, the lies of men. Unfortunate to say the least.
Unfortunate for sure. The vodka is kicking in from the martini and the shoulders relax, the mind opens to more, spirit, from the spirits. From long ago, the work of the monks, the nuns. Not really sure if nuns, were brew masters, but they are. Abbeys in Germany and Belgium had breweries to provide "nutrition" (how cute is that?) and income. Got to love a good nun! The Belgian nuns possibly from a lineage of this incarnation, the DNA structure, the surname coming generally from this region. Interesting. Beings with breath. Breath of Spirit, life of soul.
The body only an antenna, a receivor for the messages of spiritual contact, information and knowledge. This is the most loved portion and just cluing into this aspect very recently. What were we doing? Giving all energy to the ones taking and not giving back. Depleting the supply we are given and never once considering that we were dehydrated, gasping for water, needing a drink of the energetic field, but we gave it away as our nature is to give. Their nature is to take.
Here we are in a moderately busy little beer bar, oh and burgers. Good burgers. Going to download a message with noise, without earbuds so far...and just glancing down at the last post, WEIRDNESS. Have no idea what that is about...don't remember writing it. Will re-read later. Ok, here we go...
Distant smoke, random spoke, about the life before awoke. Ha, ha, ha!! Sorry, that just caught me off guard, do love that rhyming, however. You are on the right path with the book...keep receiving. This isn't hard as everyone wants you to believe. It's yours, mine and the underlings?, unberlenes? this is not a word. I can't get it, does it rhyme? So many questions, so little time. Ok, talk about weirdness!
Now, it's time, no more rhyme, loving this moment, very sublime. Oops. Down to the wire, HAIM-"The Wire". Alright, randomness at the very most random. Cool. Now, let's go...indeed take me there, also another song, uhm, don't care. Stop rhyming, I mean it! Anybody want a peanut. OMG!
Then we just don't care anymore. About anything, the need to react, to even pay attention, seriously, it's over, damn! This is so great, no cares, no worries, no obligations, mhm. Not a bad gig, man.
Wrote up the new life schedule and it is the best thing that I have ever seen. All the faves, all the things loved, no fuckery of others.
Why? Ego crap. Oh, nice. Love the question answer sessions:
What did you expect? Much more crying.
Disappointed? Not in the least.
Next? More of the same.
Worried? Well, saying, "No." Don't trust myself, trusting in you, however.
Oh, wait. Is this Essa?
Oh, my! This is remarkable, talk to me!
"I have been asking the questions, would you like to do some asking?" Listen to Reem. She said, "momentus, the crossroads. Ignoring signs. Don't like being reminded of the past, is for insight not trauma returns. History, ancestry, being returned. Moving keeps coming up...done deal. Gone. Lineage of something to be received."
Just listen.
The gift, the present, reminded of the "old ways". Yeah, this is the thing, it is a surprising thing, I'm sure...ancestors of healing and spiritualism and then a Baptist. I am receiving this gift, designee, assets, beneficiary. Uh, huh, ok, on Earth. Well, this will be a surprise. Coming from the poor folks, the share croppers and house cleaners. Ok, maybe a little in the analogy department. But I can totally see that the gifts will produce a legacy, and monetary benefits. Cool. The meek and the inheritance...
A pivot, a change to a the actual purpose of the life, the breath, the spine and all of its electrical energetic charge that continues life through electronic pulses, from electrons, of course. A continuous rythmn, beat of life, proof of life, proof of continued breath, oxygenation, elemental make-up of physical form and internal workings of organs, circulatory systems, elimination systems, nutritient absorption for health of systems. Water.
Learning that water holds messages, remembers words, reacts to words by crystalization formation in the frozen state. In liquid state, a remembrance of molecules presents such as anti-biotics after dilution. Coded message remembrance, receipt of current messages from elemental chemical combinations and speech of human beings. How can ingesting water not change us? Born of water, what did that really mean? Water that is more intelligent than most humans?
Think the above words are make believe? Look it up, look at recent studies of water by scientists. Learn something that might actually lead you to a spiritual experience that includes your god, God. They are not hating on anyone...there is only love even in the very imperfectness. So try a little love, change your little heart, be a human being, not an egocentric machine. C'mon let's try at least. So many are not even trying. Try.
This the message...not going to explain or add words for clarification. If the words do not mean anything to you, then they are not for you, at this time. The something going on now is bridges, portals, pivots, relax and let it all come to you. There is no fighting only recognizing how to give effort to a change...a positive change. Keep creating, spiritual friends, keep creating a life we can be proud to be a part of, together.
Something is different. What would that be? No idea. This is the internal conversation going on in the mind, more so from the heart to the mind. They are talking to each other, and it is super cool. None of us know what we are doing, but we are doing it. Sincerely it is just energy...just being energetic and there is no certain frequency, it is our/your frequency.
There are persons, they do not speak verbally or even make eye contact, but there is an energy that comes and a sort of communication begins. They are either aware of it or not. It does not matter because an interaction between molecules, particles occurred. There is no doubt these souls will come back around, come back telepathically, maybe an existent little frequency that maintains that tiny little connection.
There are other persons that are in vicinity, proximity, same room even and there is nothing. No connectivity, no energy. Is that even possible if you are maintaining breath? (Well, hmm. Another subject another time.) This is being experienced recently and it is disturbing. That disconnected, in their own head? That no frequency is coming from the structure of muscle and bone. That word combo coming into writings presently. Musle and Bone.
The energy subdued to the point of no detection, yeah. Been there probably, all of us at one time. This circles us back to the state of frequency and how it does not matter. It is yours and it connects with others on the frequency. This is an exciting prospect. Those that connected in those weird little moments, like the guy filming the concert a couple of nights ago. He was one of our people, maybe he felt nothing, but it was there. Someday our paths cross and "Do I know you? Have we met somewhere before?" Neither of us will remember possibly and then if we continue in a frequency we will figure out..."Billy Strings concert in December 2025? OMG!"
These are the things I love...that bring peace, joy, a reason to keep chugging along. It is the only thing keeping it going as of now, really. All else is so messed up, but can see tomorrow, can live there because it has been revealed. Going there and all those souls coming to that frequency are going to be there. It will be our home. We will feel safe, at home within our network of souls that are in this one frequency of community, without deceit, doubt, danger of being manipulated. This is where we want to be, in the weirdness of each other.
It is here, the energetic culmination of mind/body/soul and nothing can separate you from this. No desparation of ohter, no wild horses could drag you away. Your desire to maintain connection to Spirit, to hold the frequency, this is it...this. It cannot be described only felt, it cannot be taken away or swayed. For you know from whence it came and this is the all powerful, the all knowing.
The purety of love unconditional, no parameters, no expectations just golden light. Those moments of ecstacy, feelings cannot come without a price if they do not come from original source. Now-you have been working very hard, depleting energetic storage when an infinite source is available. In your world the expenditure is skewed by the syphoners. Identified to you, no coincidence there. This not for you to fix, it is for you to step back and allow, accept, receive what is to come. What is to come, avenues of flow, not hunted down, not forced. Come into this knowing, all is there do not hunt for it...it will be brought to the places you are guided. It will com in the most fantastical way.
You are remembering the edge of a dream now, but iwas never a dream. It is a happening that is already of a choice, choices made. The infinite travel between the choices of free will. This comes and you will see two sides:
1) The spiritual community without the ancesterol teachings
2) The other side, tought but relied on self-diligence, work, effort, frustration instead of grace
Free will and the over encompassing of The Will.
The Will ccomes, the free will gives a choice. In the choosing the groups divided themselves. The Will is steadfast, The Will never changing, the soul is capable is of complete contact absolute. The free will must choose to allow accept, receive Spirit. All can receive Spirit no matter race and certainly not religion. The church is not a building for profits, but instead of a body of Spirit acceptance to join, choose to join a Spirit community of souls.
The body again, the temple representation, the souls in body, each a fractile photon of the whole, the total, the "body of Christ." All of this comes together. Christ the fullfillment of the Law, the temple destroyed, the temple resurrected as a body. A body transfigured in order to ascend. How? By living of/in all inclusive with the Father of us all, the Creator of the first code of strand of life. The Origin of the code. All codes come, nothing owed, no thing required, no expectations to meet. Follow Spirit, listen to Spirit leads. Not traveling on the Earth. You exist everywhere in Spirit now, at this moment.
There is no ending of the world, there is no new beginning, it is all here now. He has always been the Christ, but you are looking for Him where He is not. He is arisen, ascended to Paradise, it was there, is there has always been there, accomplished. You must witness this. Your witness is your experience, no thing to find, only accept, allow, receive the experience. Let you body do what it knows to do, let it transfigure with the coding that came through The Will and is infinite in existence at all for all time. Trip the Field, enter the If in the blank of the If/Then field. If you soul accepts, allows, recieves then you may enter paradise with Christ. He is there, along with the theif on the cross, the Spirit is here to guide you to Him.
Embody the Spirit gifted by the Christ and yo will have eternal life.
It is here, the energetic culmination of mind/body/soul and nothing can separate you from this. No desparation of ohter, no wild horses could drag you away. Your desire to maintain connection to Spirit, to hold the frequency, this is it...this. It cannot be described only felt, it cannot be taken away or swayed. For you know from whence it came and this is the all powerful, the all knowing.
The purety of love unconditional, no parameters, no expectations just golden light. Those moments of ecstacy, feelings cannot come without a price if they do not come from original source. Now-you have been working very hard, depleting energetic storage when an infinite source is available. In your world the expenditure is skewed by the syphoners. Identified to you, no coincidence there. This not for you to fix, it is for you to step back and allow, accept, receive what is to come. What is to come, avenues of flow, not hunted down, not forced. Come into this knowing, all is there do not hunt for it...it will be brought to the places you are guided. It will com in the most fantastical way.
You are remembering the edge of a dream now, but iwas never a dream. It is a happening that is already of a choice, choices made. The infinite travel between the choices of free will. This comes and you will see two sides:
1) The spiritual community without the ancesterol teachings
2) The other side, tought but relied on self-diligence, work, effort, frustration instead of grace
Free will and the over encompassing of The Will.
The Will ccomes, the free will gives a choice. In the choosing the groups divided themselves. The Will is steadfast, The Will never changing, the soul is capable is of complete contact absolute. The free will must choose to allow accept, receive Spirit. All can receive Spirit no matter race and certainly not religion. The church is not a building for profits, but instead of a body of Spirit acceptance to join, choose to join a Spirit community of souls.
The body again, the temple representation, the souls in body, each a fractile photon of the whole, the total, the "body of Christ." All of this comes together. Christ the fullfillment of the Law, the temple destroyed, the temple resurrected as a body. A body transfigured in order to ascend. How? By living of/in all inclusive with the Father of us all, the Creator of the first code of strand of life. The Origin of the code. All codes come, nothing owed, no thing required, no expectations to meet. Follow Spirit, listen to Spirit leads. Not traveling on the Earth. You exist everywhere in Spirit now, at this moment.
There is no ending of the world, there is no new beginning, it is all here now. He has always been the Christ, but you are looking for Him where He is not. He is arisen, ascended to Paradise, it was there, is there has always been there, accomplished. You must witness this. Your witness is your experience, no thing to find, only accept, allow, receive the experience. Let you body do what it knows to do, let it transfigure with the coding that came through The Will and is infinite in existence at all for all time. Trip the Field, enter the If in the blank of the If/Then field. If you soul accepts, allows, recieves then you may enter paradise with Christ. He is there, along with the theif on the cross, the Spirit is here to guide you to Him.
Embody the Spirit gifted by the Christ and yo will have eternal life. If you embody the Holy Spirit, gifted by the Christ, then you embodied will also be given eternal life in the body. Of the body a joining of the bodies that allow, accept, receive the Holy Spirit, the Comforter from Christ, of Christ embodied. Your choice, free will:
A body not of Christ and without Spirit
An embodiment of Christ with a soul that received the gift
Holy Spirit is the way, the truth, the life
Power and miracles greater then those done, performed by Christ.
Revelation, recognition, remembrance
All things have shifted, completely, absolutely...not sure it can be explained, but there is nothing that is the same. The air, the breath, different some how. Took a breath a couple of days ago, it was smooth, not that it is ever ragged, but the intake, inspiration was not the same. It felt so very good. The triggers that would guarantee a reaction, well, actually they don't come up.
Synchronicities off the chart...feeling also that the channeling is constant. A continuous conversation with Spirit. Not a request or a space that brings about the connection, like a meditation routine, it is constantly present. Spirit here without and within, as Spirit has always been. Now just being present myself, being here with Spirit. It was always right here...how are we so distracted that we do not see, hear, feel, experience the Spirit of the Source that created it all.
Amazed at this, shock and awe, in a good way. No one is the same to me, no thing is the same. Weird, totally a different world and all I have to say is, thank you. Finally, I truly woke up, it is a great feeling, an experience that almost has me at a loss for words. Wow, this hasn't happened in more than three years. Going now to think about this. Life, living, all of it completely different than last week, even the last three days. It is so wild, I love it!
Listening to a YouTube channel earlier, will link here: True Self Alchemy with Danielle Lynn
She was talking of many things that are very relatable at this moment in this life. Toward the end mentioning taking stock, or choosing with spiritual guidance, what is next. One option she mentioned, rest some more. This is the choice at least for today. When felt drawn to post something, the first thought was how it was not going to be uplifting. Being a little down today and never want to discourage, but we all have these days. Choosing to rest.
All the choices are ours. All of the next moves, the path, it is ours. It may take you on a detour, but it is your detour. Maybe you learn a lot on that detour and again, you were where you were supposed to be. We are the truth, the way, the life of our soul in this body. We are responsible. We make the decisions. It is just easier to blame others. Trying hard to not do this at all. It is all up to this soul to navigate. Get busy navigating, but if you need to rest. Get busy resting.
It has come, the let go. There are higher forces at play...there is nothing that can be forced, made to happen, it just is. Leaving all this behind and moving on. Whatever is happening is taking a long time. There is no guarantee that it will even come into actuality in the physical. Have not technically been waiting, as a huge amount of growth comes from all this...positive outcomes, goals, purposes, opportunities.
These will be taken, these opportunities, they are in the works already. The time is here and as usual, not waiting around for others to let me know when they are ready for me to move. Move when moving is needed and this has never been an obstacle for this soul. Here we go. How long will this take? Don't know, really. Months, years...it does not matter. It happens when it happens and for a control freak, this is a big deal. Will these words bite eventually? Probably, but now there is a knowing that it will be dealt with, not keeping eyes open and awake at night or bring about negative outcomes.
Again, these things are huge and they are the product of many hours of learning, studying, researching, investigating so many things. Some of these things completely random still, but knowing in that also, there is meaning, just not revealed at this moment. There are outcomes we cannot imagine or predict that are coming to us. Not a prophetic statement, but an assurance. Things cannot stand in the current state without crumbling, burning down, or collapsing. It cannot.
There is no reason to be afraid, if you are doing the most to be a soul of the heart, which means the love. It is what all of everything else hangs upon, it is the final word, chapter, ending, result and if you are already in the love, you are still going to be in the love. In love with you, us, all the "thems", and that means all, not the ones you approve of, as we are all the One. Each soul is the soul that you love or hate, just in a different skin suit form. This is truth, love, way, life.
Ending here with much love, of course. May the Spirit of our souls come together in love to change the environment in an undescribable way, that is miraculous and glorious to witness. This is not an event to wait for, it is here, it is you. This is all in you, and no one is coming to save you. That has already been accomplished, this in on you. You are the judgement of your own soul, you have chosen your path. Own up to the fact, the truth, the life you live, now, right now.
Love to you and yours.
Today, Thanksgiving Day in the States. The energy is off the scale. Ears are snapping, popping clicking as the keys on the iPad also click away. Expanding career options, settling into the moment of now. Leaving behind preconceived or expected outcomes as the time constraints placed upon these are expired. All an illusion anyway, as everything comes in relation to your resonant frequency as the course allows.
Meditations completed in the dark hours in a more relaxed state as the holiday weekend is free from work. Wrote a nice "slavery" piece also this morning. May publish here, but that brings up the real reason for the post. There will be a switch of topic here at hhh.it.com. Haven't checked lately, but pretty sure not one person has read any words here. It is an exercise in cathartics for this soul and a pleasurable one, to say the least. Thank you, void of the world wide web for advancing the boldness and confidence to put something out there, even if a human never clicked.
For in these moments of publication, the energy flowed, the concept arose, the frequency established and more words come and continue. Future offerings will change in direction as the writing career is at its fledgling state as of yesterday. Met with a friend in the writing business and she is linking up mentors and opportunities. This most likely the intiation of the frequency shift, increase, overwhelm happening today. Here for it! Loving it in a deep, primal way. Seriously, no words come to describe. Here's hoping your holiday is actually filled with thanksgiving. Love.
Recognition that we are all one behind our eyes. Meeting someone for the first time, hearing, "This is from your soul." Uhm, ok, "What does that even mean?" After a long time of questioning, doubting, suffering, struggling, trying to understand and wondering what actually happened. Well, nothing happened, in the physical, but a complete revamp of the self and the relationship between the soul in a body that did not know it was to be integrated with the soul. There is no separation and this soul is the source of creation and all existence. Right here in a body model given at birth, driving it through a life, on Earth flying through space.
Like a new car but you don't remember when you got it. You have always just had this same vehicle getting you around. The soul in the car driving it around looking at this life as it moves around with a crazy protective voice in the mind that is scared of everything. At some point, in many lifetimes we figure this out? This is unknown, but it will eventually be revealed and recognized. It makes sense to me. What else are we doing here but trying to get something right, finally.
This is not completely understood, but glimmers come that say, you are the truth, the way and the life. You are in complete control of this life. But, but, this person, that person, they did this to me...and this is what your environment looks like, so ok. This is not a complete answer to anything, but if there is a way to not participate, be subjected to any of the buts, theys and what was done. That is where we should be. If there is an opportunity or plans to make an opportunity to be where and with the ones in the places that give us the most love and peace, should we not at least try to go there?
This is the ultimate life and where else is life but here, now. The energetic field, the electromagnetic field? We are the life, we are the energetic frequency, we have to be the energetic frequency giving out love and peace. It is too simple, to be truth, to find your own way and live in resonance with love and peace. How can this happen? How did what is currently happening come to happen? It was chosen. Greed, competition and violence was chosen over love and peace. We are choosing every moment of this life. Don't look back or try to predict the future, just choose now, love and peace. Give it an energetic space to resonate. Why not, it is worth a try?
The last post that you can find below, titled MANY RECOGNITIONS was a heavy message. A messge to you and all of us, struggling. The struggle continues, the frustration mounts, the more you delve into the internal issues it seems, the more the external world comes to prove all your problems to you once more. Feeling like forevermore at this time.
The only suggestion is to maintain silence. The world cannot be avoided no matter how many delivery services are provided. It will just come in some other way. Ready to cash it in really. Just hide and cover up the head, pretend there is no one, but the dog. Knowing this is unrealistice, but seriously is this world not one big unrealistic expectation of human beings?
Do not dwell on the thoughts of the mind is the suggestion. It is not thoughts, it is beings up in your face bringing unrealistic expectations and if you swat them down they come back with threats to your way of life. So, now just trying to be invisible? That makes them even more aggressive. Why are you so quiet? What are you planning to betray me? What is wrong with everyone? Cannot care about this any longer. And...
And what? It is devastating when sincerety is offered and only suspicion is returned. Needing not to be with these beings of low light and energy today, but here we go...right into the fray. God help us. This is not said in flippancy, but again with great sincerety with trust that at least God is with us. The Light Being that designed creation. Yes. Oh, this is the recognition that just came:
It is a holiday week. The thought of the ones that will be endured, that is what has me in a twist of depressive, low energy. Do not dwell on these things. We are to be meditating in our hearts and minds on a high frequency. If located in a space of no people how much easier would this be? The area of the brain that is dedicated to ease and grace. Tap into this area.
How absolutely, almost impossible to do when the low energy beings are all around you. Up for a challenge are you? Welcome. Our high energy frequency is designed to repel all of the negative low energies. They are still here however, guessing this is some fault of the system of us not trusting in the system? Tired, tired of the fight. Maybe this is the surrender that is supposed to happen anyway. The instruction to stop doing and start being.
Just when you think you are getting a handle on this, slam, bam they come at you full force. This is meant to be a sign that you are triggering the low energy. Great. The only resort is to give it up, let the forces, frequencies and crap fly. There is order from the chaos. This is the trust fall...it is ridiculously hard. Good luck my friends, will be back to let you know the results of the last resort.
Studying, not to label, categorize, or organize, but to learn/recognize the truth. The truth of such great deception from "powers" that be on/of the world. No tru power held, but unto themselves for control, deceit and greed. Now, in this moment there will be no mention of these "powers" because it would give credence to their actions. The truth sets you free. Now you will ask, "What is the truth?" This cannot be revealed except within you. At this moment arises a great frustration within you...known. But this is the truth.
You, your being of soul and body must go through a transformation. A combining of soul and body. Soul of Spirit (female), body of doing (male) must become one. Completely, whole within one body integrated to equal respect and union. Within you. No one else can help you...but for Spirit...Spirit is ready. You must choose. You must decide. You must be. Be in Spirit. "But for how long?" For as long as it takes. Now frustration has turned to anger...known. This is truth...
This is personal. This is independent. This is you and your wounds, illusions, beliefs, selfish materialistic behaviors, lack of intuition and/or clarity...the list goes on and on...you are aware of the list. The last thing you would ever think of doing...looking at your list. You love to look at others' lists, all day, all night. It's them, it's them, they did it, they ruined it and I suffer. This is what has to leave your mind/mouth.
Your mind protects you from yourself. Your mind has an excuse for any and everything that might hold you accountable to the truth, within yourself. "Well, who are you to judge?", comes the defiance, the indignation...known. "How do you know everything?"...the very fact that this truth makes you defensive, is the truth coming to your knowing. This is all that can be done to help you.
Absolutely all of the rest of (not work, not doing) but diving deep within your soul, if you are breathing, you have a soul. Within that soul the Spirit can be allowed, accepted and received. Then "the will" for your life can be revealed. You choose to/not to allow, accept and receive. You choose to listen to the utterings of the Spirit within you. You are the only one that can do this. The union of soul/Spirit and body includes no other being. No one can pray and make it happen for you. No counseling is going to "cure" you, certainly no pill.
Truth is hard, but truth is what you are seeking. "I'm not seeking anything.", screams your mind. But the truth is heard, "rings true" makes a little knot in your heart. But with enough resilience, you can ignore this...you have spent a lifetime perfecting this...and of all these things you may continue until you die. Or...you may seek everlasting life. "I don't believe you!" You do not have to do or believe anything. You have free will. Your will chosen, or "the will" of the Spirit within your soul, begging for truth.
Silence is all that is required. Silence when the world comes down with restrictions, insults, hatred, intentions to silence? Oh, how ironic. Not going to explain this, if you know, you know. Read the post below. Silent in all waking moments. This does not mean that you cannot speak, sing or express. It only means that your heart holds silence and peace. The confrontations do not disturb your silence, peace, regulatory system.
Be silent in the knowing, be silent in the fact that you are the soverienty of your own soul. Within you is your peace. All you need is within you given by the Source of your creation. This continues no matter the situation or circumstance, this never changes. You cannot be tossed about by others' destructive chaos, because you are peaceful within your love. Ponder in silence if positioned to observe and the chaos of others can only mystify the mind. No reaction to their chaos as it is not yours.
You are in the silent space of love, you are love. You are peace. No you do not have to be a hippie, but it doesn't hurt. You are everything. You have always been all that you need. This is not woo-woo, it is the law of origin* and it cannot be broken. It can be denied, ignored, pushed down, unrecognized, but none of these ever prove non-existance of your origin. It is there for the finding, experiencing and loving of the mere fact of existence. If you cannot understand, then that's ok. If you want to understand, then it will find you.
*For those studious fact checkers, this has nothing to do with trade and tariff ROO.
The very first download that was ever received by this soul body, heard, "[Unnamed soul] knows". This has plagued the entire process of spiritual growth. Knows what? and conjecture would begin. However, proceeded along not knowing what was known. Just this week hearing a podcast of infinite love. When your soul detects it, it will always be. Actually, has always been and is now, at this moment. This is the "knows".
Was this a conscious knowing? Most likely, no. Was not seen by this soul as this infinite state of being type love at first. Maybe felt a love for this individual, but in the normal way, not an infinite, unchangeable aspect of love for all time, moments. Time is irrelevant as love surpasses all time, space and information that we are able to access. But the knowing? This is different, some things are known and the reason can never be explained. Does it need to be? Of course not.
Somethings are in the heart from the beginning and this is one of those instances and it is known. Hearing, "This is from your soul." upon the first encounter with this being. These words that come in a voice that is not the usual drivel coming from the normal mind, and listening is no longer an option. Trusting it as truth and always carry out, if instructions are involved. So this soul also "knows". Is this an indication that the same soul being will return? Not necessarily, accepting this, but the love remains and knowing this love exists...it will come again, always, known.
Finally, going back into the document file. Intending to do a complete outline, timeline of information. A working file to add-to when information remembrance comes and needs to be included in "Write the book." Rereading the previously written words, the story speaking to me. A book that would merit a desire of continuing to read. Write the book you want to read, advice from an unremembered author. Maya Angelou?
The best part of the complete being in, of and about the spiritual-soul life, there is no time, no time wasted. Knowing that even though, in this life you are beginning to see evidence of age. Lines, wrinkles and the dreaded sag of skin exposed to gravitational forces. It does not matter. Body perfect is ours forever. The soul within the cells is perfection of the image of this skin suit. We can give frequency to cell bodies to perfect imperfections now.
This is the key, it can only be done by self-love, but including selflessness. It sounds counterintuitive, but that is the difficult challenge. The flesh must be loved as it is to awaken the healing. The correction of life exposure in an environment of disharmony. There is no thing here for us that improves or replenishes our soul if we are inclined to give our soul energy to others.
This being the ultimate storyline, but there is no idea how to write it. It is within my soul and must come to the page in its own way. This is truth and this has been accepted. Loving to write, it is an incongruency of soul complexity refusing to accept simplicity. If there is love, there is soul spirit in the work, the writing. Letting the story come out, much more daunting. Knowing it is not from this mind, thoughts, ideas, no thing coming from any Earthly aspect. All spiritual, all exposing, all consuming, all of every part, stripped bare. Humiliation the fear.
No fear can be allowed to exist and all trust must be received and dispersed thoughout the body/soul merging. All of this must occur before the releasing of the words that can portrait any slight resemblance to the acuality of the transformation. This is the immersion, the committment, the surrender to all that is for the soul. The mind cannot be consulted, it must be shut down by the all encompassing miraculous, devastatingly beautiful love coming out of the soul. Funneling of information, truth and the turning of the body, naked, completely inside/out.
All comes to light, all of everything that has never seen any light but the small light within. This must be done in the darkness of the soul, then a rude exposing of all that has been withheld. Exiting the womb of your own soul, but in a turning so violent as to release all festering wounds and decay held within. These words very inadequate in attempting to describe the process. Sounding dramatic, but accurate to the testimony of the process experienced. No thing can diminish your own experience, unfortunately.
The writing began three years ago, it has been journaled daily. The task of organizing the chaos of all those words is daunting. However, knowing that it is not even the task of this one soul, but of all the souls that have experienced similar events. This is the actual event, the extraction/expulsion of all experience onto a page using words of inadequacy, insurmountable in thoughts of the mind. This the actual culmination* of soul body synchronization, calibration.
*See post of the same name below.
Aways thinking that there is an end or a knowing that will come, before death. Because what's the point of being alive in a physical body being unaware of capabilities, only to die to learn what was missed? Come back try again? Uh, not really interested in this process. Maybe that is the clue that this is the last trip. Sensing the utter nonsense of being here. It is frustrating, it is futile and trying to maintain a detached loving spirit soul is proving impossible. Mainly because of being subjected to persons enmeshed in the world of lies, delusions and illusions.
These are the lists of complaints leading to the hope of an outcome of something other than death. Here's why. Souls keep coming back. There must be something that is accomplished here that cannot be done anywhere else. Let's take Jesus as the example, or substitute your person of light that overcame the world. He came he endured for 33 years and the "idea" of death was overcome. Well, apparently there are those experiencing out of body episodes that are similar to this. Learning the point of life and they come back! Why?
At this point the frustration of living in this world with beings of nefarious intent outnumbering those of good intent, let's go. Let us let go of this world, please show me the reason we are even here in the first place, because this makes no sense. Even Jesus could only take it for 33 years and I am in for 20 on top of that. I want out...I want to be somewhere else. When frustration strikes, noticing the first person comes out and "I" am upset! (Not suicidal, just fed up.)
OBE, (out of body experience) doing it. Have the instructions, have already recently without any intent had a lucid dream. About 3 months ago and it was so exciting! Immediately, running off screaming, "I am going to go fly!" That is exactly what happened, flying, floating, moving through walls, also ultimately being chased and shot at with spears, which seemed to be an archaic method, but whatever. Souls appeared to help hide me from the spear entities. Then disappointedly awakened, but remembering every detail.
With this lucid experience already existing within this soul, there is a way to EOB from the lucid dream. Now, all of this is purely an experiment for myself and maybe you are interested, maybe not. At this point not really caring, because you wouldn't be here if you were not searching for something more, spiritually. In it together we are, as of right now...the other method is a sleep paralysis state with consciousness, which is more intentional, but either way. Hoping to achieve this because this world has lost all attraction for this soul. Tired of it, absolutely. The only joy, writing in this site space and art. That's it. All else has something to do with giving energetic currency to something that never returns with an equal exchange. Boom! I'm out, out of body, this the only goal for life as of now. Let you know how it goes.
A check up, because the mood is blah. Resting and getting the vibes that something is coming up. It is coming down, maybe sideways, don't know. Do not need to know, but the word "impending" is heard. What's up? Loving is the base, and it is so hard to do. In the Spirit feel love, feel loving, want to love and heal. Then the base attitude out there is stomp on everyone and elevate myself.
"Surgical", heard this? Cutting, cutting it out? Removing. Just typing what I'm hearing. Sometimes the meaning doesn't sink in until later, or even much later. Surgical precision. Done with training, experience, knowledge, technique, self-confidence to remove what needs removing and not destroying what is remaining. Making the problem corrected by removing the offensive mattter, mass, hmm, mass and matter. Always, the periodic elemental table and quantum physics return. Albert Einstein, let's talk, you seem to have all the knowledge, but never got any answers. But understanding now, Albert, through the wisdom that comes from death.
Leaving this crazy world, surgically remove us? Is this the end? Are we going to go into the space of the answers, then find out we knew the answers all along? Here all along, which was only ever, being totally in Spirit with no other objectives or desires. All the time, there was no time or anything other than just sitting with Spirit and love. Really, doesn't sound that bad. I'm up for that in this check up. Let's go! Or could it be possibly to remain in that state of Spirit and still be here? Cut out the offensive mass? Without Spirit, cannot remain. Either way, with Spirit, is the way.
No others of any influence other than "the will", being of/in "the will" of origin Creator may witness or enter into Spirit's gifted presence. Application of all intents and purposes may only be as follows:
Elemental
Organic
Natural
Systematic
Free Will
Incorporation - corpus (collosum)*
Complete
Consolidation
Living accordance
Of "the Will"
Creator based, co-creation
Environmentally sound
Activations completed
Communication encoded
Exponential abundance
Abundance builds abundance
Bliss in creation
Soul centered production
"If the soul could spend all day doing this , satisfaction exists within the co-creation = abundance."
The angle of Spirit vision of being form intentions:
Beauty
Creation of origin
Health
Resources
Resonate
Rhythmic
Sounds of soul
Gifts received
Application of gifts
Expression of soul inspiration
Blissful talent/gift expression
This was the download today, it is list form which always really hits as important. "Take this down, make a list(s)."
*Corpus definition-Oxford languages, Corpus Collosum definition-Oxford languages
So, the word "corpus" coming through in the download, then "corpus collosum" coming as it was typed, just now.
Never fails to slay, and amaze with the words coming, clairaudiently. This makes humbleness come over me and the feeling of underserved allowance of this gift, but the gift being bestowed, will not question "the will".
Unseen, unknowing, faith required, however knowing of the unseen is present in the presence of the Three. Present is all that is required, be present in body, spirit/soul and a mind w/o personal thought. Listen for the speak of words, not your own. This does not require silence. Some of the most meaningful words from the Three have come as the daily activities begin and that quiet still voice says, "Write the book." "He's coming back."
This was early on in this "loss of self" traveling. The genius response being, "Who? Jesus?" Surely there was a great eruption of laughter on that one. Later informed that "Jesus is here." Dumbutt, inferred. They are here, duh, never left, right here within. Of course, but not to me at that moment anyway. No, the Three, were speaking of the form being that brought on an awakening of spirituality so intense, there were days of questioning survival. They are so gently pointing out now, the book, not written, "He's still coming back." Possibly one has to do with the other.
Learning has brought us to another congnition. "He" is an energy. Not sure if this energy comes back in the same form or not. Is that, not the most interesting part? There is no thing that would surprise at this moment, however. Oh, yes, his spiritual signature did come as a patient at a previous job. His voice was the clue, a little heart leap gave it away. Same flirty personality, same questioning insistently, "Can I keep coming back to see you?" Then ghosted, but did not even having much of an effect. Cool. Known at the moment actually, but sinking in more now for some reason. Again, cool.
Oh, the fuckery! He is back now, isn't he? Somewhere close to this being, watching, waiting to see when it all comes together in this soul. Ok. That's fine. Bring it. Ready to see the upside down, inside-out, backward in the most surprising way. Not the norm, never because Spirit delights in the unexpected. Baby King, born in a manger? Yes.
Back to this "Write the book." Struggle, fits and starts. There are many books in various states of incompletion. Not in the flow of this for some reason, yet. There is a reason, no doubt. Unknown, to a being holding the all-knowing spirit inside, without one clue of what is to come. All moments that could be spent writing, have been filled with developing and posting this very website. Love doing it and knowing even that it is an activity not to avoid and is in some way a preparation for this "book".
They say it like it is known, how, and what to write. And it is to the Three, and known that all the words will be given in that moment the flow begins. Flow of ink from the pen of the hand of a being completely inspired by the Three. Also, entertaining art of numerous mediums, but the writing limited to short bursts on the website. This is a legitimate exercise they say, as it brings connection and joy in an inspirational activity. Book writing preparation perhaps, most likely. Not in any organized fashion, though.
This is the way of the world on the macro and the micro. Travesty, annihilation of anything daring to be at peace or have abundance outside the scope of their delusional illusions. This life is dedicated to peace, love, joy of creation, expression of Spirit. If this brings death, then will die in the abundance of life moments spent with Spirit. This resulting only in a transition to a more present state of being with Spirit. No difference in soul. No difference at all. In fact, tied to this world that is in no way, shape or form the desire of this heart. No way.
The humanness suddenly so unappealing. This is not our home or basically a home of any sort. This is not the frequency of the heart. Peace, love, joy, goodness, kindness, faithfulness, patience, gentleness and self-control. This the fruit, the abundance of Spirit and it is always available, always present in the presence of Spirit, spoken, breathed upon us by the Word. The breath is fire, power, healing, love and all abundance. Breath=Life.
Breath=Life=Spirit
If all you ever accomplish is breathing, then you are of Spirit, life, way and truth.
The vision:
Born into a peaceful atmosphere of the frequency of love. Breath the spark of the fire of the soul. Immediate exposure at day one to all creation of nature, creativity and the abundant fruit of Spirit. As the first breath gifted, establishes the soul light bringing life to the being. A village that introduces the soul to all forms of matter creation, "the butcher, the baker, the candlestick maker" - Mother Goose
This site is more for this soul than for yours...if anyone even ever reads any of this. The writing or scribing gives comfort, settles, organizes thoughts that are a mixed vegetable soup being stirred around. This mind feeling is no longer tolerable. Writing the thoughts and recognizing they are all just suppositions of things that will never happen. Clears up the whirling thoughts into peaceful moments of nothing. It is the best thing that has ever happened.
Hearing today that this life is not the one for love and anything close to perfection. Known this already was, but makes sense. We are here looking forward to a New Earth, heaven or however you have learned to think about it. This may actually be a form of hell, but there are moments when there is nothing inside that is not of pure love.
We are here and there is no changing the body form without death or ascension. A glimpse of what could be in Elijah and Jesus. Is this the lessons they were teaching, rise above it, let the mass of your body transfigure into photonic light and rise without anything left for gravity to pull? Why not? And why had we never thought of this before, life w/o death, eternal life, promised. How is it supposed to happen? Do we really know? Revelation of images and symbols that have never been exactly decoded. But all along we have been coded, the programmer still working and updating the program?
No good deeds get you there, as the price has been paid. Constructs and structures built to distract and cast illusion to keep us on and in the ground, from life to death. No death. Promised no death, eternal life. Energetic flow of frequency is the standard answer from those taking Spirit in with actual spirituality, not a set of rules to judge others while you are doing much worse just by your hate. No, it is a wave, a set of waves, color, sound, light and it all comes together in a way we could never imagine.
Anyone actually reading this at some moment, you will either have to also think this through as this soul has been, for several years now, or you think it's crazy. You know what? It does not matter either way. It will be what it will be or already is what it is. You nor I can stop any of it. We are not the program designer with the intelligence to make this experience of living under the sun, a true life of love, peace and joy. Hope is all that we have now, faith for things to come.
A shift, a change definitely with much spiritual restructuring today, of taking the thought, the reason out of all things. Operating strictly from the heart with love. Tears coming many times today, but not of sorrow, lack, or questioning, but from love felt in the heart and soul. No expectations of or from the soul, just loving. Sitting in a space with consecutive moments of love and in each moment a greater love. For the sake of love only, just being in it. No thoughts, no things, no questions or appeals, requests, nothing...but love.
Although it is known, but in those moments hearing, "God is love." Of course, but that's all. Only love, all comes down to love, all hangs on love, then all becomes an unknowing that does not matter anymore. There is no need. All the desires of your heart are being fulfilled with love. No matter what any being, made of matter, says, does, exhibits, "proves", there is a need, a desire so powerful that wants to be loved. It is there in the presence of being present in love. Silent, no internal narrative, seated in love.
Detachment from the world and chaos, into the nothingness of absolutely everything...being loved. When is the last time you felt real love? Have you ever felt it? Not sure it is completely understood even now in this exact moment. Powerful, overwhelming, assuring, soft, gentle, kind, peaceful love. Spirit is love, God is love, the Son came in love, we are love. You are love, as well as I. Never want to leave this space and knowing that also is impossible, but will try with the very best of the abilities given to us by this Creator of love to not let go. Ignore the chaos and feel love. Yes. True love. Being "in love".💕 💦
No questions when a random thought or idea pops in the mind, there is a reason. Reason may not be revealed in the moment, but later the, "Aha!". No competition, only creation, creative inspiration. Can see the struggle in others and know no thing can be done for them. All information is available, they are responsible for reading or listening to continue and further investigate, by choice. Curiosity or apathy, choice. Do or don't, choice, your choice, not mine. Freedom is in the choice. Choose. "Pick your poison" not a pretty quote for this exactly in this context, but like to say it. Choose, "Find your next victim". Same, not polite contextually, but rolls off the tongue.
"Wise as serpents, gentle as doves." - Matthew 10:16
"Everything, with ease and grace." - this is the saying that comes to us in a Divine connection of souls. Cannot find an owner to this specific quote, something similar from Eckhart Tolle.
Both of these quotes/group of words above are descriptive of the desired life. Living this in the mind now, this moment. Is this really that easy? Well, how else do you make the desired life, but live it? Oh, right, no more questions. So, yes! This is how it is done. Choose it. Descriptive, poetic, contrast and flow. All seeking this, but few finding or even recognizing this is the heart's desire. Blind, deaf and usually way too noisey - the more word spewing, the less hearing, seeing, and/or understanding, inner-standing, rarely over-standing.
The quiet, the thinkers are the ones to read, listen to, and watch. The planners, the studious, intuitors, are the movers and you never see it coming - one day, it just is...just like that.
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The heart completely in love with Spirit. Can see, can interpret, intuit, gain clarity. Divine presence the only way to recognize Spirit is within. Within all is Spirit, every molecule, every cell, in you in this form being. If every atomic* particle of you as one being, is and is made from, created by the One in three Spirit, then the Spirit is in you, is in the One. Hearing this early this morning:
God/Source = 1/3, + Son/Savior/Example = 1/3, + Spirit/All = 1/3 = 3/3 = 1.
We are One with the Trinity. Made in their image, invited to step into their being/presence. They are here now, not coming. Take the transformation, take the breath. Step into your being...into the frequency, the purification, the waters of the Holy that are stirred by the vibration and sing. Create the sound of the New Earth. We heal her in our sound. A sound that resonates in complete silence. Told to, "Be silent". Causes quakes in a unified note. The sound "as a trumpet" notifies the world of what Earth has waited for...the sound is Spirit coming from within us and we resound. We sound the final note, we are not of this world as we have moved onto another frequency of color, sound wave, air wave, radio frequency atunement to the same designated note.
When the number of souls in their form/mass construct of atoms can consistently vibrate at the decibel code, we leave this world of misery and continue on in Spirit, one/three. *Atomically calculated, the formula variable solved, the 144,000 at the same wave frequency, emitting, transmitting to carry us all on the wave. Once sounded the transmisson is picked up to respond/invoke the will - free will to dial to this station, signal picked up, dialed to, downloaded. Everything technology is created to show us a way to the frequency: radio, TV stations/connections, wireless phones, computers, etc. Recognizing it is all a thought lesson in a world flooding the waves with distracting transmissions intended to block.
Each time we step into the slavery replication, simulation, we sell our talents to ungrateful beasts. Lower our frequency, offer our selves, our flesh for sale, prostituting (ouch) our creative energy in a completely unreciprocating system of creational inspirational supression. This is a, "No." This is unacceptable, a travesty. All "men"** created equal, all exchanges fair, even it up! We have the power, not in the future, not if we work harder, we exist in the power, now. Put it out there...raise the frequency to burn it all down, OMG!, please.
Wealth exchange is coming, the frequency holders in place. "Death becomes Her", heard this, meaning the **feminine of the prosperous will inherit the wealth and begin to dispense the frequential exchange, this already happening, hearing, "Mackenzie Scott". She wrote a book titled, "Traps".
Next on my reading list. Ok, end of morning down load, it gets a little crazy, jumps or leads to unexpected places, but that's the way. No longer a "church goer" as the corruption has been revealed and cannot tolerate the hypocrisy. Do not be turned off by the scripture, inspirational (in'spirit'ional) references. Spirit is not a church or religion, but the being of you, wanting to speak to you, listen. Link provided if you want to explore further. Above is what was given, gifted this morning and never, ever has this type of happiness, contentment, existing been within this being. Cannot unfeel it, cannot go back to this miserable world of delusional illusions. Cannot. Love to you.
This moment, or actually a couple of days ago, it all clicked. It is known, and it is, there is no question anymore. It is what we are doing and it has to be done, nothing can stop it. All of the spiritual community are working together to complete. A mission, but for everyone...to adjust, ascend, come to the knowledge of the coding that will make transfiguration of the flesh body possible. Bone and blood that cannot be changed, the program is running it cannot be re-written, hacked, or anything that could mess it up, because it is. It is the will of the Creator/Father/God/Source of life. It will be made apparent to all or at least to those that need to know.
The ugly part is that there are those bent on making sure this does not happen. A unified front of souls that operate from a frequency not recognized by current humanity. They are determined and believe the power lies in their hands. The power has only ever come from one Source, you know? Hopefully, you know.
Returning to this post after a sleep. Grace. This is the word that has come up several times in my very early morning journaling. If you are not journaling, it is suggested.
Grace: 1) Simple elegance or refinement of movement
2) courteous goodwill
3) do honor or credit to something by one's presence
--Oxford Languages
Also, called out for being judgemental and this is very correct, admittedly.
Hearing, "Change your brain." and "There but for the grace of God, go I." This leading to John Bradford, linked if you are interested. Boom!
Short and sweet today, let's change the brain, journal excessively and move with Spirit. Talk later, on a morning mission...
Yours truly,
the Stars
(Disclaimer: Wrote this automatically, the pen moves on its own, had not gone back to read, but writing it here and actually reading it, just gave constant chills, it is unexplainable and irresistible to me. This is a non-edited transmission, download, I don't know, whatever you want to call it, I don't make the rules. The grammar and syntax is of someone other than me, do not edit this or tell about its impossibility. I don't make the rules. Just take it or leave it.) -hhh3
All of this intangible and that is what makes it so irresistible. Cannot put it in words because it is not about explaining or passing along understanding. It is a way of life in truth. Not a convincing or an invitation b/c it always has been and is now and forever will be. Nothing of any other circumstance has any bearing b/c this is infinite existence in love purity, love in totality, saturation that results in an automatic return of infinite flow, no measure or assurances as the love is a known, a given, no finding, hunting to convince others of your worthiness, power of presence, being, existing brings the love. Opening the eyes brings love before you, within, without, historically, perpetually.
Photons of light, light absorption, infused, carried from One Source that tendrils out the connective tissue web, net of inclusion, server availability. Lines of communication. Ethereal transportation of love frequency - no language but all informative w/o doubts, clear, strong and true. Known in its truth, not questionable, surety, trustworthy, reliable, known.
All of this internal in a housing of matter. This matter a structure of bones, connective tissue, performative muscle, innervations of volition, perfected in movement for the gift, practice enhanced, [muscle memory], abilities producing mastery of chosen activities of brain and/or physical movement.
A housing to enhance the soul experience of love. Only love can satisfy any other activity choice only love can drive the attention to perfection. Only love, only love, only love.
Without love, a clanging dissonant noise.
Love is harmony, rhythm and song.
All begins and ends = love.
The true Spirit in your soul, holds you accountable, you cannot lie or be dissonant with yourself without conviction. Cannot participate in what is false. Ask for other souls in life that are of truth and trust and will keep our souls as one. Help us that are already one and may not be and may never be physically together, be at present in love, be in love.
Be in love with Spirit. Live in truth and perfect love. Silence unless prompted by Spirit.
Bring us not only to the same frequency, but to our frequency that is of our community in Spirit. Not of us, but our souls in Spirit.
-Unknown? Known?
Be brave...you have the ability to recognize all the signs, sounds, feels to determine the next moves or words.
"Inception: establishment or starting point of an institution or activity" - Oxford Dictionary
For over a year now, there has been a movement of mind, body and soul within. This the inception of a soul transformation, for the better. Also, this intro is the inception of this space for your heartspace. This is a small beginning of an idea that has been forming for the healing of souls through a spiritual experience. We are going to investigate all of this together, but first let me tell you where it all started.
Beginning in grief, moving to a love or a passion so great that it was otherworldly. Then a hearbreak so crushing that combined with the original grief it became a stone around my soul. Then began a course of learning how to recover. How to breathe again. How to feel love inside the body, without any outside human influence, in a very visceral tactile way.
Not even knowing how to describe it at first, just electric buzzing...now know to call it energy. Energy is intoxicating, sensual and of love. It is all based in love. This the foundation for growth and self-exploration. Some of the findings expected, some a surprise, but all a lesson in the way we deceive ourselves into believing lies told to us by our mind. Most often we are not who we tell ourselves. These ideas of self coming from outside sources, concepts, constructs, delusions, lies and very little truth.
Then you go deep down in the dark of your soul and it is suffocating, drowning, overwhelming, sorrowful, regretful feelings rising up to greet you like a character from a horror movie. Then when all of that piles upon you in a heap of rubble from your life and you are prepared to die...the Spirit of life comes to you and shows you that it is all for a purpose. You have dregged up all the misery that can be found, tossed on the ground. You just so happened to end up on the ground first, with the heap on top of you. Spirit sees your small hand sticking out from the heap and gives it a tap. Hello, soul! Would you like some help? And somehow a chuckle escapes your pitiful shell of a being with a few breaths of life remaining. You cough and try to say, "Please."
Spirit comes in with the sun and shines it upon the face of the one coming out of the "Dark Night of the Soul". (https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/157984/the-dark-night-of-the-soul)
There is some life left after-all and somehow it is brand new. It has regurgitated, thrown out, turned inside out to remove every little grain of self-importance and ego. Knowing there is no other way out or up from rock bottom, the hand reaches to Spirit and you begin to heal.
The healing is slow...circular...frustrating. Thinking all of this stuff was put to rest, oh, no! It's still all there, it has just been acknowledged. Here is where you begin to listen to become something resembling a human being. And at this point you are not even close. Just a sniveling bag of muscle and bone with a heart so small it would make the tiny hearts laugh.
After all that, you recognize there was nothing to do, but be yourself. That has to be proven to you. We really are strange creatures. Try not to think about it, just accept it, it's all a good thing for you.
The days where work is required, because you know, we need food, shelter, insurance for health issues, plus other things not listed here. At work, the energy is drained everytime. Trying to change mental things, breathing, other tactics, but always it is depleting. It gets busy and the patients just drag on the energy. Anyway, trying new things as mentioned, so today listening to podcasts to distract and it suggested that you write down the things that really matter to you and what your perfect life would be. It actually gave energy increase while at work, it is so hard to do this, wanted to share. Here is my best life and important things that would make it perfect:
Work for a business that has sufficient funding and has the best intentions for customers/employees the same, that creates something utilized, safe for the environment and useful
No longer working for corporations of greed
Have a spiritual match personally that has passion, longevity, physically on Earth that will last through eternity
Artistic creation is the daily ultimate goal
Paid to exist in a high frequency of creation and maintaining that frequency
Live in an artistic community of consistent increasing frequency
Remove negativity, bring positive frequencies in consistently with intention
Not allowing others to dictate how time is spent. Time is a construct for counting, not living
Live steadily in highest frequency possible in an environment the supports the soul, body form and the frequency of the same
This is the story in the mind of the soul living in this physical body at this moment and all moments to come...it is the future
Thanks for letting me share this with you...it made me feel better at work, also as typing this. This might work for you, in your own words, of course. Take care of yourself, be kind and allow time to bring your energy back up after a day of working for the greedy corporations. We will not be there long. We are moving into our own stories, now in this moment. Lovee!
There are so many entities out there that are coming for us. Anyone that is good, peaceful, happy, and loving. They want to use you and make your life miserable because they are totally miserable. Came across this about a year and a half ago. Sucked in...but thankfully, ancestors/Spirit kept saying, "this is a trap". It was and even now it makes me want to understand. There is no understanding, it was all a trap. From the beginning, and it was brutal.
Wishing I could tell you how to avoid this, but not sure that you can do that. These entities are practiced, skilled, shameless and evil. Once describing their front man as "the devil himself". Or was it an angel sent to reveal my resistence to look within the soul. Both accurate descriptions and even a year and a half later still thinking that maybe there was something done by this soul that was misunderstood and we would find each other again. A trap, a scam and when ultimately the voices of spiritual support screaming that this was a trap, were heard. They convinced and the words reflecting this feeling of entrapment fell out of the mouth, and he was gone. But the trap was in the testing, without control shown by Spirit we would surely burn it down, in at that moment. Realizing it was a test for both.
What is really confusing is that he ghosted. If it was a scam would he not have pushed himself and insisted that the plan continue? It would have worked, sorry to admit. Also, hearing from Spirit, "this is from your soul". Guess the soul wanted to teach me some hard lessons and the soul successfully impaled itself upon those lessons. Realizing the things that seemed so enticing and there was such passion for, those things were lies. This pushed me into an awakening with the thought that this would bring a person that crushed the heart back. Crushed the heart, why want that back? Because it was a light shown directly into the soul, bringing all the shadows to light.
Mad, disappointed, anger emotions, frustration, and embarrassment that this was a big deal, afterall. Want to not care, but the care was enormous and horrible to think about now. So now they have the soul where it should be, not caring about anything or anyone, not really, but detached like never before. Life is just there and anything Spirit comes up with, why not? There is nothing else wanted, so whatever comes is better than the nothing that is here now. Want to just hide again, but again, Spirit.
In the recognition of the soul...using the intense love felt for the devil/angel...to identify the emotion, for general purposes. Not for fueling the negative feelings of separation with blame or misery, but replicating the "in love" emotion. No longer attaching the weight of the situation with the beauty of the feeling of pure love emotion. Turning that emotion in to a beautiful interaction with Spirit.
In actuality, not turning anything, as Spirit is love. Spirit is the emotion, feeling, sensation, longing to be near that energy. Not necessarily the being of form, but devoting time for experience of Spirit, "in love". The body holding the soul, is just an idea of love tagged in an experience. The joining is what Spirit has already provided, gifted that lives inside of us all. We produce that feeling of love, not the other person, we attach the emotion, but it is ours. We can have that feeling anytime, let it rise when you are in prayer or meditation with Spirit. It is delicious, delightful and it comes anytime you call upon Spirit. Make the attachment to Spirit. The catalyst above was just an enticement to find emotional safety in Spirit, that never ghosts (punny) and never leaves us questioning.
And...
Just Breathe
Now, let's have some fun! Energize some flow, empower without a sound or movement. Frequency at a vibration too high to detect, there can be no disappointment, as there are no expectations. Exist, do not search for what is desired. Make an experience/experiment of energy production. Do you understand? No? Good!
Breath is what you create, what you give to the supply of energy that your body is holding now. There is a current of energy underlying whatever you think is in your body. Exhaustion, depletion, lack of motivation, pain, fatigue, weakness, sound familiar? Not good.
You must give to it, not the list above but to energy, create it, by creating. The mind and resulting mood, feelings, emotions, however you label it, create it. Also, no need to label, just scan and observe, do not focus or give it explanation. For example, do not think to yourself and definitely do not say out-loud, "My knee hurts because I stepped off that curb last week and it has hurt ever since." Just scan by it and notice, but do not dwell.
Breathe. Breathe deep, slowly, without sound,through the nose. Internally, let the oxygen flow into your nose, windpipe, lungs and expand your diaphragm using your ribs to open space, not the stomach. Exhale. Do another scan, think about those laser lights that computers use to record body images. Scan and observe, do not label anything, do not chastise yourself for pains or discomfort, just observe. Be a computer scanning without judgement or opinion. Just be with your body.
Detect any sensations, relaxation, letting go of thoughts will enhance the ability to scan and detect through observation. The first sensations of an energy production may be in your hands. It is electric, a buzz, an activation of the tissue where nerves and blood flow are located. With or without your recognition of the electric neural activity of the spine and its nerve paths, it is there. Can you detect your energy that you are producing? It is not coming from an outside source. Your heart continues beating by an electric pulse created by nerve information, automatically.
You are a creator/source of energy. You are the creator of the continuation of your life, continuing to breathe in and out. The food supply and more importantly the water supply provided to the body system is the fuel. You are power, an engine, a computer, self-contained, only needing fuel. You are signals from your brain and spinal/neural system in a miraculous circulatory system that runs without a start button, continues for decades without a tune-up, for some. Given the required fuel in nourishment, emotional intelligence, system care, the body can continue its breath of life for around 100+ years.
You are a miracle of design. Breathe in the life sustaining oxygen that "just happens" to surround you. Depending on your view of things, quite by accident or intently on purpose. Either way it is there. Believe it or not. (I can never look at the word "believe" the same way after seeing the word "lie" right in the middle. It brings up images of others, "Just believe, me. Why would I lie?" I digress.)
Find the energy sensation, in the body. Is it in your fingers? Your toes? Across your nose? (Did you grow up with Dr. Seusse, because I sure did.) Let the energy connect with the breath. Let the breath increase the energy. Find the parts of the body that are giving energy signals. As you breathe, increase the sensation with the breath. This may have been detectible only in small areas of your body.
As you practice this breathing with body focus, it will only continue to grow. Guide it to the energy source that is your spine, eventually. Not all is going to happen in the first day, but when you get a taste of your creative energy ability, you will come back for more. You will begin to learn to create in all situations, not just in this intentional set aside time, but in all your moments.
The goal here is to create as much energy as you can. There is no limit. There is no better feeling either. Let yourself feel good. Learn to direct the energy to the pain locations, the shutting off of the mind, wherever you need relief (usually in the mind).
Grow it. It is yours to grow, yours to recognize, energize the nerve path extensions. Let them speak to you and tell you where more energy is required, desired . This is healing. If you can create this in your own body, you will want to create more. You will not want to miss out on this time. And it is free! It is yours. It is your own creation of energy. Use your breath to give yourself a gift of love for your body. We love you!
DOWNLOAD, AGAIN
(Fun the first time, above, doing it again!)
Different coffee shop, more laid back, less indoctrinated, surrounded by churches was the other place. Religion has revealed itself and what is seen is disturbing. Greed at the forefront, not just of money, all things can be the product of greed. Inclinations of nefarious motives all around. Not mine to judge, but also not mine to participate in any longer, now that the revelations have been processed. In the heart this is against the very guidance of the Spirit that is within. We are the church, not the building. Does everyone see this discrepancy? Money spent on a monstrosity of wealth when there are people living on the street. Cannot justify this approach. I digress.
Maybe that is part of this message, it has been on the brain space all morning. Trying the channel w/o the Hz interrupter of sounds, today. This is a test for the soul being typing these words, if you are not realizing this yet. There are so many distractions in life. All this being's life, not recognizing that the sensitivity that is held within, without, is so susceptible to all the stimuli. Labeling/identifying as an introvert, always needing so much time to "get over" being around people. But then sometimes, with a large group of outrageously noisy people (my family) and would feel energized by the love there. Not connecting at that time that it is not people, it is energy given off people. There are energies that cannot be tolerated. Had to become a grown-ass woman to figure out this was not only my problem, it was a reaction to bad frequency or at least a conflicting one. You know where it was the worst? Church. Ah, yes, and now we come to the connection...taking several breaths now to get the channel going, love to Spirit and the energies NOT messing with me in this specific place. Thank you.
Half moon shadow, bursting bubble, infectious laughter, how do we maneuver this happening? One instance of communication destroys two worlds and builds another. This is what is feared, but it is. Nothing can stop what Spirit is backing, fronting whatever Spirit does, "guiding from all sides" is what was just heard. All directions above, below, inward, outward, there is no space that Spirit does not inhabit. There is no space to hide, it is humourus that beings believe that the hiding is possible, that they are not seen. This being with Spirit inside, sees, we all see, not sure what their mind convinces as they move about in "secret", all the while the ones that have the sensing have spotted them before they were ever actually seen.
This goes both ways, however, sensing and picking up on the love beings before they come along also. My mom speaking this months before a happening, I could not get it, understand it at the time. Just like every other message received, it takes time to look back and see the purpose of significant words. Those words changing this life completely, because they were truth. No one really wants to hear the truth. Truth is stripping all things bare and owning up to the deceit you have fed yourself, maybe for the entirety of your life. Inside my mind these words, "oh, God, oh, God" as this hits the soul like a smashing boulder. It crushes the lies you have told yourself and rips open what is expected...fear, need to run, remove yourself, but the truth does not get left behind, it stays right there with you until you own up. Wow.
Feeling waves of emotion coming over the body, now. Energy of truth, it tears down everything that is not truth, it needs to be done and it hurts to the very core. Even when the truth is what you have been asking for, when it comes it takes a hold on you like never felt, except for the last time truth broke you open. Since then, you know it, but it is avoided and you do anything but release, unleash it again, b/c you fear it. It will never resolve until it is revealed, recognized, for what it is, what probably everyone always knew it was, but the ripping of the bandage is feared. Just leave it until there is no other choice. There is no bravery within us, we who know the truth and speak that the truth needs to be revealed, we are within that same group that cannot speak it, cannot face the destruction it will cause. The cleansing, the stripping, searing, purifying, exposing, integration, purging that must accompany the truth. The death to self, dark night of the soul.
This is not for the weak, and the strong struggle as well. There is no being that can face it alone. Only in the arms of the Spirit of the Creators can you survive it. And when it comes the soul rejoices as the trash of this life gets taken out. On the other side, knowing it had to happen, so that life can be a way of truth. No one goes into it by chance or under their own volition, something catalizes it and damn, you never see it coming. One day it just rises up, walks in, appears out of nowhere and you are never going to be the same.
"We are finished with this for today." - Spirit
Okay, wow, intense. We did it again, right here in public...downloading a Spirit channel. Over and over it has been told to this soul...being in a space, a location doing this "work" (not work to me, nothing of Spirit ever is), this is the calling for this soul. Accepted and you are here to join in and if you never actually read these words on this site, you still received the message and this is the miracle of the Spirit of Creators. This is "The will" of God. And always mentioned here will be the Christ, but Spirit is universal. Any words used to describe a benevolent being that is made totally of love. How can anyone argue that it is not of the Spirit of the Creators of matter that are the "I Am"? I cannot answer these questions for you, but your heart knows the answers and has for all moments that have ever existed. Spirit speaks to you, as you listen.
Connections were made here today, there is energy flowing and here for all of it. Thank you for your participation, even if you did not recognize it in actuality, your soul has received the frequency energetically and with love it is given, indeed. This is the reason for living for me in this very moment and for all infinite moments to come, love of Spirit.
SPEAK
Have been waiting all day (at work) to be with Spirit, just sit and listen, it is the highlight of everyday. No other activity can interest or keep interest at least. For years now, this is the focus of everyday. Writing by hand volumes of journals, learning so much, mostly about myself. This is how it is supposed to be, all of us taking responsibility for ourselves. That would take care of all things, mhm, right.
Here we are and the breath brings the energy in the hands, moving over the keys. It is the best feeling, like meeting your best friend that always adds to your energy with support for all of your ideas and true sympathy for all the disappointments. Spirit comes in and gives love with energy unlike any ever felt before, and here for it, always, everyday.
The energy is strong which is surprising, because lots of distractions and low energy at work. Just want to spend all day creating, co-creating with Spirit. This is what we should all be doing. It is so hard maintaining this at work, where so many low energies are swirling. It is the goal right now to tap into Spirit in environments like work or sometimes home. Trying the best way known, but it is difficult.
Blatant blocks of intuition from those that do not want you to succeed. It is real, they want you to give up, they want you to feel hopeless. Also, in a very creepy way, they want to be you, they pretend to be you but without Spirit. Not realizing Spirit is why you exist in the way you do.
Years before they were even in the vicinity of you, they have been planning to disrupt your relationship with Spirit. The closer you get to Spirit the more they hate on you and the more they want to be you. Setting traps for you not realizing the very trap was what led you into an even closer, saturation of Spirit. Within, without, Spirit takes up all spaces and is sought out at any moment the soul can carve out of the material world. Material that has no meaning anymore, it is only atoms of matter forming into creations inspired by Spirit or dismantling the matter not of Spirit.
This the full-time job and recognizing this just now, as what has been happening. So focused on creation that the destruction of the old life has not really been noticed. It is very present however, and comes in accusations from those not willing to move into a spiritual frequency. All in a group meant to discourage and get in the way as much as possible to keep you from Spirit. All the while, this is what is making you the authentic version of you. Dots cannot connect when you are wandering around without purpose or any positive purpose, evidently.
It is all about love. Love can only be experienced if you can love. Taking another's energy is not love, it is manipulation. The difference lost on a large percentage of beings. The soul is not accessible in these individuals that can only see one layer of life, the base layer without an aerial view from above, zoomed out to include more than their own life. Frustration comes even trying to speak with those that cannot connect. It is sad and really nothing can reach them w/o spiritual influence.
Take care of your healing, learning, knowing and loving. Spirit always waiting for any opening or interest from you, no condemnation, only love. Come to love.
SPACE
Today, able to keep a higher frequency for a greater chunk of the day. This morning another letting go that seemed to stick. Just loving who the heart says. If we are the creators of our reality, then the love felt in the heart space is going to be for those that it truly loves. No obligation to them, no expectations from them, just love.
Everytime the energy would drop at work, thinking of the ones, the souls that the heart automatically loved from the first meeting. The ones that stirred the heart and soul messages came in about these beings. Breathing, feeling the energy, the electrical impulses flowing from neural pathways, lighting up the cells underneath the skin.
Nothing like it, no thing ever felt like this energy. Known, the being that brought this recognition of an energetic presence in the body for the first time. An actual sensation, not like chills because it is not from something concerning, but something wonderful, beautiful that has never been felt before. Pure, truthful, without underlying expectations, just goodness of existence of now. Being. Being here now. Understanding that it is all a backdrop for you to create and shine.
All of everything that exist is a mass of matter that is within your creative control. All of it. Break it, repair it, hoard it, clear it, this all creates an environment around you. You are in control of matter, utilize it, discard it, make it beautiful or let it spoil. You can do any of this, everyday, your choice and not choosing is your choice. Make matter work for you haunt you, fester, or inspire. It is all in how you view the matter, people, energy existing in your environmental space.
Power in your hands, thoughts, ideas with the positive reinforcement from the heart space. No dream life was made from following a logical list of to do's. It was imagination, daydreaming, looking for what did not exist or how to change what already exists into something better. The negative mind wants to protect you, the heart wants to invest in you by showing you what the desire for a way of life that is true to your soul being. That soul looking out of your temporary being's eyes.
SUNRISE
Sunrise download, here goes:
Only poetry can come from the experience of true love. Witnessed, it must be shared. In the sharing, a discovery that is difficult to bear. Beings of the world not interested in any form of emotional energetic exchange as their task filled minds carry them frantically through another, sunrise, sunset. They never raise their eyes to appreciate. Souls of beings stuffed and forced down to meet an arbitrary ficticious goal of a number, set by another selfishly consumed soul.
All of it made up at some point in time.* Like seconds, minutes, and hours designed to restrict how moments are spent...for money that is also a fluctuating commodity. None of your best designed goals are real...they are figments, fantasy of some being with no name that designed a restriction to allow another being to prove its worth in currency, not ability or intelligence, but only productivity.
Is your heart listening? Because your mind cannot understand this form of calculation...it is all a fever dream of a very greedy being not only intending to cheat you of wages, but to use the very energy of your soul. The only revenge can be taking their money and being free..to see the sunrise, breathe and keep your energetic artisitc creative self alive...do this.
These down loads come and what comes is written:
*For some extra info, it was the Ancient Sumerians, Egyptians and Babylonians probably executed minutes/hours/days on an ancient sundial to organize work hours for construction workers (slaves?) in the Valley of the Kings. Mhm. archaeology.com
SLEEPING
Feel it coming in...here to receive it, don't know anything about what is coming. You are here with me in a moment that can only move into the future. So much talk about not letting the past be dragging down the future. Telepathic transmissions, received one earlier while cooking. A little too personal to share, but the wire, network, wi-fi is open. Channel would be the correct word, but the comparisons to computer network systems and the population just keep coming. Not going to ignore it. Also, the movement of electrons and the creation of light energy, keeps coming up. Words never heard before like dichroic. https://www.sciencedirect.com/topics/engineering/dichroic-mirror
You may read further through the link if you are a science nerd like me. Breath, breathing, learning useful breathing techniques for the body. The body is so important and sometimes the mind suggests that it really doesn't matter, the soul lasts forever, the body is going to die, do what you like. But the new info from Spirit, like the dichroic mirror are giving thought to the body becoming a light body. Not wanting to get too technical or biblical, but what really happened to the body of Jesus the three days he was "dead"? Really? We don't have a complete knowing of the actual changes that happened before ascension. Transfigured at the ascension. Transfiguration:a complete change of form or appearance into a more beautiful or spiritual state. -Oxford Dictionary
We are in the world not of it...are we capable of ascension/actualization to a state of transfiguration to live eternally in the New Earth...Jesus said to the thief on the cross, "Today you will be with me in paradise." Paradise already in existence then, Moses and Elijah coming from somewhere to take Jesus up in the clouds. Where are they? We are missing the boat I am afraid, in the waiting for Jesus to return. He's already here in the Holy Spirit waiting for us to understand the everlasting life starts now. Here, now, we are the New Earth, the temple rebuilt, after Jesus taught us to love one another. Surely missing the boat on that one, from what we are seeing world wide.
There needs to be a restructure of the temples we walk in everyday. We are it, the New Earth, we can start now. Then in a not as lovely manner, the rest of the population will have to be shown, in the physical. We will witness as we are already there in the Spirit. This sounds like the better way, go to Jesus now by letting the Spirit into the temple and perform some miracles. We are heavy and dim. We must become massless and bright, rise up to the Mount of Transfiguration and ascend. This is the goal, this is what Spirit has revealed time and again over the last two years in so many down loads. Are we going to catch on or still remain in our disbelief? We are sleeping through our moment to rise to the call, to the will of the Father, to spend eternity with them, Father, Son, Holy Ghost, Trinity. Yes. Wake up!